and four; repeat steps one through three

cecs! I've tried tagging for the past weeks, and I can sign ur gbk :( anyhow, JIAYOUS FOR PROWLING. We'll meet up and talk and everythign else aft prelims and As! I've been wanting to tagg :( but eveyrtime cant.

one, you're like a dream come true
two, just wanna be with you
three, girl it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
four, repeat steps one tru three
five, make you fall in love with me
if ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one

okay, i havent been studying since i came back for three days, but tmr's a half day so yay. i promise myself i must study from tmr onwards. today, jus let me be. i admit ive been blog stalking :/ so i shant do that so often from tmr onwards. i promise i promise i promise.

sometimes i wished i could just stop. just stop and let all the other rushing people pass me by.i'd jus watch their hurried backs from the back, taking the path on, with my own pace. but i cant. circumstances deems so. :/

i was looking through the past one year's entry at haloscan(my trusty gbk). all the msges are really sweet. :) its just things like this that will make me look dumb smiling at the monitor. anyhow, its last day of term three tmr! WOAH. we've come a long way, yet the journey seems too short. i miss mrs seah, and sadly i cant go back tmr. i'll make it back one day next term. i will.

the coming one week holiday wun be much of a holiday. i must use it, i promise, for fruitful studying. im too far back, too lagg behind that im amazed at how unconcerned i am about my pace vs others'.

becks! i wish for u to be happy too! :)

i'm trying, i'm trying hard to bring a smile to my lips. focus darling me. no more blogging (unless its for a good reason) im v random here. :/

this is what we'll get. ;)

this is what we'll get. ;)

ive taken to taking lame pics like this one :/ DANG. but its true okay, dont we all wnat A1s and As on the cert? ;)

i wish there was all positiveness in this world. that way, lu will feel a much happier girl in more than half her life worthof days. but then again, im always reminded that like protons in the nucleus thats posiitvely charged, they need neutrons and electrons to neutralises the atom and so do our lives :/ im a good girl, i revised physics. but if only life was like a nucleus, i wont mind either. jus neutrons and protons, no negativities! whee.

I hope its mutual.

ive mastered (okay, not really mastered but, learnt and know) how to play HAPPY BIRTHDAY and TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STARS on e guitar! (: whee! arent u happy for me? ;)

shucks. less than two weeks to prelims. ive gotta concentrate and not think too much (or even at all) about other things. time will reveal itself, now, i must study! i hope i keep to this.last week of sch today, threeday week.

mich is super sweet to call me tdy to ask me to go back stnicks to study. thanks so much dear, someone ive missed so much and havent seen in months! many many months! but didnt cos i was alr studying in sch :/ but i missed her and joy (my happiness) qt a bit. alrite, stop being nostagic, stupid me.

becca told me once that her 'i'd rather not' can be used in many aspects. today i tot that 'i hope its mutual' can equaly be applied to many aspects, the it can refer to many things. yay.

and osy called ytd only to ask how to dl mp3! :( boo. but i miss her all the same! <3 altho she dont love me anymore, one sided love's the way to go aye :( i had a happy chat ytd. yayness.

books calling.

oh by the way, talking abt books, it reminds me, ive not read storybooks for a longg time! i need a good read, yet im afraid that once i borrow the book, its not a good read, and it'll only sadden me for not using my time to mugg instead. dilemma! i need good reads soon! (ok, in a months' time, i must get my good read! ) i need recommendations. my last book was kite runner and man, that was really long ago! it was in june1 :(

feels empty

I was looking through sixoh’s blog, jus suddenly felt like doing so. And I look through a zillion pics they took on the last day of school. And this empty feeling just came. It doesn’t help that jay’s new song qian li zi wai, is melancholic and all. Its about feeling that same lost that I will feel in a weeks’ time. Perhaps its all a preamble.

Feels empty
This life
When the bestest things in life leaves
They say all good things ends
So can I say its bad,
Only to wish for it to continue?

Feels weird
This life
Its like a fork without a spoon
A pair without its right foot
Its forgoing a part
Yet its forced away from you

Inevitable, you say
But thee must be a way to stop it, aint there?

