tdy went back sn for teh prize thing and nv returned to aj. haha. missed the make ups la, but was jus tleling myself nvm. i will catch up soon. someone mugg physics with me pls! im in dire need of help! cecs told me to blog abt smth happy. went back SN tdy talk to mrs seah. makes mefeel happyla. den went back sixoh den we talked for so long in the canteen :) missed crapping and chatting away and laughg out loud. mightnt go back for sometime cos i needa conc on getting my physics back b4 i hav some fun. hais. stressed.
but i can do it. cos i noe all my friends r behind me! ahha i hope so tho. watever la. sighs. eveyrone in the new hc uni vnice. hais... :) i must be happy, so muct all sixohian!!!! dun cry and dun tell lucy har! if nt i;ll be v sad. aniw tdy went back hc lik laugh more than i spent the entire day at aj la. hais... but things will get better
i needa move on cos time dun wait. :) smile ppeps!
Mar 30, 2005
hmm i dunno. but there's this emptiness, just this different feeling when i got back hc tdy., brought along mic and yoshi. sorry i abandon u.
its just different alr. seeing chujie at our class bench... ok maybe not mine anymore. yupps. lik, htings jus feel weird alr. lik im nt as close to anyone anymore? like our closeness is gone? maybe i was just in a bad mood or smthg. and eveyrone jus happen to be too...lik everyone was just damn sad when i go back. dunno y. hais. like, have things changed so much? so rapidly tht i could no longer catch up? hais.
i feel more drifter away alr. lik all our chitchats, lik all the insider jokes, i no longer understand as well, im no longer a part ? i dunno. but it feels not lik b4 i guess.
mayb i jus holding on to too much of the past . and so i am outaplace in both my dream home and my present jail? ahah. ok, couldnbt find a better word. i guess it'll get better. i hope.
seeing fish in new nj uni, seing them with the hc uni, a part in me just ache. yet another part asks me to move on. i think wat mavis says is probably wat i dread most... that we'll eventually become
empty friendds. friends with empty friendships?
something about walking past your ex classmate and saying hi and something about some empty friendship or whatever and then i started imagining me walking past anyone of you with the same kind of relation and it's like i won't be a part of 60 anymore and when i come back and sit at the class bench with you all we won't have anything to talk about anymore and soon we'll drift apart and i won't go back anymore then i won't be friends with you all anymore then we'll start saying empty hi's and whatevermkgjklfjdklfsd. will we wont be friends anymore? like real friends? i noe everyone says we'll keepp in touch and all. but time, distance gone is nv taken back. soon, i'll be a mere visitor than part of it. i dunno. but i feel outaplace.evrywhr? hais, gg to bed with a bed feeling again. shucks.
its just different alr. seeing chujie at our class bench... ok maybe not mine anymore. yupps. lik, htings jus feel weird alr. lik im nt as close to anyone anymore? like our closeness is gone? maybe i was just in a bad mood or smthg. and eveyrone jus happen to be too...lik everyone was just damn sad when i go back. dunno y. hais. like, have things changed so much? so rapidly tht i could no longer catch up? hais.
i feel more drifter away alr. lik all our chitchats, lik all the insider jokes, i no longer understand as well, im no longer a part ? i dunno. but it feels not lik b4 i guess.
mayb i jus holding on to too much of the past . and so i am outaplace in both my dream home and my present jail? ahah. ok, couldnbt find a better word. i guess it'll get better. i hope.
seeing fish in new nj uni, seing them with the hc uni, a part in me just ache. yet another part asks me to move on. i think wat mavis says is probably wat i dread most... that we'll eventually become
empty friendds. friends with empty friendships?
something about walking past your ex classmate and saying hi and something about some empty friendship or whatever and then i started imagining me walking past anyone of you with the same kind of relation and it's like i won't be a part of 60 anymore and when i come back and sit at the class bench with you all we won't have anything to talk about anymore and soon we'll drift apart and i won't go back anymore then i won't be friends with you all anymore then we'll start saying empty hi's and whatevermkgjklfjdklfsd. will we wont be friends anymore? like real friends? i noe everyone says we'll keepp in touch and all. but time, distance gone is nv taken back. soon, i'll be a mere visitor than part of it. i dunno. but i feel outaplace.evrywhr? hais, gg to bed with a bed feeling again. shucks.
Mar 29, 2005
hurrs,
ok, was trying to sound happy and un-sianed at class blog. now is sianing time. tdy at aj during the breaks just felt this wave of i dunno wat feeling. just felt terrible and all...missing school and eveyrthing. everyone. but gradualy got better. i guess its jus this transition. buying uni on fri or thurs i think. ahah. hais cant bear to put aside the lovely pinafore. but all things do come to an end?
was v dissapointed w my new class? they lik didnt wanna meet us liddat ? guess there was too many sn girls or smth? dunno but just didnt felt welcomed in 22/05...but things will get better i guess. no hongli, no BP ppl else they'll surely be my best fren. ahha :) but thanks for evrything
everyone back at sixoh. thanks foryour smses, keeping me updated on everythg happening in class. it really kept me going in aj. knowing u guys are okay in sixoh. i hope.things must go on. so must life. its really nt the second intakers fault they're in sixoh. its God's will, life's plan for them. and so is the case for myself
but howwever hard i tell myself to not look back and regret so many things, and to count my blessings, its just...harrd. iguess its just me. jus hope the sixoh ppl will open their hearts to the new ppl cos its hard to adapt in a new place, with no frens. im experiencing it noww. so i noe. :/ hurrs. but lucia, things will get better. it will! youve been thru the worst alr! wats a lil thing lik this? aniw, the aj sci burette use the clip again,which means i mus change again. why is it that everytime i fall in love with smth and things must change?
and im sick of all these trials nd challenges coming my wayy. i have taken enuff these recent days!pls. peace to me! :D
god bless! i wish the best for you. oh.palyed bball w mic jus now, got off all my frustatratns! yays. im a happy girl now.
was v dissapointed w my new class? they lik didnt wanna meet us liddat ? guess there was too many sn girls or smth? dunno but just didnt felt welcomed in 22/05...but things will get better i guess. no hongli, no BP ppl else they'll surely be my best fren. ahha :) but thanks for evrything
everyone back at sixoh. thanks foryour smses, keeping me updated on everythg happening in class. it really kept me going in aj. knowing u guys are okay in sixoh. i hope.things must go on. so must life. its really nt the second intakers fault they're in sixoh. its God's will, life's plan for them. and so is the case for myself
but howwever hard i tell myself to not look back and regret so many things, and to count my blessings, its just...harrd. iguess its just me. jus hope the sixoh ppl will open their hearts to the new ppl cos its hard to adapt in a new place, with no frens. im experiencing it noww. so i noe. :/ hurrs. but lucia, things will get better. it will! youve been thru the worst alr! wats a lil thing lik this? aniw, the aj sci burette use the clip again,which means i mus change again. why is it that everytime i fall in love with smth and things must change?
and im sick of all these trials nd challenges coming my wayy. i have taken enuff these recent days!pls. peace to me! :D
god bless! i wish the best for you. oh.palyed bball w mic jus now, got off all my frustatratns! yays. im a happy girl now.
trials too many?
i dunno. but im sick and tired of having to go thru all these trials. its too many too much too overpowering for me. yet each day i find myself facing one more even b4 the previous could be overcome. i am very veyr sorry that i didnt go back hc tdy. i was even ready to pon sch, den after that i was alr standing at the busstop waiting for 852. yet once again it dawned on me tht i wun noe if they'll be there for me, wun noe how to console when i myself am feeling sucky and terrible in sch tdy. i am very sorry i have nt been a good friend. i really wanted to go back, but im no longer part of hc. i shld noe.
Mar 28, 2005
just tot of doing smthg witty.
I cant help it if everyone in hwachong loves our class and wants to come in.
seriously, sixoh, we cant help it if our class just rocks right?
we cant help it if our class is simply attractive to eveyrone and everyone wants sixoh.
aww, we're so loved! yea man. feeling better now. and accpting the fact alr la. but i'll be going hc often! dun ban be frm doing that! :P
and i think i owe lao mao lunch:( our econs test bet. but i dun even noe how much i got! bahhh.
I cant help it if everyone in hwachong loves our class and wants to come in.
seriously, sixoh, we cant help it if our class just rocks right?
we cant help it if our class is simply attractive to eveyrone and everyone wants sixoh.
aww, we're so loved! yea man. feeling better now. and accpting the fact alr la. but i'll be going hc often! dun ban be frm doing that! :P
and i think i owe lao mao lunch:( our econs test bet. but i dun even noe how much i got! bahhh.
(:ANYthing can change, but memories cant!
was worrying for the class ppl. becca said at first that at first becca sistalh ma haveta change, den it became ma and van and hongli cant come back. wahh. damn irritating! im v frustrated so just let me be la. i cant post this in cl blog cos i cant be critcal cos the new intakers are...supposed to feel homed at the cl blog! so this is my only solace! :D why would ppl be so frigging stupid to wan the damn lcme combi! irritaing la. (sorry yvonne, youre an exception! ) WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT THE ORIGINAL 6 ppl will become 1 in 3 mths? stupiiiiid! not the new intake but the stupid combi. but then again, without it i may nt hav landed mysself straight into sixoh the nice wonderful class! but i dunno.i just wan no wan to leave. but its is inevitable. at least now 6A sounds like a nice class afta all. nice ppl there and eveyrthing. new class new beginning! all the best darlings! lucy loves you! and at leats van got her friend there. :D
yupps.feeeling musch much better after saying all my frustratns out.cldnt tell the class cos it'll make eveyrone feel sad. but im nt agt the second intakers and new peeps. the two frm a13 is nt bad lathey're the niccer ppl in 13 alr. haha! so yeps.
tmr will see my new class.was telling hongli tt we somewat the same cos both of us adapt 4 times. me 2ogs 2 class. she 1og 3 classes. at first wanted hongli for assis CT rep one, but now... i have set my eyes on... (IT MUST B A GIRL! ) jan? i dunno. ahah! anyw cant interfere now can i ? hais.
i just hope i wll nt feel lost in insider jokes when i go back,it'll be an awful feeling. really :) i just wish the best for everyone! and any secrets! tell lucy. i wil no longer tell anyone. or be able to either. ahah! lucks to lucy for her new class. ahah
and sister! i told u my instinct damn accurate one la! cant stay it *beams* lalal! hohohohohoho! :D share more!
yupps.feeeling musch much better after saying all my frustratns out.cldnt tell the class cos it'll make eveyrone feel sad. but im nt agt the second intakers and new peeps. the two frm a13 is nt bad lathey're the niccer ppl in 13 alr. haha! so yeps.
tmr will see my new class.was telling hongli tt we somewat the same cos both of us adapt 4 times. me 2ogs 2 class. she 1og 3 classes. at first wanted hongli for assis CT rep one, but now... i have set my eyes on... (IT MUST B A GIRL! ) jan? i dunno. ahah! anyw cant interfere now can i ? hais.
i just hope i wll nt feel lost in insider jokes when i go back,it'll be an awful feeling. really :) i just wish the best for everyone! and any secrets! tell lucy. i wil no longer tell anyone. or be able to either. ahah! lucks to lucy for her new class. ahah
and sister! i told u my instinct damn accurate one la! cant stay it *beams* lalal! hohohohohoho! :D share more!
