the prayer i hope you'll answer, lord

just felt like writing a poem so i did it on the way home tdy. not feeling any better. am still reminded by it. :`(
thou shalt cry:(


suddenly felt so thankful
suddenly felt so sad
suddenly feel
my deep bond with the team
just so suddenly do i want
to say
i love you guys!
to say, you are my greatest pals.
and the greatest team there'll ever be
to say it does not matter whatever the result
is nothing but false says.
we wan to win
so badly i can give up anything.
we want to win so badly
cos we trained so hard just for this!
i thank god for this team that i have
but i do pray you lord,
get my team in lord.
we really wanna win, lord
we really want to get in, lord.
its not fair for us, lord
for all the time and sweat we had given
and just for that twine to snap
its not fair to us
a team that so wanna get in.
tell us that life is fair
this life you've given is fair.
fair to all our efforts
fair to all us girls.
fair to all out time
finals we will be.
we cried so sadly that day, lord
that we seem to know we're out.
let us all realise
taht lord, that incident was your will
but assure pur souls dear lord
that nothing will be for sure
and that we are not for sure
bound to not gte in.
Praise be with you lord,
please show us taht miracles do happen
taht efforts do get paid off
that faith was all we need.
please tell us that we can
do it to the very finals.
thst we've praised your name and praise you lord, always be
let us know your strength, dear lord,
let us know that we'll get in.
just let us all get to enjoy
ven more time together as a team.
taht last saturday was not the end
not the end to the campcraft team.
our love for each is so
great that no one believes
deep inside our hearts all
we know that its your will
that it so happened that way
that you'll lead us through, and bless us through it'll be
we pray for your kindness
that st nicks will be in.
to cleanse us of the gulit or regret we may harbour this coming week
teach us to be strong
for we really want to get onin
relieve us of our grieves and teach us that all we need
is a prayer taht you'll answer
and that prayer this shall be.
oh, i pray you dear lord.


poem 2

is campcraft such a torture, you just couldn't make it every session?
Or is it so great being with your buddies, you'll make it no matter what?

is campcraft so torturous, that all you want is for it to end?
Or is it so enjoyable, no amount of sunlight could deny you?

is campcraft such a bother, that you get irked everytime you think about it?
Or is it so committing, that you just keep having it in your mind?

is being in campcraft an unfortunate mistake?
Or is it so enjoyable you thank god for this chance?

is being in campcraft so prestigous that you hoped someone else was in?
Or is it so close to you, you'll nver want it to end?

is Campcraft so small in your heart, that the results dont matter?
or is it so meaningful, that you would do anything in hope of getting in?

is campcraft too meaningless to you, taht all you pray is the break of every training?
Or is it such a grat opportunity, you go home feeling great everyday?

F*** the twine

warning. the following contents are highly VULGAR and i do nt care
SHITSHITHSIT SHITSHITSHITSHIT shit their twine/ :( i really wanna do it. and we cld hav just DONE IT lor pls. its was alr OUT. !!!@@#$$^*&^(*^ F#%U%^*C&*%(*&K@ wah laos! shit them go die lars. FCKU wateva. lalala sai!~ baa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 argh. i just cant still accept it. NEVER. if ms ng regretted her that thing for a yr. i'll rmb this FOR LIFE and i mean forever!$% i cant forguive myself. i mean. i shld have... argh. shant tok abt it. i feel like lousy SHIT!
oh my god.!/SHIT, go die lars. wah laos. i really cant bring myself to think tt . and the worse thing is ............! BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAaa i hate IT !!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111 iHATE M"YSLEFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF FFFff/imsorrytoallthosemaamswhohadsokindergivenencouagemt. inoedeepinurdissapointedtooinoe.donttrytosaynthgswrongcostheentireshitthingwasstupidshit

jiayous,. best:945 JIAYOUS. =)

yo yo yo. haven been UP in a week. great self controls. i've gtta repeat again..but i'm tired my body just cant take it. hmm. lets see. we 're under 11 most of the time. i HOPE AND PRAYS. yes. went PA and saw 2 other kuku schools picthing oso. got one look like acs one the CI so super xiong. thank god we got better trainers yea? tehy were like you either get the tent up or gt the skool down. -doink- somethg like that. anfd the other mixed school the weatherpiece super er xin. as in disgustingly disastrously done. but we still got a lwhole lot off ppl to beat.

had invest. ok lar exceot everyone said i was dancing with a funny expreassion., -__- ok. tired. be back soon i hope. :)

"success is for she who tries" Jiayous!