I always stop short of taking people only because I know freezing expressions are perhaps the best use of the cam becos some say, pictures are the best memories. But im afraid I cant capture the entire mood into one frame, becos ive failed too often, I stop doing it. one day I hope I can succeed in bringing smiles forth. becos i want to keep all those 23 other smiles ive seen in class for the past 17months with me.

apple of thy eye

apple of thy eye

Today’s Friday and I think this Friday is great (: perhaps its from eating yummylicious kfc chicken or perhaps its the great company at kfc or perhaps its cos this week I’ve been stationery shopping a lot(which always makes me happy but its addictive and burns holes in my pocket) or perhaps its seeing buddy at such an unexpected time and after due absence from each other’s life or pehrpas cos this friday is one friday i may miss in weeks. this friday is good. thus far

kfc with jo and jas. yay cos lu is a kfc chicken lover. original one pls. and ive bought five pens this week! (: i really shld attempt to use pen buying to make my day cos it'll make me broke at the same time too. adn then i saw buddy at the train station, man i miss her. she's gtta prettier everytime i see her. ahah. and i reach home at six plus and decided that since ive slacked my afternoon away, might as well slack somemore and wenta RUN and took some pics. i need photography as a way of release. sweaty release (;

we discussed the importance of the Arts in society and all. and ms tan said smth abt photography being an art form being somehow ambiguous and debatable. but i love lit and poems even though i cant understand many of the meanings. i think its beautiful how few lines, can mean so much when structured in that particular way.

this week have been well spent and despite knowing that ppl are mugging really hard now, it worries me that im not rushed. :/ pls wake me up. two weeks is all i have until the preWAR.

my husband JAYchou is releasing his album (: YAY and what makes that happiness double is that its the second FANTASY and fantasy is my fave album of all times. yayness. septeight shall be my fave day in sept. and i heard my husband sing the song with feiyuqing and im not dissapointed! WHEE its still that good talented voice. no matter what others say.

i am a happy girl, but i cant say too much, cos if u say too much, it'll leave u. and i want to remain happy and contented lik i am today.

school's ending and there's prolly not much time we can spend as a class. ive been thinking (like jinggang always does, excpet that i think alone) about where to go from here, about where i should move on to, and whether i can even move on at all. i think i'll miss non uniform days becos lu have no dress sense and it'll only make me dread gg out even more. and i have less reasons to be happy abt. sch can be a happy place okay. and from after As, we'll all go diff ways. at least, what i'm sure is that my way wouldnt be a way many people will go. my preferred way. at least in class, i know much wouldnt. i will miss havign them as classmates, but before i do so, let me cherish them first.

would u be the someone i miss?


oneliner! shucks, i broke my own promise not to be online. ok shall change it to, shant be online for too long :) yay

monotonures

rights.

i dont know if the word in the title even exist. but i know why the pics im posting are mostly in monotones. i cant see colour. not literally, but rather figuratively. imagine this, u're at home, at ur study table, how much colour can there be? paper are mostly white, save for the cover of tyses. nahh, actually, its jus my excuse for being lousy in skils and having to rely on montones to make a pic more understandable.

ahh well, random photos are my muggin's greatest sidekick. :) but im happy ( 2 ) ppl think my photos are nice becos most time its jus plain random. and i think i do spam and delete a lot more than i hope i do. i would think, of cos, of how to take it, but often i'll jus shoot a few and delete whatever's not so nice to me. but it still leaves me with many substandard images, yet i cnat bear to delete them and its lagging down my com speed. sometimes i think i jus lik to be selfdeluded and think im the world's most talented photographer. but of cos i am no where near. too far actually, for it to be true but small praises do make my day .

goodnews, ive been mugging. badnews, it sadly ant enuff and time passes way too fast!

anyhow i spent a great saturday (prolly one of the last) with my yz gang eating breakfast and the usual yupianmeefen. im glad it tasted the same to me unlike what cg says, have changed. i hate changes to a large extent. my mum asked me if we were like to move house in a few yrs time, and my first tot was, yes, but to somewhere in yishun still. HAHA. den hats the point of moving ehh? but it'll be so weird if we move outta yishun cos ive been living here all my life. ahh. i am not the adaptable ppl the govt is seeking youths to become.