Mar 27, 2005
shit.my anxiety post is gone! baa! am undecided whether i shld try my last chance at appealing tmr. i really really dunno. i lack courage. i fear rejection. honglis not ard, and theres no one to really advice me. all my er jie is saying is to just try and go for it. whatever the outcome is. but i lack courage
bai liu li bai, hui bu hui kai?
liu ling liu ling zhong four d (clap to beat)
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
ling wu liu ling
hongli. will u ever see this? im desperate! give me some advice pls! argh. am dying. if im going i can get my mum to let me pon aj tmr and go hc
help!
bai liu li bai, hui bu hui kai?
liu ling liu ling zhong four d (clap to beat)
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
ling wu liu ling
hongli. will u ever see this? im desperate! give me some advice pls! argh. am dying. if im going i can get my mum to let me pon aj tmr and go hc
help!
am undecided if i shd try the last chance to appeal. honglis nt ard, theres no one to really advice me.all my sis is saying is jus go for it; so i dunno.
if i am, i'll be gg back hc and ponning aj. but thing is, i lack courage
wonder if hongli will ever see this today. meanwhile, just gonna blog our class cheer that i so wanted to say and cheer tgt with them again
bai liu li bai, hui bu hui kai?
liu ling liu ling zhong four d (claps to beat)
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
ling wu liu ling!!!
so unique, 100% ohfivesixoh mans. :) grins. im damn proud of my class. but i guess i cant find the courage to go back and ask abt appeals. :(hurrs.
if i am, i'll be gg back hc and ponning aj. but thing is, i lack courage
wonder if hongli will ever see this today. meanwhile, just gonna blog our class cheer that i so wanted to say and cheer tgt with them again
bai liu li bai, hui bu hui kai?
liu ling liu ling zhong four d (claps to beat)
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
liu ling liu ling zhong four d
ling wu liu ling!!!
so unique, 100% ohfivesixoh mans. :) grins. im damn proud of my class. but i guess i cant find the courage to go back and ask abt appeals. :(hurrs.
just tired.so wana blog.actually its sian. after tdy my entire week will hata be spent in aj :( hurr. my sis still ask me to try appealing. guess she noes me best. but hope is little, weak, and non existant? hoho?
jiu shi ai ni is stil being the only song repeatedly playg on my com :) i dunno, its just this mild swetness that the song hav. like teling you to have hope, and all. evryone asks me to take things easy. to go with an open heart. i will. but so many times when im in aj, and i think of the school an 852busride away, i just will almost tear. in fact i did. :( just only mic noes me best. i love mic! :) i love eveeryone reading this too. hurr. cos i realise no one in aj walks with me to the busstop. acatually i nv ask. but..hurr. after all these tribualations? i guess i wil stand stronger, knowg there'll ppl there, whether there actauly are people or no, it doesnt matter. just wana nv lose touch with them. but i guess its hard. reading back on the past entries, looking at photos and realise its amazing how one can bond so well in such short time? gosh. my crappy mind going on again .bleagh. msn games anyone? veyr bored.
and there's smthg tt my instincts tell me that i wana ask. but if i do, its badd? i dunno.cant fnd the courage to askkk.... just wana fulfil my curiousity actualyl!
SONG OF THE DAY: JIU SHI AI NI (JUST LOVE YOU? ) david tao! (:
jiu shi ai ni is stil being the only song repeatedly playg on my com :) i dunno, its just this mild swetness that the song hav. like teling you to have hope, and all. evryone asks me to take things easy. to go with an open heart. i will. but so many times when im in aj, and i think of the school an 852busride away, i just will almost tear. in fact i did. :( just only mic noes me best. i love mic! :) i love eveeryone reading this too. hurr. cos i realise no one in aj walks with me to the busstop. acatually i nv ask. but..hurr. after all these tribualations? i guess i wil stand stronger, knowg there'll ppl there, whether there actauly are people or no, it doesnt matter. just wana nv lose touch with them. but i guess its hard. reading back on the past entries, looking at photos and realise its amazing how one can bond so well in such short time? gosh. my crappy mind going on again .bleagh. msn games anyone? veyr bored.
and there's smthg tt my instincts tell me that i wana ask. but if i do, its badd? i dunno.cant fnd the courage to askkk.... just wana fulfil my curiousity actualyl!
SONG OF THE DAY: JIU SHI AI NI (JUST LOVE YOU? ) david tao! (:
ten things i wana do right now
1. fly kite (but its raining elephants and hippos now)
2. say i love you to all those i love!
3. go back sixoh!!!
4. play chapteh
5. plan outing with kez crys xinhui.haven gone out for ages!
6. finish reading sisterhood
7. get offline soon. uploaded most pics alr :D
8. play badminton/ball
9. go canoeing! with da canoe girls!
10. -secret-
alrights, ive uploaded my wonderful 3 months memories in the pics place in links. look out for chiobu and shauige. but very lil :) haha! in fact only got me la. lol. -_-
2. say i love you to all those i love!
3. go back sixoh!!!
4. play chapteh
5. plan outing with kez crys xinhui.haven gone out for ages!
6. finish reading sisterhood
7. get offline soon. uploaded most pics alr :D
8. play badminton/ball
9. go canoeing! with da canoe girls!
10. -secret-
alrights, ive uploaded my wonderful 3 months memories in the pics place in links. look out for chiobu and shauige. but very lil :) haha! in fact only got me la. lol. -_-
jiu shi ai ni!
dunno y, but david tao's songs always get me thinking. like, all of them all always so meaningful! like how jaychou's songs get me crazy.
jiu shi ai ni, is my second davidtao obession.
"shou ni hui yong yuan pei zhe wo"
"jiu shi ai ni, ai zhe ni, bu qi bu li, bu zai yi, lu you duo shao feng yu".
nice lyrics :) like, how many times do U actually tell people you love, that you love them? for me at least, its hard to really tell someone u cared, because telling it, is like a commitment, commitment to stay with tht person throughout thick and thin and be a good friend, which i am often incapable of doing so. how often can i keep my prmise of bu qi bu li? very rare i think. im nt a good friend to many ppl despite having so many good friends ard. :) i ought to be grateful. and if u ask menow, YES. wo yuan yi. i am willing to yong yuan pei zhe ni! if u ask me to!
i'll be qi bu li u, my dear friend. or at least i try. :)
my life is blessed
jiu shi ai ni, is my second davidtao obession.
"shou ni hui yong yuan pei zhe wo"
"jiu shi ai ni, ai zhe ni, bu qi bu li, bu zai yi, lu you duo shao feng yu".
nice lyrics :) like, how many times do U actually tell people you love, that you love them? for me at least, its hard to really tell someone u cared, because telling it, is like a commitment, commitment to stay with tht person throughout thick and thin and be a good friend, which i am often incapable of doing so. how often can i keep my prmise of bu qi bu li? very rare i think. im nt a good friend to many ppl despite having so many good friends ard. :) i ought to be grateful. and if u ask menow, YES. wo yuan yi. i am willing to yong yuan pei zhe ni! if u ask me to!
i'll be qi bu li u, my dear friend. or at least i try. :)
my life is blessed
aloha! fly kite pls!
the mache waffle! yummm.
pan wj osy and me @ venezia!
MAVIS smile damn sweet!
just some photos again. sometimes...photos do rockk dun they? theyy transport u back in memorylane and all. and at leats for most, photos are happy ones. ahah. woke up today with just this weird emptiness in my heart... perhaps. perhaps its smthg. but i really wana go flykite with sixoh again!!! hais.
FOREVER LOVE ROCKS! if only someone will sing it to me! :D i will use my entire lifetime to love you. which is damn sweet la.aniw its a song be leehom.ask me if u wana listen ! i can send u via msn! :D HIGHLY RECOMMENDED
aww. fantasies. yes dreams... hais.
yes, BEHAPPY. lik sista said. we shd try to stay happy at all times. =) am my post is somewhat tt right! yay. aniw, flying kite makes me happy.someone ask me go fly kite pls! :D ahaha
pan wj osy and me @ venezia!
MAVIS smile damn sweet!
just some photos again. sometimes...photos do rockk dun they? theyy transport u back in memorylane and all. and at leats for most, photos are happy ones. ahah. woke up today with just this weird emptiness in my heart... perhaps. perhaps its smthg. but i really wana go flykite with sixoh again!!! hais.