^ *looks up* yes, that's the famous line by reowned philosopy-er Lucia! - wateva.- ok aniw yes, tdta v day!!!!so happy v day to everyone!!! yays. *world peace**world peace* -__________ -ok, i just a lil lame tdy. aniw, had ccc as usual. Yesterdays et record for under 11 ..
10.36! hehs!! yays. but ytd the grd was hard/ so its really an achivement. tdy the gd was HARDER! much more. and yes, that's the St nicholas desert we never quite experience b4. haven been online for LONNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG. very long, that is. :)hehs. time to get lesser com time, yar? tdy .was v difficult, very treachous. technically and emotionally. was scolding 'damn it' all the time i was pegging. take at least 20plus pegging to get it in lors. when packing up, i'm like so wanted to shout. -___-
hehs. tired tired./happy v day!.. anuiw got another bout of blisters, at the exact same spot. plus the ones on my darlign toes.

Zoee, yiteng, chuanting ,gen, sinyao,chin, chua,liying,yoshi ,siowyi!must take care kaes!
esp zoee and yiteng's finger, and chuantg's and gen's hands! and chua's shoulder. jiayous

kuku at PA:)

went PA for the brieifng/ indeeed, we got the wrong time alr. its suppposed to get there at
9. and 3 officials asked"so, u r late" 3 times individually. and i'm like .no we are not
informed that its 9. we tot it was 11..
... but was okay larS:) typing out the q and a thingy. took some pics.make me look so kuku :) i am anyway.

yi ding yao jin finals. - yes ma'am

met zhenting tody. was realli happi to meet her. really haven seen her since at least 3 months plus plus alr. felt nervous but scared to see her actually. cos i noe tt theyir ccc v v v v v good. alr 10mins plau only lor.s hmm. was actually v sad today one cos of recee trg thingy. .but after seeing her. she renew my faith. she renewed my will bcos of one phrase she said. " yi ding yao jin finals k " (must get into finals k) its just so melt me. :) love her so much! thanks zhenting!!!! she's really nice!!!!!!!!!!! yays. i really hope we get in too. REALLY. which means we need to Jia jia jia yous. cos we really need to JIA a lot. :( should stop feeling sad.and yes .
really hate to compete with my friends. i nv like wining them (much to the reason i love san nian er ban. reaD:da lyrics) i nv like to gen bia ren bi. but now, i must. and i waih them well too! got atleast 3 friends i noe in ccc liaos lor. :( hm.
crysaal say i'm an evternal focus pt or smthg person. hmm ./so right, but cant help it mahs. i could only pray. and leave all focus to tmr 's trg alr. thansk zhentng! we WILL get into finals. (if only we continue to try hard enough) and we will!!!!!!!!! :/
god bless

the standstill. i hate it

this was supposed to be yestedy's post

ccc tdy.trely sepressing.plus the fact that ,y com only a littlle conked up only ahrs. cant belive i'm usuign notepad to type.smth'g wrong with teh connection. or the com's connection at least. just done up the ccc tent mark scheme. hope its okay. realising the stnadstil. wat can we do to motivate? saw phs again/ was thinking of com tee/ but doubt any1 would support my idea aniw/. hehs. or ccc tots bk. or ccc towel! just an identity. or mayb b4 each session have a 15 mins netball session? just smthg to get us going? dunno lars.. wait till i have the internet up first..

sad:(

yesterday was unit day. mmust say i only went for the dinner.cos i merely did!. hehs had cc. its being to standsill.the timing. and my skills are getting worse and worse. more and more mistakes pop.more and more creases/. more and more lan pitch cos of me... baa!... :( i'm sorry. :`( ./ hehhehs. suddenyl feelinjg so sad cos there's something wrong with the sound recorder thing on my com. baa!. i guess i said countless baa here alr. in the post far below. baa. . . suddenyl remeber i must learn to play the opiano. cos i wan to! its been in me for very long. very very. baa. hais. gta study latert.got geog n amaths. i dun wanna drop it. i wan to PASS AMATHS! hopefully this test. :( baa.