ohwells! monday ahead, short days frm now on which means that we'll be a lot more isolated as classies.

my usual lovely isolated yet not so isolated, hot and humid but quite cooling secret spot. i shouldnt be posting in a few days at least (i hope) so bless me and bless you. takecare everybody :)

i'll cherish

bottle of used batteries

whee thursday was great fun! no gp lessons so e girls had a great game of basketball, smth we hadn't done for so long. like, since this yr started. yays yays. (: muscle ache today, which is quite good news, which means that i really did exercised. plus three rounds-ed with jia! healthy girl healthy girl! but exercise cant be a one week once off activity. i hope i'll make more effort to squeeze time in during mugging sessions to run. and plus i didnt come online ytd! finally resisted the urge to do so.

this phrase remained with me even as conversations end. everyone lives for a different purpose. simple as it sounded, it actually struck me that i'm living life without much purposes. other than my occasional purpose=meeting jaychou and getting him to marry me thoughts, i have little other motivations in life. or rather, i'm not doing what motivates me even though i know what do.

sigh mugging days ahead. pls jiayou! a mere three weeks left and i aint stressed up, its stressful enuff knowing it. shortened timetable ahead, hopefully it leads to productive studying! yangzheng tmr, prolly the last few times we can gather and go back. i'll cherish.

and godbless everyone! pls dont fall sick!

its okay

Today the straits times digital life female photographers who’ve sort of made it. most are pros with a career in photography or related to it, another a freelance. I agree that the photography scene in Singapore now is still very much male dominated (though the PS rations beg to differ). I was very upset about this TIP that one of the featured photographers gave – a good print is the result of 50percent photographer’s skills and 50 percent printer’s capability. learn photoshop!

Even after being in ps for a yr plus and now graduating from it already, I have never believed a lot in photoshop. I believe that good photography lies in the photographer capturing that moment rightly at the press of the shutter, and not the after-shot work on the computer. Never will I believe that a good print will result from merely photoshoping away. If we really want good prints, it should start, and end, at the moment one clicks the shutter. Yes, I have seen the wonders of what photoshop can do, and some effects are cool, but that’s all nonexistent in real life aint they? Fictional. Sigh, I’ll never get my way through on this topic :/ too many people believes in photoshop to hear me. and its really sad. its probably reality, you would say, that technology hve taken over so much.

on to some other random rants.
sometimes i think i can only be strong, this much. i can only appear to be brave this much. i always tell myself its okay, its okay its okay. its okay if you are alone, its okay if people are ignoring you, its okay if you dont have a goodfriend, its okay even if you fail, its okay even if the whole world is ahead and you're enjoying the peace, its okay when people do things that irritate me, its okay when i get bad results and i shouldnt show it, its okay if no one wants to hear you out, its okay if no one knows and understands the way you think.

its okay even if nothing's okay.
but really, nothing is okay.

there's something about you thats so confusing

alluring grey tones

if u think this pic is blur, its not! its sharp at the far far far away end okay! i feel sad whenever i take blur pics. cos u can retake cos its pointless, but u cant make it pretty enuff. that said, there's always some blur pics thats very intricating. exceptions do happen.

ok i think one day if my camera were to abandon me, i think i will cry :( becos i like taking random stuffs and showing it to the entire world (ok only the stalkers who frequent my blog) DANG

i just thought while waiting for the bus that misunderstanding arises because we dont know enough. and i jus hope to find someone who'll make me a good listener and listen to me rant only when i feel lik it. on other days, i'll just be happy being a good listener. but its hard to find that someone whoever he/she is. perhaps the closest i could find is my writtendiary. only thing is *gasps* it cant talk :/ i'm random i jus need to type and rant away enuff so i would go to do complex numbers.

days without direction passes by fast. it may make life easier, but definitely not as meaningful.