FOREVER LOVE ROCKS! if only someone will sing it to me! :D i will use my entire lifetime to love you. which is damn sweet la.aniw its a song be leehom.ask me if u wana listen ! i can send u via msn! :D HIGHLY RECOMMENDED
aww. fantasies. yes dreams... hais.
yes, BEHAPPY. lik sista said. we shd try to stay happy at all times. =) am my post is somewhat tt right! yay. aniw, flying kite makes me happy.someone ask me go fly kite pls! :D ahaha
hongli the server wun let me send: so its here ::: wahh! hongli i v sad, i type out all my spur of the monet coments and hurr. its gone. hmm, its just that yes, i almost almost cry just now when i read this.
wherever we go, as long as we are willing to share our love, we will be loved in return.
yes, this is truly smthg lucy ought to learn. learning to love, learning to open up despite my greatest love being away frm me. really, after so many problems, im sick of smiling, and trying to know new friends. its an very apprehensive thing to me...lik i wun noe wat she is thinking, im afraid of offending and all. but i guess in life, u just hafta keep making frens dun u? hmm, and yes,dun bully the 2nd intakers cos i myself Is a 2nd intaker, and i noe it feels bad to leave ur 2st intake sch for most.eveyrone seems to love their first sch! i do! :D yepps. hongli, i pray that u'll return to sixoh! really. sixoh needs u. and let sixoh nv split. thats wat im v worried abt now... that sixoh,..that feeling might be gone and things may change and i noe nthg abt it. i hate the awful feeling of NOT KNOWING. so pls, let me noe. yepps. nightts then. comment another time! :D love ya! hope u lik the ntbk! its for ur bday!
class outing tdy! :)wohoo think its the best attendance so far. damn sad mavis didnt come. she dun wan see me mehh. hurrr. lik tt time went back oso nv see her. hais. but absentees aside, i hope eveyrone's ok. qt ok, thanks to the nice nice ppl who treated us. u noe who u r! :)thank you so muc,damn sweet la. crp lots, den eh...wenta fountain o wealth... dedicate sm msges cos it was free! haha! fun fun! must walk ard it somedayy! and SNG must get an ID! yes. ok, am nt exactly in da mood to b philoshical. but got some thoughts bogging me now.
i dun really like the feeling of not being in the know of things. especially my good buds. i dunno. but i like my best buds whom i regard as best buds to be truthful with me. i hate to be roundabout abt things, but u make me hafta. i dunno how to say it out. maybe its just im being over inquistive but i do worry abt ur safety. really dunwanna u get hurt at all. i mean...hurr. must i ask so intricatly b4 u tell things?
hais. im leaving, but do i hafta worry foryou too? i dunno. but i am.
hais. leaving yet so many qns i wanna ask. so little time, so little courage to do it.i dunno y must i bother myself with such problems too.
wherever we go, as long as we are willing to share our love, we will be loved in return.
yes, this is truly smthg lucy ought to learn. learning to love, learning to open up despite my greatest love being away frm me. really, after so many problems, im sick of smiling, and trying to know new friends. its an very apprehensive thing to me...lik i wun noe wat she is thinking, im afraid of offending and all. but i guess in life, u just hafta keep making frens dun u? hmm, and yes,dun bully the 2nd intakers cos i myself Is a 2nd intaker, and i noe it feels bad to leave ur 2st intake sch for most.eveyrone seems to love their first sch! i do! :D yepps. hongli, i pray that u'll return to sixoh! really. sixoh needs u. and let sixoh nv split. thats wat im v worried abt now... that sixoh,..that feeling might be gone and things may change and i noe nthg abt it. i hate the awful feeling of NOT KNOWING. so pls, let me noe. yepps. nightts then. comment another time! :D love ya! hope u lik the ntbk! its for ur bday!
class outing tdy! :)wohoo think its the best attendance so far. damn sad mavis didnt come. she dun wan see me mehh. hurrr. lik tt time went back oso nv see her. hais. but absentees aside, i hope eveyrone's ok. qt ok, thanks to the nice nice ppl who treated us. u noe who u r! :)thank you so muc,damn sweet la. crp lots, den eh...wenta fountain o wealth... dedicate sm msges cos it was free! haha! fun fun! must walk ard it somedayy! and SNG must get an ID! yes. ok, am nt exactly in da mood to b philoshical. but got some thoughts bogging me now.
i dun really like the feeling of not being in the know of things. especially my good buds. i dunno. but i like my best buds whom i regard as best buds to be truthful with me. i hate to be roundabout abt things, but u make me hafta. i dunno how to say it out. maybe its just im being over inquistive but i do worry abt ur safety. really dunwanna u get hurt at all. i mean...hurr. must i ask so intricatly b4 u tell things?
hais. im leaving, but do i hafta worry foryou too? i dunno. but i am.
hais. leaving yet so many qns i wanna ask. so little time, so little courage to do it.i dunno y must i bother myself with such problems too.
Mar 26, 2005
i think i am convinced. convinced that love doesnt come. not yet at least.
not to my way yet. hurrs... but i guess its okay. im facing more problems than i think i have.
there's somethings that i wana ask, but yet i dun dare to. hurrs. if only comunication was tactless.
i dunno. but i think he's good. too good for me that is! bahh :(
not to my way yet. hurrs... but i guess its okay. im facing more problems than i think i have.
there's somethings that i wana ask, but yet i dun dare to. hurrs. if only comunication was tactless.
i dunno. but i think he's good. too good for me that is! bahh :(
Mar 25, 2005
have been wondering. wondering why does everyone look so eagerly for love, only to be faced with such... such dissapointment sometimes. and why is it like, when u find that you're in love, you're actually more troubled without it? its weird, isnt it? and it sure is.
heard of damn a lot of sad stories regarding friendships and all nowdays. and found that life's a complicated web of weavings. tact, caring, love... just relationship. why must relationships btw people be so complicated, so complex? cant it ever be simple. lik you just ask what u wanna ask, say wat u wana say to whoever u wish? why must we think and ponder and worry abt stuffs like others getting offending, relations get strained and all? WHY! its this big three letter wrod all the time. why the complexity man? life is complex in its own terms and thats enuff, why make things btw u and the ppl ard u so complex by keeping everythg in, thinking everythg out.
and thinkin too much is NEVER good. to all those friends i have told, dun think too much. it doesnt sort out thoughts. in fact, it only makes your thoughts more whirled, more... comfused. let go if there's a need to dears, let go. i now its never hard, but persisting in a endless pursuit for the one you love, may be heroic and brave, but in the end, how often can two end up tgt? there are cases la,of cos.
but just dont think too much, cos i think. thinking makes one more...confused? smtimes
heard of damn a lot of sad stories regarding friendships and all nowdays. and found that life's a complicated web of weavings. tact, caring, love... just relationship. why must relationships btw people be so complicated, so complex? cant it ever be simple. lik you just ask what u wanna ask, say wat u wana say to whoever u wish? why must we think and ponder and worry abt stuffs like others getting offending, relations get strained and all? WHY! its this big three letter wrod all the time. why the complexity man? life is complex in its own terms and thats enuff, why make things btw u and the ppl ard u so complex by keeping everythg in, thinking everythg out.
and thinkin too much is NEVER good. to all those friends i have told, dun think too much. it doesnt sort out thoughts. in fact, it only makes your thoughts more whirled, more... comfused. let go if there's a need to dears, let go. i now its never hard, but persisting in a endless pursuit for the one you love, may be heroic and brave, but in the end, how often can two end up tgt? there are cases la,of cos.
but just dont think too much, cos i think. thinking makes one more...confused? smtimes
Mar 24, 2005
oh. hvae i ever mentioned that a lot of thgs in aj reminds me of um..hc? like seeing the cedar girl in my og. reminds me of fishh. and she happened to be called erm..yes. rebecca. rebecca sng that is. she's nice at least. and yes her name reminds be of becca. esp when others call her becky. and them playing U2's vertigo the hello hello -mavis. and an ogl was wearing lilin's balck nike shoes. my lao pan. and this 1.83m tall sji guy -meow. 1.83m is tall! and him wearing the josephian peshirt- yuzhong and chuanwei. and this chungcehng girl nikki- betty. and this RV girl- the RVguys in class guoxian and leader. and this girl who looks so nanyang. but she's frm yuying. and this big size guy whom at first i tot was a crasher but hes frm comonwealth- lihao. think big. sized.
i bring about with me too many memories, i think im a snail. carrying its burden?
and my og is a former class of mainly ppl taking fmaths. so, means, i have ta change again.
changes sucks. its never changes for the better.why does the advertisemnet says so? aww. thinking of it, i do feel thatb lil bit of extra in school in my og at least. cos they were all classmates. mostly.
i bring about with me too many memories, i think im a snail. carrying its burden?
and my og is a former class of mainly ppl taking fmaths. so, means, i have ta change again.
changes sucks. its never changes for the better.why does the advertisemnet says so? aww. thinking of it, i do feel thatb lil bit of extra in school in my og at least. cos they were all classmates. mostly.
second day at aj. some good news tho. nicholas who had been damn sad these 2 days at aj is at rj now. am feeling happy for him. at least he is happy? aha. at first when he was not hopeful he's lik stop reminding me of the past. saty in aj. yay.aj . that sorta things. aahha.
hmm. hc nt taking in anymore appeals. yepp. so. i just gtta live with it?
been thinking.i dunno. but was thinking why i so dont wana leave hc. and e answer is surprisingly simple. i love the school. and i love my friends there. simple as that. and to me forever, the school will always still be my best school in my eyes. and my friends in the school will forever be my bestest buds. just promised becca that we'll study tgt if we do take the same subjs. that we'll meet up and mugg hard tggt! i wana mug. so that when a levels come, i'll get to meet my bestest buds in uni. i hope. i wish. i pray.
its nt that i dun lik aj. its just that i love hc. its just that ppl in hc...i noe them better. i like them better. but smtimes i shld jus move. pls shoo me along. some ppl (lik a pri sch classie) wanted to appeal into aj when i so desperately want out. which makes me think how ive taken things for granted yett again. hais. mic, im praying that u'll come in! cos u make my afternoon happier! much! realise i got no homegoing best buds in aj at all. none. shuiying crys van and the yishun ppl... are all in hc. all my best friends in sn, in fact, are all in hc. hais. wat am i man? yepp. and lucks to junyuan too. hoping for good news frm you! and congrats to yuqin! u got sci! yay.
chuanwei asked smthg really tot provoking ytd night:
den u feel happy 4 others but wad abt urself.
yea. wat abt myself? i seriously dunno. this is damn hard a qns to answer. i think i shld be. but i dunno if i am.
and myphone inbox is full most times cos i dun bear to delete the nice nice msges of comfort lucks hope all these peeps sent me. so i shall type them out and reminise?
peck: =)=)=)=)=)=) huggs x alot.
meow: how not to miss my sister! hope you meet nice people dere.
osy: glad to noe tt ur ok...o cos gt miss u lahx.
hongli: guess smtimes we have to let go. the sch no more accepting appeal cases... U go to any BP person say u are my friend they will take care of you.
zp:i hope you can get in
becca: i'll be here =D
these were the recent ones. some date back to olevels posting and i stil have them.its too sweet!
