outside, the sun blazes
yet within the wind is chilling.
maybe it's destined
i will always be disappointed
maybe it's innate
i'll never be happy
or maybe it's plain
i'm always too demanding.
yet dont we always keep things in, yet hoping to be surprised? don't we always hide? afraid of exposing overselves to more hurt.
Apr 30, 2011
Apr 25, 2011
when
when you realise the nearing end, you panic, you struggle to hold onto anything you could. anything that might have any significance. anything but what's truly worthy.
when you're on the verge of losing, how do you grapple with it, really? loosening your hold any second might mean you'll lose it forever. yet grabbing it harder and holding on is bound to cut into your skin and leaving you hurt.
there's no easy way about it, is there?
i get lost all too often. in this big wide world, in more domains than one. but where i'm most hopelessly lost, is in understanding people. real living humans, with wandering obscure minds, i understand not. perhaps not even my own.
when you're on the verge of losing, how do you grapple with it, really? loosening your hold any second might mean you'll lose it forever. yet grabbing it harder and holding on is bound to cut into your skin and leaving you hurt.
there's no easy way about it, is there?
i get lost all too often. in this big wide world, in more domains than one. but where i'm most hopelessly lost, is in understanding people. real living humans, with wandering obscure minds, i understand not. perhaps not even my own.
Apr 16, 2011
Apr 9, 2011
because i...
never felt good enough.
for the truth
might never will. bahhh
多的是你不知道的事
ahh, really want a good read now. was in the bookstores the other day and really really want to buy books. but i mustn't and shouldn't. i should read readings, not books. april is here, i have to work hard. jiayou jiayou lu. (: hang on til the end.
for the truth
might never will. bahhh
多的是你不知道的事
ahh, really want a good read now. was in the bookstores the other day and really really want to buy books. but i mustn't and shouldn't. i should read readings, not books. april is here, i have to work hard. jiayou jiayou lu. (: hang on til the end.