why do i always come online? pls help me solve the riddle so i can not come online so oft ): i needa find some motivation :( and fast cos times running pass. flying in fact . fireworks on saturday were okayly. fireworks are pretty but there'll barely in view from where i was. notworthit! sunday badmintoned with my sis! yays. and she's v dumb cos she kept saying im lousy and in turn i'll say she's terrible, whichever aspect it may mean. :P

i need an icecream/secretrecipe day out. badly

this i promise you

this i promise you

sometimes i think, i dont know how impt i am to you, but i do know how impt each one of you out there are to me. i wished i could read minds so i can satisfy this hungry curiousity of mine in knowing how or what i mean to other people. im a weird kid. i have always found it difficult to tell people what i wan to tell them, and what ive always wished i'd said. somehow i cant talk to people. i talk a lot, but i cant talk. okay, contradictory. i talk alot about nothing, but nothing abt anything thats close to my heart. ok, to that few, i do.

so happyfying. received a new mail frm goodold jasminelee :) i love old age snail mail. cos with snail mail i can sense the happiest better, i can keep the happiest longer and i can see the actual handwriting, deco and all. i love old age snail mail! its an impt thing to me, i hope postman would nv run out of jobs and my letterbox will nv run out of letters. ok, its non enviromental friendly but, its so happyfying that im willing to sacrifice and write smaller words for gp and dun leave lines while doing tutorials to save paper so that i cna continue receiving snailmail. :)

and i didnt get to watch my ocip team present ) : cos im a guai kia who went for phys lect. i miss nan and the whole bunch of nice kids and people there. but dun get me started on the THOSE WHO WENT FOR LAST YR OCIP PLS DO NOT GO; GIVE OTHERS A CHANCE. it angers me. and yay classies says my specs look nice. ok, only baguamate gushing over it la. but everyone looks cute in my specs too! so it means that its the specs that cute and cool and not me ): ok, shall be posiitve and make myself easier to attract an electron (cos its negativecharged). oh wells, physicsfreak.

i hope there will be no more poverty in the world and kids can play run and live happily, no matter the continent they're on.

havent

i havent been doing anything the entire day
i havent met up with OSY whom i miss qt a bit and she's so busy
i havent mugg ):
i have yet to make up a tune on the guitar yet

i am so unaccomplished today! but ive got new specs! yay frm now on, new specs means JIAYOU (: hoho

in reverse order

in reverse order

nationalday!

nationalday!

As my sister said rightly, everytime when national day’s here, somehow, no matter how boring the show might me, I will always feel and want to watch it. and somehow, it does touches hearts at some point. like how i will always imitate the parade commander and his berissssss enlongated commands and GRIN happily when i guess correct the last syallbus. and how i will always sing the theme song each year, thinking im the original singer or smth. like how i will be realyl happy and motviated to sing along ALL the singaporely songs. i like national day, not cos it brings along days of lazing at home and celebration, but also it mades me feel with the country. some people may want to leave singapore as soon as they can afford it, but i guess i nv wil. everything here's too familiar and attached tht i will nv want ot migrate.

alright, that said, i know i sound like some patriotic freak (i will look more like afreak tmr with my new nerdy specs), but really, thats how i feel every national day. like how in aj ytd i was jumping ard singing STAND UP FOR SINGAPORE. and i think my fave singer thinks im some weird kid. oh wells, i dont care cos its fun! and the thought that its prolly the last happiest celebration before the oh-so-dreaded prelims and As, makes me want to enjoy it more. its prolly the last time i get to celebrate national day , like truly. plus REDEMPTION makes a birthday song sound wayy cool and make HOME sound so homely? yay! me and jo was like crazy women shouting away for redemption. the rest of the class was stuck at the side :( but im sure they SHOUTED TOO! and lol we shouted weihui instead of zxiong when he won the ND superstar. and JOLENELOW was gushing over tsk tsk. and so VIN is MINE :P drummer with drummer alrites, the guitarist is mine. hoho. im sucha tyrant ):

anyway, ive finally changed my sidebar! no more saving up for guitar cos lu is an aspiring strummer! ive been strumming for days but it does sound like any music at all! try harder lu! (but its hard keeping away frm the guitar thats lying there, tempting me! :( where's my tempting homework? pls try harder to tempt me pls)