tears were almost coming out at aj tdy when i read the smses and all. thankgod i swelpt it off as yawns. :) im ok. and i dun make ppl worry.
hmm. hc nt taking in anymore appeals. yepp. so. i just gtta live with it?
been thinking.i dunno. but was thinking why i so dont wana leave hc. and e answer is surprisingly simple. i love the school. and i love my friends there. simple as that. and to me forever, the school will always still be my best school in my eyes. and my friends in the school will forever be my bestest buds. just promised becca that we'll study tgt if we do take the same subjs. that we'll meet up and mugg hard tggt! i wana mug. so that when a levels come, i'll get to meet my bestest buds in uni. i hope. i wish. i pray.
its nt that i dun lik aj. its just that i love hc. its just that ppl in hc...i noe them better. i like them better. but smtimes i shld jus move. pls shoo me along. some ppl (lik a pri sch classie) wanted to appeal into aj when i so desperately want out. which makes me think how ive taken things for granted yett again. hais. mic, im praying that u'll come in! cos u make my afternoon happier! much! realise i got no homegoing best buds in aj at all. none. shuiying crys van and the yishun ppl... are all in hc. all my best friends in sn, in fact, are all in hc. hais. wat am i man? yepp. and lucks to junyuan too. hoping for good news frm you! and congrats to yuqin! u got sci! yay.
chuanwei asked smthg really tot provoking ytd night:
den u feel happy 4 others but wad abt urself.
yea. wat abt myself? i seriously dunno. this is damn hard a qns to answer. i think i shld be. but i dunno if i am.
and myphone inbox is full most times cos i dun bear to delete the nice nice msges of comfort lucks hope all these peeps sent me. so i shall type them out and reminise?
peck: =)=)=)=)=)=) huggs x alot.
meow: how not to miss my sister! hope you meet nice people dere.
osy: glad to noe tt ur ok...o cos gt miss u lahx.
hongli: guess smtimes we have to let go. the sch no more accepting appeal cases... U go to any BP person say u are my friend they will take care of you.
zp:i hope you can get in
becca: i'll be here =D
these were the recent ones. some date back to olevels posting and i stil have them.its too sweet!
tears were almost coming out at aj tdy when i read the smses and all. thankgod i swelpt it off as yawns. :) im ok. and i dun make ppl worry.
Mar 23, 2005
my sixth post tdy, special credit to becca. she says i'm a thinker! ahah totallly happy at that tot. :) EVIDENCE!
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: she thinks alot too
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: like u
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: n me
life will never be the same. says: i dun think a lot!
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: yes u do
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: when u blog
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: can tell
thank you chuan wei, zhuipei, hongli, shihui vince, van. thank you.
damn worried for fishh now.
my prayers. to fish and me.
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: she thinks alot too
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: like u
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: n me
life will never be the same. says: i dun think a lot!
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: yes u do
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: when u blog
P.H.D six oh i duno juz let me b says: can tell
thank you chuan wei, zhuipei, hongli, shihui vince, van. thank you.
damn worried for fishh now.
my prayers. to fish and me.
happy for one. worried for the other.
gosh. llin got in! yay! one less ppl leaving sixoh.when will my phone call come? never. hais. but guess it no longer matters.
perhaps.
i'll forget abt it soon'
goshh! read wht hongli said. andmy tears just cant stop. den becca told me pan got in! i'm lik jump up frm my seat! oh man. thank god for everythg.
god bless me tho... theresnowayyoutofthis.
gosh. llin got in! yay! one less ppl leaving sixoh.when will my phone call come? never. hais. but guess it no longer matters.
perhaps.
i'll forget abt it soon'
goshh! read wht hongli said. andmy tears just cant stop. den becca told me pan got in! i'm lik jump up frm my seat! oh man. thank god for everythg.
god bless me tho... theresnowayyoutofthis.
dun bither abt me. just let me let out all my grievences. pls
aj is :( . i mean i dun undestadn y they dun wan u to take their subjs when hc is attractg u. and they dun encourage 4subjs too. gosh. and they took my hp and refused to let me hav it back. felt so deprived then that i gt v irritated. thank go i'm ok now. almost cried when i wnent back. mavis alr left. and those memories of thgs, but thank god i didnt. but now i feel damn bottled out u ask and i'll cry alr. hurrrrrr.
aj is :( . i mean i dun undestadn y they dun wan u to take their subjs when hc is attractg u. and they dun encourage 4subjs too. gosh. and they took my hp and refused to let me hav it back. felt so deprived then that i gt v irritated. thank go i'm ok now. almost cried when i wnent back. mavis alr left. and those memories of thgs, but thank god i didnt. but now i feel damn bottled out u ask and i'll cry alr. hurrrrrr.
Mar 22, 2005
just felt like saying this:
let time fill the empty hole.
i dunno but i noe eventually when i leave, there'll be another person filling me up. even tho ppl may sayhowever different it may be, time ..time will change things. time will make u eventually forget. and time also makes you accept things. accept that person. i hate to think abt who it'll be replacing me in sixoh, but i cant help but wonder...
cos i noe, few months down the road, we probably wld have moved on.
aww, let time be. :(
let time fill the empty hole.
i dunno but i noe eventually when i leave, there'll be another person filling me up. even tho ppl may sayhowever different it may be, time ..time will change things. time will make u eventually forget. and time also makes you accept things. accept that person. i hate to think abt who it'll be replacing me in sixoh, but i cant help but wonder...
cos i noe, few months down the road, we probably wld have moved on.
aww, let time be. :(
tdy, at least i wasnt dissapointed i guess. i knew i was gonna be in aj. i dunno. but yea. yingyi asked me if i was happy or sad. i really dunno how to answer. i'm happy in that i alr knew and at least, i could still get in, and nt get posted smwhr where i didnt expect to go. sad is in the fact that i cant bear to let go, to leave this wonderful hwachong family. the fact that so many ppl were concerned for me touched me deeply. even the canoeists whom i only meet once or twice a week were so concerned for me. i love them. and of cos my sixoh. :)
to the canoeist, im really glad u guys till wan me down for pull ups session tho i pon it for two dayys alr. aha! thanks to all those who were so concerned abt me, who asked me 'how' and those who said you'll miss me. i'll miss every single one of ya! and i can rmb ur names! all!!! just that i need time to think! aha, thankyou the chao zai wenyi-jiayou for nationals. wenqi,zeying,huiwen, my dearest kit yeng!- we'll do t2 one dayy!!! , huixuan...etc etc. thank you. and yingxia,geogia,roslyn, rosanne, pris, lei, sharon, charmaine, shiqi, amanda,and all those i miss out. lucks for trg! and CALL ME DOWN TO SUPPORT U GUYS! i mean it! i'll be v angry if u all dun! aha. thank you for the wonderful times trg, w/o u, my fear of haoxiang will nv go away. and i will keep ponning water trgs. at the start, i always dun feel lik going canoe cos its lik no one cares abt me one. cos we were so clique-ish and all den i dun lik to break you all so i talk v lil and very lil ppl talk to me. only lei lei. den after trg i hurry go home and dun go shower with you all cos later no one talk to me. but after these few weeks of trg with you girls in the morng, eating macs, supporting the sdb thing, i found that i have fallen in love. i have fallen in love with canoeing. it gave my the sense of freedom that draws me into canoeing in secondary sch leisurely. and u brought the feeling backk. and added enjoyment to it! it rockks seeing you girls while i canoe up and down the kallang river. saying jiayous, running 4.8km tgt, aiding the pull ups and having u all help me pull up. all those all those memories, it just overflows. i;m glad i join canoe for three mth alto my friends all say we will become man and muscular and dark and ugly. dun believe them, hold on to our beliefs, girls! we wun hav big arms like the sr ppl, yet we will win the races! we will cos you girls have the power to! hccanoeinggirlswhoosh.
specially to naifen: thank you. thankyou. thankyou. u make my world light up ! and i cried tdy nt cos of the posting but cos of ur better la! i read in school class ebnch there i cry, i read on the bus home again i cry again! hais. but thank you naifen! i nv knew these lil actions will be taken into notice. :)
to becca: girl, i oso nv knew we could grow this close in 3 months. mayb its jus cos...cos we're SAINT NICHOLAS (and lilin the girls la) but aniw, we were the founders, if u actually cld rmb. U the SAINT and me, NICHOLAS! ahha. thanks for crapping with me all these months, thats y i think afta three months tmr will be ur first break frm talking. and thats y u hav a sore throat, or a lost voice that wun come back. haha! but it'll soon if u talk less! haha! joking! but really, girl. i think we're so close in 3months that even 2 yrs cant make up for it la! o mans.really, its amazing. and ahah, the times we jus start singing the sch song (SNG I MEAN) , and all. woah. thank god i hav u! at first when i saw ur name i not ahppy, the only thingi was happy was that at least got some1 i noe. i still rmb telling shuiying, aiya, got rebecca but i oso nt close to her. hah! how things changed! :) dun thinkt oo much abt tmr girl, cos i'll be worried for ya. but im sure becca u can, bcos i have ffaith. and becos i noe sixoh nv abandons anyone. we never.
to my sistas, my three sistas: thanks for being such good sistas, such good friends. even if i do leave, i take joy in knowing that tchs are not nerds lar. bcos my three sistas are more girl than nerd! yay! aha. no la, u girls really rock! :D
to my sixoh: i'll miss seeing so many tchs guys in class. at first when i first saw the ppl in class, i'm lik WHY NO SHUAI ONE. but today, i take joy in telling tjhe world that, our class guys are guys (not girls lik i always say) and that our class guys damn shuai and cute! aha. and the girls, you girls have been one lot of enthu fun sociable and lovable! and CHIO too. everyone is damn chio. can girls unite man! elaine the fish, xying the laoying, vanessa the huo che, janet the marg, rebecca the becca, lilin the pan, mavis my ahma, betty the econs rep, huetheng the diet coke, yvonne the lit rep who we always force her to pon, hongli the siaosiao, and me the lu:) i'll miss the rush to econs tutorials (signature of sixoh, ppl think we damn enthu), the chapteh (i am pro, and ppl think we very kampung), the class bench (squeezing at the same place evryday w/o fail) etc. rock on! :D
to seniors: thankyou so much! at first when i first enter hc i was qt scared cos ppl tell me hc ppl they v close to snrs and in st nicks NP the snrs always dun talk to jnrs one. so we dun interact and to me, st nicks snrs i all nt too familiar. but u guys changed my prceptions of snrs! u guys were so friendly and nice and outgg always gg outings with us! hohoh... :)jiayous for blocks!
and hongli: esp to you, thanks for being such an impt support inn these smwhat sad days. continue spreading your joy to eveyrone cos eveyone love sunyanzi!
and mavis: ah ma! guess i'll miss calling you that. well. ah ma ah ma! aha! dun keep ponning lessons alr k. and tho u dun lik me to say, i still wan to say, wah ma-vis u very cool and chio leh! hoho.
to 3Ls and the =)on index fingerppl: yay! rock on
took lik one hr to write this! aww. miss u guys. the aj folks just called to tell me tmr must bring 16 bucks and 9 bucks respectively for orientan package and food. wah. hehhh. shall nt make ppl worry. i'm okay! just thtt they ends at erm.. 6? howto go back play chapteh? :(
to the canoeist, im really glad u guys till wan me down for pull ups session tho i pon it for two dayys alr. aha! thanks to all those who were so concerned abt me, who asked me 'how' and those who said you'll miss me. i'll miss every single one of ya! and i can rmb ur names! all!!! just that i need time to think! aha, thankyou the chao zai wenyi-jiayou for nationals. wenqi,zeying,huiwen, my dearest kit yeng!- we'll do t2 one dayy!!! , huixuan...etc etc. thank you. and yingxia,geogia,roslyn, rosanne, pris, lei, sharon, charmaine, shiqi, amanda,and all those i miss out. lucks for trg! and CALL ME DOWN TO SUPPORT U GUYS! i mean it! i'll be v angry if u all dun! aha. thank you for the wonderful times trg, w/o u, my fear of haoxiang will nv go away. and i will keep ponning water trgs. at the start, i always dun feel lik going canoe cos its lik no one cares abt me one. cos we were so clique-ish and all den i dun lik to break you all so i talk v lil and very lil ppl talk to me. only lei lei. den after trg i hurry go home and dun go shower with you all cos later no one talk to me. but after these few weeks of trg with you girls in the morng, eating macs, supporting the sdb thing, i found that i have fallen in love. i have fallen in love with canoeing. it gave my the sense of freedom that draws me into canoeing in secondary sch leisurely. and u brought the feeling backk. and added enjoyment to it! it rockks seeing you girls while i canoe up and down the kallang river. saying jiayous, running 4.8km tgt, aiding the pull ups and having u all help me pull up. all those all those memories, it just overflows. i;m glad i join canoe for three mth alto my friends all say we will become man and muscular and dark and ugly. dun believe them, hold on to our beliefs, girls! we wun hav big arms like the sr ppl, yet we will win the races! we will cos you girls have the power to! hccanoeinggirlswhoosh.
specially to naifen: thank you. thankyou. thankyou. u make my world light up ! and i cried tdy nt cos of the posting but cos of ur better la! i read in school class ebnch there i cry, i read on the bus home again i cry again! hais. but thank you naifen! i nv knew these lil actions will be taken into notice. :)
to becca: girl, i oso nv knew we could grow this close in 3 months. mayb its jus cos...cos we're SAINT NICHOLAS (and lilin the girls la) but aniw, we were the founders, if u actually cld rmb. U the SAINT and me, NICHOLAS! ahha. thanks for crapping with me all these months, thats y i think afta three months tmr will be ur first break frm talking. and thats y u hav a sore throat, or a lost voice that wun come back. haha! but it'll soon if u talk less! haha! joking! but really, girl. i think we're so close in 3months that even 2 yrs cant make up for it la! o mans.really, its amazing. and ahah, the times we jus start singing the sch song (SNG I MEAN) , and all. woah. thank god i hav u! at first when i saw ur name i not ahppy, the only thingi was happy was that at least got some1 i noe. i still rmb telling shuiying, aiya, got rebecca but i oso nt close to her. hah! how things changed! :) dun thinkt oo much abt tmr girl, cos i'll be worried for ya. but im sure becca u can, bcos i have ffaith. and becos i noe sixoh nv abandons anyone. we never.
to my sistas, my three sistas: thanks for being such good sistas, such good friends. even if i do leave, i take joy in knowing that tchs are not nerds lar. bcos my three sistas are more girl than nerd! yay! aha. no la, u girls really rock! :D
to my sixoh: i'll miss seeing so many tchs guys in class. at first when i first saw the ppl in class, i'm lik WHY NO SHUAI ONE. but today, i take joy in telling tjhe world that, our class guys are guys (not girls lik i always say) and that our class guys damn shuai and cute! aha. and the girls, you girls have been one lot of enthu fun sociable and lovable! and CHIO too. everyone is damn chio. can girls unite man! elaine the fish, xying the laoying, vanessa the huo che, janet the marg, rebecca the becca, lilin the pan, mavis my ahma, betty the econs rep, huetheng the diet coke, yvonne the lit rep who we always force her to pon, hongli the siaosiao, and me the lu:) i'll miss the rush to econs tutorials (signature of sixoh, ppl think we damn enthu), the chapteh (i am pro, and ppl think we very kampung), the class bench (squeezing at the same place evryday w/o fail) etc. rock on! :D
to seniors: thankyou so much! at first when i first enter hc i was qt scared cos ppl tell me hc ppl they v close to snrs and in st nicks NP the snrs always dun talk to jnrs one. so we dun interact and to me, st nicks snrs i all nt too familiar. but u guys changed my prceptions of snrs! u guys were so friendly and nice and outgg always gg outings with us! hohoh... :)jiayous for blocks!
and hongli: esp to you, thanks for being such an impt support inn these smwhat sad days. continue spreading your joy to eveyrone cos eveyone love sunyanzi!
and mavis: ah ma! guess i'll miss calling you that. well. ah ma ah ma! aha! dun keep ponning lessons alr k. and tho u dun lik me to say, i still wan to say, wah ma-vis u very cool and chio leh! hoho.
to 3Ls and the =)on index fingerppl: yay! rock on
took lik one hr to write this! aww. miss u guys. the aj folks just called to tell me tmr must bring 16 bucks and 9 bucks respectively for orientan package and food. wah. hehhh. shall nt make ppl worry. i'm okay! just thtt they ends at erm.. 6? howto go back play chapteh? :(
Mar 21, 2005
wohoo! i'm damnm happy, bte none of my stupid deepthingking philosophics can bring me down! :) wenta canoe trg! ok, its nt supposed to sound happy, but yes! we did 3.2km tdy! and 5 x 5pull ups. and circuit the killer. tot i was gonna ddie or smthg! hahah! :D but thankgod there's all the fellow j1s ard to cheer everyone on! yesyes. den wenta meet lilin shuiying wujuan and her ac fren at venezia for ice cream. am a lil tired now, but gtta rush out pressie stuffs. and i spent a lot at popular buying long in dd construction paper.
den i found out that ilgnoh rocks. :) i love that girl! .
in the end, we chose to go to the very place we find ourselves most comfortable with. home.
&
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
such nice things. you're my jay chou man! birng lots of smiles to my face! i love ya! and i promise. i promise i'll learn to be happy for myself. somehow u alwayys noe ppl so deeply. hmm. and no its isnt him! yepps. ok, am too tired to blog intellectual.
oh just tot of smthg when i read:
life moves on, and so shall we yes. its time to move on however hard i lovve to linger and hanker and stay on in the past. I SHALLL NT hui dao guo qu, lucia! dun!
yepps. aniw, if anyone is concerned that i'll be feeling depressed or anythg, i'm surpirising not feeling anything at all. no pre o level results bad omen, nervousness and all. nothing. i think i'm at peace with myself alr. and aj isnt sucha bad place.
really. i'm surprised at it too. that i'm so at peace today and these few days. i thank god. even tho i'm nt of his faith, i thank him for st nicks. for the wonderful frens i have. and lastly, i thank you!!!
den i found out that ilgnoh rocks. :) i love that girl! .
in the end, we chose to go to the very place we find ourselves most comfortable with. home.
&
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
such nice things. you're my jay chou man! birng lots of smiles to my face! i love ya! and i promise. i promise i'll learn to be happy for myself. somehow u alwayys noe ppl so deeply. hmm. and no its isnt him! yepps. ok, am too tired to blog intellectual.
oh just tot of smthg when i read:
life moves on, and so shall we yes. its time to move on however hard i lovve to linger and hanker and stay on in the past. I SHALLL NT hui dao guo qu, lucia! dun!
yepps. aniw, if anyone is concerned that i'll be feeling depressed or anythg, i'm surpirising not feeling anything at all. no pre o level results bad omen, nervousness and all. nothing. i think i'm at peace with myself alr. and aj isnt sucha bad place.
really. i'm surprised at it too. that i'm so at peace today and these few days. i thank god. even tho i'm nt of his faith, i thank him for st nicks. for the wonderful frens i have. and lastly, i thank you!!!
Mar 20, 2005
acting lame and talking to girlfriends 3L on a lazy sunday afternoon rocks :)
totally cheered me up. and jz's nice nice ff music. and john mayer songs and hot babe pics, and talking to meow abt meow and panda aand deers. just a lame sunday afternon. and listening to all the nice ncie songs.:) just hope this momnet lasts. wonder how many more of such sundays there will be. hmm. tonghua totally touched me, but then again, there's no happilyeverafter endings in my life. but its nice all the same. and ai wo hai shi ta, david tao's!
been blogging so often. shall blog less.and thanks to everyone who hugged the hugg meter!
i dun believe in happy endings do i? much as i hope to. but, happily ever after endings aint in my life yet :( aniw, my girlfriends' becca and laine. dun get it wrong.
totally cheered me up. and jz's nice nice ff music. and john mayer songs and hot babe pics, and talking to meow abt meow and panda aand deers. just a lame sunday afternon. and listening to all the nice ncie songs.:) just hope this momnet lasts. wonder how many more of such sundays there will be. hmm. tonghua totally touched me, but then again, there's no happilyeverafter endings in my life. but its nice all the same. and ai wo hai shi ta, david tao's!
been blogging so often. shall blog less.and thanks to everyone who hugged the hugg meter!
i dun believe in happy endings do i? much as i hope to. but, happily ever after endings aint in my life yet :( aniw, my girlfriends' becca and laine. dun get it wrong.
life nv fails to have lil challenges for us
was jus posting on cls blog. but didnt wana get too carried awayy. didnt wans show all and tell all. so here i come.
life never fails to have little challenges for us. certainly not for me? i know that there're probably a thousand and one more ppl feeling much more sad, depressed etc than me when i put things in perspective. thing is, we're all humans. at our downest times, we never rmb to do that. to look at the big pict, to look in perspective. and i made that mistake so many times. its just human nature? haha i duno.
was listening to tonghua. the guangliang's song. real sweet the song, but... guess there'll be no happilyeverafter ending after all. who will be that prince? the one who'ld spread his hands to be wings to protect me? who will the one who i believe in that happy endigns do exists? hmm.
i have many wishes for many ppl. but cant bring myself to say out.