ALRITES! pls mugg pls mugg lik how everyone is.

this one's for one special girl.

becos im too excited to celebrate and announce the beckoning of the big ONE EIGHT(really, trust me, ive been ranting for more than a week to jo that shuiying's bday coming.. haha ) for ms shuiying, im posting my fave pic which i hadnt wanted to upload for qt some time for you! my darling bestest friend. happy EIGHTEEN in abt one and a half hours time. doubt i'll be meeting u for u bday (again for the second yr) :( but whatever it is, laowang if u still drop by here, ur present is erm, soon to come! :) u rock! thanks for cheering me up without having to do anything much. may ur life be as colourful as crayons! :) and meetupsoon! muchlovesss!

hangs dry the pinkbluepink

hangs dry the pinkbluepink

It was how it used to be. I guess as one grows up, he have to learn to deal with too many things in life that sometimes, he loses focus, he gets distracted at some point in time. hmm i cant handle stress which is why i am resisting in putting the 'prelims in five weeks and less' message in mind now. cos i will stress i really will. i havent started revision when prolly 99.9 percent of the cohort have. and this goes to show tmr's thermodyn isnt going to be fantastically easy as well. :(

nvm! if u're as sad as i am and as dead as well, CHEERUP! at least national day is coming and rotting days awaits! erm i mean, more time to study days awaits! yay. shouldnt we all celebrate ? fireworks! WHEE! i hope this ntl day would be good! and ahpyp most imptly. lucks to me now!

tutucians ive uploaded some pics up the class photobucket (seems to be alteranting btw me and jo's uploads) ! yayness to classshoes! :)

i hate how i cant solve problems even if people tell me them yet i really want to help share some burden; i hate how i would say things that i dont mean, and dont want to yet i do ; i hate how my impulses would control me yet now i am way too indecisive; i hate how people conform yet i end up being the lonely non-er.

its so contradictory. oh well i think we all just shldnt care. yet i dont lik seeing bothered faces because its depressing. u dun say, i dun ask. lets all be ignorant. maybe they were right, ignorance is bliss.

am watching superband. i hate shows lik this cos eveyrtime they're ending i feel damn sad and v lost ); no more jingbao and MLB on mondays night, fighting with jo abt vin and all. lonely mondays! and i really miss jingbao performing (mainly cos the lead's cute) but they have super good music too! alrite, music makes me happy so i am! CYA

my FIRST guitar / becos i know from this moment on, we'll embark on paths so different.

my FIRST guitar

yay.i got my first guitar! (: whee! but now doubt i'll ever get the time to even practise the few lines of songs that peijia taught! i still rmb them okay! :) thanks dajie! YAY!

ive been wanting to blog abt THE BASIC BAND and this is ann appropriate time bcos the basic band guitarist finally got her guitar! thats me! :) introducing to you, our basic band comprises of jo the drummmmer, chinguan the singer (world champ singer okay!) , suyee the violinist, jasmine the manager , weisheng the [shucks i forgot] but still part of our band okay! and me the guiatrist. selfproclaimed i realise.but it made me happy for that five mins tho i forgot half the content that we were crapping abt. HAHS.

happy birthday baguamate! i love u a lot alot!

i feel old, even before i reach ripe old eighteen:( i kept telling jo (and to some nil response) that im having osterporsis and rheutmaism (pardon the spelling). when the weather gets a bit colder, i feel lik my joints are aching. and today i feel so childishly stupid cos i decide to play and rush for maths lect. end up tripping on the stairs and twisting my left ankle and now its still alil pain. thankgod im not crippled ): inability to run will be very saddening for someone with no other talents. so sad, i just chased ard for like 5 secs and fell? when brian (that naughty yz boy) can run fall flat down and get up immediately to chase aft someone else :( oh well jus tll me its just my bones arent working for me ): jus tell me im not getting young anymore.

okay, just four more liners;

1/ if you dont say, i dont know, we'll all be ignorant :( and 2/ it hurts to say class is ending soon ! 3/ hahs, i only wish for you all to be happy! :) 4/ becos i know from this moment on, we'll embark on paths so different. :(