1.lucks! dun give up. u hav a better chance than me to stay! :) really!!! and dun be sad cos i dunno how to cheer u up too.
2.jiayous for ur throws.and take care of ur elbow. go win! even if u dun, u;'re still zai. life's nt abt winning. but i guess, i noe that u dun wana lose? no one wans to anyw. but i'll always support u yea.
3.u must come backkk!!! if nt the cls wld nv be the same. and noe wat? we hav never moved on without u. really. we moved on with you. so catch up soon.come back soon!ill be praying for ur return to sixoh.
4.all da best for the june comps!!! the stupid sdba thing, heck it. i believe u'll do better.yes! losing doesnt matters, and noe wat? u had nv let down anyone at all!and i meant wat i say. i'll always be ur cheerleader!!! call me down for compps!
5.guess u wana take ur time. and i spolit it for ya? sorry. that's all i wish for you. that you follow ur heart. if u lik her, den, i guess u shld do it.
they're all ppl i've talked to recently. and just wana wish 12345 all da best :)
hais. and a lotmore i'll come back another day to wish for them
life never fails to have little challenges for us. certainly not for me? i know that there're probably a thousand and one more ppl feeling much more sad, depressed etc than me when i put things in perspective. thing is, we're all humans. at our downest times, we never rmb to do that. to look at the big pict, to look in perspective. and i made that mistake so many times. its just human nature? haha i duno.
was listening to tonghua. the guangliang's song. real sweet the song, but... guess there'll be no happilyeverafter ending after all. who will be that prince? the one who'ld spread his hands to be wings to protect me? who will the one who i believe in that happy endigns do exists? hmm.
i have many wishes for many ppl. but cant bring myself to say out.
1.lucks! dun give up. u hav a better chance than me to stay! :) really!!! and dun be sad cos i dunno how to cheer u up too.
2.jiayous for ur throws.and take care of ur elbow. go win! even if u dun, u;'re still zai. life's nt abt winning. but i guess, i noe that u dun wana lose? no one wans to anyw. but i'll always support u yea.
3.u must come backkk!!! if nt the cls wld nv be the same. and noe wat? we hav never moved on without u. really. we moved on with you. so catch up soon.come back soon!ill be praying for ur return to sixoh.
4.all da best for the june comps!!! the stupid sdba thing, heck it. i believe u'll do better.yes! losing doesnt matters, and noe wat? u had nv let down anyone at all!and i meant wat i say. i'll always be ur cheerleader!!! call me down for compps!
5.guess u wana take ur time. and i spolit it for ya? sorry. that's all i wish for you. that you follow ur heart. if u lik her, den, i guess u shld do it.
they're all ppl i've talked to recently. and just wana wish 12345 all da best :)
hais. and a lotmore i'll come back another day to wish for them
Mar 19, 2005
MEMORIES
DUN READ! its SUPER LONG! only meant as keepsakes' on my blogg! :)
i rmb going to sch the first day on 852 with shuiying and holding the bus guide on which stop to get off. den walked into sch and realised that councillors was saying"hurry go audi, its late" , and i was thinking. where is the audi? hello? and when i saw followed the crowd and saw the audi, hello!!! the sign was so small. i rmb hating school, yes, hating hc cos its so different frm stnicks. and everyday i will only talk abt how much i wan to go back to sn and how i miss sn. pperhaps, perceptions are a matter of choice. if i choose to be unhappy, i will be. den, i learnt to lik my OG, co i tot the girls are all qt nice,esp pinyun the nice nice rg girl. den next thing i noe, we have to split into classes or CTs alr. i was also super sad then cos i tot i just started to love my OG5 and i've got to split? den i rmb squeezing infront of the notice board at the canteen to find my name so many times still cannt ffind. still hafta squeeze among the smelly bodies somemore. (not tt i was smelling nice then too! ahah)and i was veyr ssad and almost cried cos i tot they didnt giv me my lit combi. i rmb going to the hall the next day and finding 05s60 the sign there. (and then, i didnt noe 05 meant th year, i tot it was like classes too, and i was thinking y the class got so many numbers ) den i saw peiwen. ahah damn happy. oh, when i saw becca's name i oso a bit happy la. but..i wasnt close to her then. den i rmb talking to this bunch of girls sitting behind me and becca. there was elaine and janet i think....and jnuzhe or weiheng or someone frm tchs was sitting a the third row bside becca and me.den ziyang was the first row next to betty i think. memories now are a lil faded cos then, i didnt noe anyone's name. ohh i rmb having a difficult time rmbing names! so difficult. liek calling chuanwwei and yuzhong josephians cos their peshirt sayys so. den cant rmbing weiheng's name and always rmbing the horizontal action, onyl noe that he's frm ncc which is qt similar to np so i rmb. then ther'es MEOWvin frm my og which im thankful of. den there's justin whom i mixes up with jeremy the crasher. then there's haining whom i always forgot the name during double whacko. and there's janet whom i kept forgetting and ended up calling margaret. den there's lihao whom i rmb vanessa telling me during the mass dacne that he's the one with the best face alr. i rmb thinking, har if this is the best then the rest will be dot dot dot alr... dne there's my complaints that the guys in our class is so no on! they dun lead in cheers and all. oh there's mavis the girl who slam her bag on the table in the classroom. there's oso hongli the hongpei's sis! there's llywelyn for his long and funny name which i rmb by thinking of loooloooo first. shucks. i cant rmb whom i tortured for mass dance. and there's xiaoying whom i have little orientation memories of.heh.and elaine the cedar girl who looks alone says friendly. den there's the discovery that yvonne chose lit too making it the first three ppl i noe after myself and becca.i rmb thinking ziyang is funny cos he volunteered to be ct rep temporary. i rmb the mak name cos everyone called that name during whacko. i rmb feeling traumatised hoping my name wun be called cos i cant RMB NAMES AT ALL. aha. all those memories. there'll sure to be more if i think longer.i rmb the orientation dayys... eveyrday go school and play. den the first week everyday slack at class bench, play bball. den the WOAH oriantation item that we stayed back until so late to do. the woah!!! banner (which was really abd) and the WOAHOWOAH item whihc reads zai. all the nights eating the chicken rice frm happy rooster which i gt no appetitie. i rmb! i got no appetitie for very long in hwachong cos i think the canteen food sucks.see the food auto no wei kou. aha. den the shocking news that we got in first for athena. i rmb not rmbing how to even pronounce athena. :) haha. den there was the super fast athena dnace which fazed me for the fast tempo was FASTT. woah. dne there was winning the O1 item for athena. ohh and the lihao and yvonne acting past was so fun and funny! den i rmb how stressed we felt b4 the campfire.den looking at the fireballs reminded me of stnicks again. den irmb being crazy and going toot toot train abt the central plaza singing hwachong songs. den the dinner even tho it was so late. supper i mean. oh and finding out the crashers which makes me feel so cheated i almost wanted to cry but held back. yesyes. i will hold and save these memories safely. and take them wif me if ever ileave them. i dunno how i fell inlove so deeply with this class...but ...i love sixoh.
those very ncie meories dates SOOOOOOOOO long. dun bother to read them. its just for keepsakes' :)
i rmb going to sch the first day on 852 with shuiying and holding the bus guide on which stop to get off. den walked into sch and realised that councillors was saying"hurry go audi, its late" , and i was thinking. where is the audi? hello? and when i saw followed the crowd and saw the audi, hello!!! the sign was so small. i rmb hating school, yes, hating hc cos its so different frm stnicks. and everyday i will only talk abt how much i wan to go back to sn and how i miss sn. pperhaps, perceptions are a matter of choice. if i choose to be unhappy, i will be. den, i learnt to lik my OG, co i tot the girls are all qt nice,esp pinyun the nice nice rg girl. den next thing i noe, we have to split into classes or CTs alr. i was also super sad then cos i tot i just started to love my OG5 and i've got to split? den i rmb squeezing infront of the notice board at the canteen to find my name so many times still cannt ffind. still hafta squeeze among the smelly bodies somemore. (not tt i was smelling nice then too! ahah)and i was veyr ssad and almost cried cos i tot they didnt giv me my lit combi. i rmb going to the hall the next day and finding 05s60 the sign there. (and then, i didnt noe 05 meant th year, i tot it was like classes too, and i was thinking y the class got so many numbers ) den i saw peiwen. ahah damn happy. oh, when i saw becca's name i oso a bit happy la. but..i wasnt close to her then. den i rmb talking to this bunch of girls sitting behind me and becca. there was elaine and janet i think....and jnuzhe or weiheng or someone frm tchs was sitting a the third row bside becca and me.den ziyang was the first row next to betty i think. memories now are a lil faded cos then, i didnt noe anyone's name. ohh i rmb having a difficult time rmbing names! so difficult. liek calling chuanwwei and yuzhong josephians cos their peshirt sayys so. den cant rmbing weiheng's name and always rmbing the horizontal action, onyl noe that he's frm ncc which is qt similar to np so i rmb. then ther'es MEOWvin frm my og which im thankful of. den there's justin whom i mixes up with jeremy the crasher. then there's haining whom i always forgot the name during double whacko. and there's janet whom i kept forgetting and ended up calling margaret. den there's lihao whom i rmb vanessa telling me during the mass dacne that he's the one with the best face alr. i rmb thinking, har if this is the best then the rest will be dot dot dot alr... dne there's my complaints that the guys in our class is so no on! they dun lead in cheers and all. oh there's mavis the girl who slam her bag on the table in the classroom. there's oso hongli the hongpei's sis! there's llywelyn for his long and funny name which i rmb by thinking of loooloooo first. shucks. i cant rmb whom i tortured for mass dance. and there's xiaoying whom i have little orientation memories of.heh.and elaine the cedar girl who looks alone says friendly. den there's the discovery that yvonne chose lit too making it the first three ppl i noe after myself and becca.i rmb thinking ziyang is funny cos he volunteered to be ct rep temporary. i rmb the mak name cos everyone called that name during whacko. i rmb feeling traumatised hoping my name wun be called cos i cant RMB NAMES AT ALL. aha. all those memories. there'll sure to be more if i think longer.i rmb the orientation dayys... eveyrday go school and play. den the first week everyday slack at class bench, play bball. den the WOAH oriantation item that we stayed back until so late to do. the woah!!! banner (which was really abd) and the WOAHOWOAH item whihc reads zai. all the nights eating the chicken rice frm happy rooster which i gt no appetitie. i rmb! i got no appetitie for very long in hwachong cos i think the canteen food sucks.see the food auto no wei kou. aha. den the shocking news that we got in first for athena. i rmb not rmbing how to even pronounce athena. :) haha. den there was the super fast athena dnace which fazed me for the fast tempo was FASTT. woah. dne there was winning the O1 item for athena. ohh and the lihao and yvonne acting past was so fun and funny! den i rmb how stressed we felt b4 the campfire.den looking at the fireballs reminded me of stnicks again. den irmb being crazy and going toot toot train abt the central plaza singing hwachong songs. den the dinner even tho it was so late. supper i mean. oh and finding out the crashers which makes me feel so cheated i almost wanted to cry but held back. yesyes. i will hold and save these memories safely. and take them wif me if ever ileave them. i dunno how i fell inlove so deeply with this class...but ...i love sixoh.
those very ncie meories dates SOOOOOOOOO long. dun bother to read them. its just for keepsakes' :)
i jus realised something. maybe i;m too late to...but still
time passed too fast these three months
too fast for me to catch up. :/
*edit*
just came online again to tell myself this:
lucia! there's a lot of ways , a lot of different perspective to look at things. got this frm sisterhood of the travelling pants:
They were noble pants, but unassuming. You could glance over them and just think, "okay, pants," or you could stop and really look at the beautiful complexity (if ever complexity was beautiful!! :( ) of colors and seams. They dont force you to admire them. they are happy just doing their basic job of covering your butt without making it look fatter then it actually is.
found it really inspiring. :) and i've just started reading sisterhood and lovin1 it. heh. hope i dun cry if the books supposed to be sad. haha, sis says its boring tho.
time passed too fast these three months
too fast for me to catch up. :/
*edit*
just came online again to tell myself this:
lucia! there's a lot of ways , a lot of different perspective to look at things. got this frm sisterhood of the travelling pants:
They were noble pants, but unassuming. You could glance over them and just think, "okay, pants," or you could stop and really look at the beautiful complexity (if ever complexity was beautiful!! :( ) of colors and seams. They dont force you to admire them. they are happy just doing their basic job of covering your butt without making it look fatter then it actually is.
found it really inspiring. :) and i've just started reading sisterhood and lovin1 it. heh. hope i dun cry if the books supposed to be sad. haha, sis says its boring tho.
i had promised myself nt to cry but when i read hongli's post on da class blog, i just so wana cry, and tears just came down...i cldnt hold back.
but at least, there's no one here at home. so all i cry, is all for me. she...jus hugged me a hundred times. the hug meter thing. and thats lik the sweetest thing anyone hve ever done. hongli, thank youthankyouthankyouthankyou so much! i dunno wat to say but... thank you. you make me feel loved :) its all these damn sweet and touching actions that you do that makes it even harder for me to leave.
i noe i gtta move on. its lik no matter how hard i try, i alway hav to dwell on the past. i guess its jus easier to look back. to live in the beasutiful yesterdays. so typically lucia. its the easy way out. but its sadly the wrong way out.
if i dun move on,i will only be harrder on myself. i noe that I create my own dayys. but its just so hard to put down all that u hav..and just ...move on. its painful to hav to face that sense of lost. its an awful feeling to walk away.
u noe that u are sad, yet u must nv cry. u dun wana make ppl worry. u gtta hide ur sadness in u, just so othrs wun feel sad lik u r. becos u dun wan them to.
hongli. thankyou so much. i still keep taht msg u send to me after the results saying lucy i will be there when u need me. i still keep it in my inbox.bcos its these sweetest things taht u say that keeps me bright and going. thanks alot hongli! i'll nv forget u! and you must try all u can to come back whether i'm there to stay with u wandering at the staffrm or not k. sixoh needs u. and they want u! :) thanks for being an important booster in my life, at this stage. :) i'll always rmb even if u dun rmb me! i love u hongli!
but at least, there's no one here at home. so all i cry, is all for me. she...jus hugged me a hundred times. the hug meter thing. and thats lik the sweetest thing anyone hve ever done. hongli, thank youthankyouthankyouthankyou so much! i dunno wat to say but... thank you. you make me feel loved :) its all these damn sweet and touching actions that you do that makes it even harder for me to leave.
i noe i gtta move on. its lik no matter how hard i try, i alway hav to dwell on the past. i guess its jus easier to look back. to live in the beasutiful yesterdays. so typically lucia. its the easy way out. but its sadly the wrong way out.
if i dun move on,i will only be harrder on myself. i noe that I create my own dayys. but its just so hard to put down all that u hav..and just ...move on. its painful to hav to face that sense of lost. its an awful feeling to walk away.
u noe that u are sad, yet u must nv cry. u dun wana make ppl worry. u gtta hide ur sadness in u, just so othrs wun feel sad lik u r. becos u dun wan them to.
hongli. thankyou so much. i still keep taht msg u send to me after the results saying lucy i will be there when u need me. i still keep it in my inbox.bcos its these sweetest things taht u say that keeps me bright and going. thanks alot hongli! i'll nv forget u! and you must try all u can to come back whether i'm there to stay with u wandering at the staffrm or not k. sixoh needs u. and they want u! :) thanks for being an important booster in my life, at this stage. :) i'll always rmb even if u dun rmb me! i love u hongli!
Mar 18, 2005
whenitstimeto leave, letme go
just suddenly rmbed. postings coming out soon! sis says the news say its tues morng.so wednesday morng off to new school. which i dread so.
when its time to leave, let me go.
when its time to part, let me do so... not in tears.
god bless me :) tho i alr know wats gonan happen
and what the future beckons.
hais.
i dun wanna cry. but if i do pls dont see me when my tears drop.
:)i will be happy.
when its time to leave, let me go.
when its time to part, let me do so... not in tears.
god bless me :) tho i alr know wats gonan happen
and what the future beckons.
hais.
:)i will be happy.
huangcheng
hoho. went huangcheng ytd. b4 that, wells. was buying stuffs and rushing lik crazy. den met the rest at kpool. den ate yoshi den wenta esplanade buy flowers and yes, to the performance. which is...why im so brokee. class fund owes me big bucks. hhaha.
huangcheng was okay. mayb we all expected a lil too muc, which left many feeling bored. if we had expected a lil less, it wld have been a good performance. nonetheless,the efforts itself is worth watching. :) and chengx and cherylene and esther. st nicks! and becca marg haining peihan justin junhong. yes.
went kbox with jasmine tdy! found out i totally cldnt sing. thank god it wasnt that ex, else i really no money to pay! haha. its onyl abt 7.50 with lunch and 2hrs 45mins of singing! yay! but cant sing, wat can i do rite? haha
yepps. must rush some hmwk soon. tmr and day after must go support the canoeing ppl! they rock! and so i must go! :) hee. go hwachong canoe! win the top prizes. esp YUZHONG! lucks and god bless! really hope we win!
huangcheng was okay. mayb we all expected a lil too muc, which left many feeling bored. if we had expected a lil less, it wld have been a good performance. nonetheless,the efforts itself is worth watching. :) and chengx and cherylene and esther. st nicks! and becca marg haining peihan justin junhong. yes.
went kbox with jasmine tdy! found out i totally cldnt sing. thank god it wasnt that ex, else i really no money to pay! haha. its onyl abt 7.50 with lunch and 2hrs 45mins of singing! yay! but cant sing, wat can i do rite? haha
yepps. must rush some hmwk soon. tmr and day after must go support the canoeing ppl! they rock! and so i must go! :) hee. go hwachong canoe! win the top prizes. esp YUZHONG! lucks and god bless! really hope we win!
Mar 16, 2005
i love canoe.
canoeing tdy rocks!!!
tho my leg ma bi again. tho i'm super slow. tho i'm nt zai lik wenyi.
nothing like the fact that i'm slow in canoeing can affect me.
nothing like the fact that wenyi reads zai can affect me.
nothing like the fact that i almost cap so many times can affect me.
nothing like the fact that i cant do pull ups on my own can affect me.
AND nothing like the fact that i may nv be in canoe again can affect me.
YES. i am unaffected. canoeing tdy just rocks! esp wenyi! she's on a k2 alr! aww. alr said her face reads zai alr wat. haha.go wenyi!
and kityeng! i wana got t2 wif her! we'll t2 one day! baa. but we're the pro resucers k.we rescued roslyn so many times. and yesyes. how traumatising it had been. but fun
and thankfully the sun wasnt that hot (:
i love canoe! only thg is i mayb leaving.aww. hwachongcanoegirlswhoosh! *grins* canoe made happy!
tho my leg ma bi again. tho i'm super slow. tho i'm nt zai lik wenyi.
nothing like the fact that i'm slow in canoeing can affect me.
nothing like the fact that wenyi reads zai can affect me.
nothing like the fact that i almost cap so many times can affect me.
nothing like the fact that i cant do pull ups on my own can affect me.
AND nothing like the fact that i may nv be in canoe again can affect me.
YES. i am unaffected. canoeing tdy just rocks! esp wenyi! she's on a k2 alr! aww. alr said her face reads zai alr wat. haha.go wenyi!
and kityeng! i wana got t2 wif her! we'll t2 one day! baa. but we're the pro resucers k.we rescued roslyn so many times. and yesyes. how traumatising it had been. but fun
and thankfully the sun wasnt that hot (:
i love canoe! only thg is i mayb leaving.aww. hwachongcanoegirlswhoosh! *grins* canoe made happy!
Mar 15, 2005
UNTITLED
deleted any entire entry on wat crap i did tdy. basically just bball with myself, mic and yoshi. cos smthg more prmpting makes me think up.
i'm thinking abt how this certain force had brought people together. and like, we just somehow got to know each other. yet, at some point, we must all move on. i wonder and i sense the empty feeling years on, when i realise that everyone have left, taht everyone have moved on, and how everyone will be different. i dunno how to describe it, but the feeling is scary to say the very least. like years on, you discover the very different and varied paths that everyone takes. and how amazing it is that our lifes had once crossed and we had met, yet how we're like so apart now. gt this inspiraton reading some blogs, and linking away...lik everyone is in different arenas now. i wonder...when the postings comes out, how it'll be like to find that everyone have taken an alternative path. like some to jcs, some overseas, some poly,...on to their own lives? i dunno. but its just this weird feeling. like this is ONE turning point, one deviating force, that will deviate everyone to different places and paths. its amazing, and its queer.
and it leaves me empty.
years on, i may never get a chance to see the ppl i do see now.
thats sad, but thats life.
oh, on a side note. i hate it when i feel so distant frm sn now. lik how i dunt recognise ppl i see in sn uni anymore. hais. when i used to have a impression of anyone of the sn girls i see. i hate the unfamilarity of it all. and oh..canoe water trg tmr :( and i still have aches everywhere. legs, elbow, stomach.
i'm thinking abt how this certain force had brought people together. and like, we just somehow got to know each other. yet, at some point, we must all move on. i wonder and i sense the empty feeling years on, when i realise that everyone have left, taht everyone have moved on, and how everyone will be different. i dunno how to describe it, but the feeling is scary to say the very least. like years on, you discover the very different and varied paths that everyone takes. and how amazing it is that our lifes had once crossed and we had met, yet how we're like so apart now. gt this inspiraton reading some blogs, and linking away...lik everyone is in different arenas now. i wonder...when the postings comes out, how it'll be like to find that everyone have taken an alternative path. like some to jcs, some overseas, some poly,...on to their own lives? i dunno. but its just this weird feeling. like this is ONE turning point, one deviating force, that will deviate everyone to different places and paths. its amazing, and its queer.
and it leaves me empty.
years on, i may never get a chance to see the ppl i do see now.
thats sad, but thats life.
oh, on a side note. i hate it when i feel so distant frm sn now. lik how i dunt recognise ppl i see in sn uni anymore. hais. when i used to have a impression of anyone of the sn girls i see. i hate the unfamilarity of it all. and oh..canoe water trg tmr :( and i still have aches everywhere. legs, elbow, stomach.
Mar 14, 2005
sorethroat:(
i'm so dead. think i'm gonna get a sore throat. in fact, i think i have one alr. and a headache that i chose to ignore. perhaps, tmr when i wake up it'll be all over.
amazing the parallels btw having a sorethroat and my life. i wished i had sorethroat all my life(not litearlly of cos!) , so that i never needed to face the world i speaking terms. okay, doesnt make sense to you, but i guess it does for me. i always wished for something, anything n fact, to hide me away from the world. like, just get away frm eveything that mkaes life complex. which includes everything in general la.
like, if i had a sorethroat, i wun have to speak. i wun have to tell others how i feel would i? or perhaps, its ONLY a sorethroat not muted forever. ok, its confirmed a headache cos i;m nt making sense.
oh, read this smwhr. somethg abt... if you have tried your best, but your best is not good enuff, wat is it? isnt that like gonna be really sad then?
feeling pathetic now.so many things i cant say out. cos once i say out, its a goner alr. dunno y oso. hah. wat with the toe thing. my only consolation is tat the scenery during the run was good. that's all. and that doesnt last long. but nonetheless, be thankful, lucia. be thankful.
amazing the parallels btw having a sorethroat and my life. i wished i had sorethroat all my life(not litearlly of cos!) , so that i never needed to face the world i speaking terms. okay, doesnt make sense to you, but i guess it does for me. i always wished for something, anything n fact, to hide me away from the world. like, just get away frm eveything that mkaes life complex. which includes everything in general la.
like, if i had a sorethroat, i wun have to speak. i wun have to tell others how i feel would i? or perhaps, its ONLY a sorethroat not muted forever. ok, its confirmed a headache cos i;m nt making sense.
oh, read this smwhr. somethg abt... if you have tried your best, but your best is not good enuff, wat is it? isnt that like gonna be really sad then?
feeling pathetic now.so many things i cant say out. cos once i say out, its a goner alr. dunno y oso. hah. wat with the toe thing. my only consolation is tat the scenery during the run was good. that's all. and that doesnt last long. but nonetheless, be thankful, lucia. be thankful.
wenta canoe trg cum supporting session tdy!
-ran: 4.8km plus 2times the bridge thing which makes my run abt: 5km in a single day
-pulled: 20pulled up
-pushed: 70pushups
-jumped:70star jumps.
and that makes tdy one of the most things done one. all in a hr. yuzhong very zai! he came in second for t2 or k2 cant rmb! jus ZAI!tho at first i was supporting the wrong person! oh, and i owe him 50cents! his 50cents saved my life! i was dying of thirsty and sun. haha.
And Lydia , audrey, shuqi, yiling also competed! wah! no bad! lydia roxs! haven seen her for so long and she's still so cute! :) and to end off, i injured my third toe while dunno doing wat also. just felt a bit pain there den when i noticed, it was bleeding. hurrr :( otherwise, its a great day of sun and all. 4.8 isnt that far! (cos dispacment is 0! ) really! and...oh. we ran all the way to the esplanade. which is chao cool! and the scenery is amazing esp frm the second bridge onwards. wonderful. complemented with the sunrise and all. :) it rockk!
editat5.22pm. just woke up and suddenly felt lik recounting back the past 2 and hlaf mths.
sixoh. classbenches. muggingforecons/chemtests. chaptehcraze. pilesofbagsonthefloor. isolatedtuesdaywtihoutclassand fulloflitlects. saturdaysbookedwithoutings. twentyseven.
-ran: 4.8km plus 2times the bridge thing which makes my run abt: 5km in a single day
-pulled: 20pulled up
-pushed: 70pushups
-jumped:70star jumps.
and that makes tdy one of the most things done one. all in a hr. yuzhong very zai! he came in second for t2 or k2 cant rmb! jus ZAI!tho at first i was supporting the wrong person! oh, and i owe him 50cents! his 50cents saved my life! i was dying of thirsty and sun. haha.
And Lydia , audrey, shuqi, yiling also competed! wah! no bad! lydia roxs! haven seen her for so long and she's still so cute! :) and to end off, i injured my third toe while dunno doing wat also. just felt a bit pain there den when i noticed, it was bleeding. hurrr :( otherwise, its a great day of sun and all. 4.8 isnt that far! (cos dispacment is 0! ) really! and...oh. we ran all the way to the esplanade. which is chao cool! and the scenery is amazing esp frm the second bridge onwards. wonderful. complemented with the sunrise and all. :) it rockk!
editat5.22pm. just woke up and suddenly felt lik recounting back the past 2 and hlaf mths.
sixoh. classbenches. muggingforecons/chemtests. chaptehcraze. pilesofbagsonthefloor. isolatedtuesdaywtihoutclassand fulloflitlects. saturdaysbookedwithoutings. twentyseven.
Mar 13, 2005
haha! i'm super bored. today. hoho. so bored the idea of going out into the sun at 3 in the hot afternoon sun to play basketball actually cropped up in my mind! aha! yes . me. yes i, the lazy girl, actually got down to the court at 3 in the afternoon this sunday afternoon to shoot baskets. how guai rite! ;) got all sweaty and all but yes, its a great way to waste time! tmr got canoe so i didnt go facouting. excuses. excuses loh lucia. excuses so that u dun hav to step outa hse. haha. cant u see i'm chao bored? hais . the sun is hot, my ball is hot, I AM HOT! *grins* at least playing ball gets my mind off things! yupps.
and boredom drove lucia also to playing games on neopets.
the power of boredom. :)
and boredom drove lucia also to playing games on neopets.
the power of boredom. :)
suddenly just feel lik rushing down to fly kite! was looking at the kite flying photos with my class. everyone looked happy! :D
the nice nice sunset! :D
waves.
nice bright white clouds.
never regretted gg for any single of those kiteflying days:)
i love the sky!and the sea! wohoo~
and i may have taken a liking for you. i dunno. maybe.
i dunno.
the nice nice sunset! :D waves. nice bright white clouds.never regretted gg for any single of those kiteflying days:)
i love the sky!and the sea! wohoo~
and i may have taken a liking for you. i dunno. maybe.
i dunno.
daffodil day anyone? :)
Anyone wants to go with me? :)
Sunday 10 April 05 Daffodil Day
Daffodil a is symbol of hope for people affected with cancers. Singapore Cancer Society has been organising Daffodil Day annually to continue and join in the force of creating greater awareness for this symbol of hope.
This year, we are targetting at recruiting 2000 volunteers to walk-the-streets to sell Daffodil wristbands at a donation of $3 to the public. Volunteers may choose to help out in one or both of the following shift: Shift 1: 9 am - 1 pm, shift 2: 1 pm - 5 pm.
hais..want to go! but there's no one to go with! hurr . so sad! so anyone who wants to go do the Dafodil day with me JUST tell me k! hoho. it sounds real meaningful and all :)
Sunday 10 April 05 Daffodil Day
Daffodil a is symbol of hope for people affected with cancers. Singapore Cancer Society has been organising Daffodil Day annually to continue and join in the force of creating greater awareness for this symbol of hope.
This year, we are targetting at recruiting 2000 volunteers to walk-the-streets to sell Daffodil wristbands at a donation of $3 to the public. Volunteers may choose to help out in one or both of the following shift: Shift 1: 9 am - 1 pm, shift 2: 1 pm - 5 pm.
hais..want to go! but there's no one to go with! hurr . so sad! so anyone who wants to go do the Dafodil day with me JUST tell me k! hoho. it sounds real meaningful and all :)
Mar 12, 2005
watched the canoe comp heats tdy. just before i left for home, i feel this tingling feeling, just this sudden rush to talk.
its amazing how a wrong moment of a wrong move could just end things for you. like how with just a slight flip of the canoe could cap ur canoe, and how you're just out of the comp. makes me think of how like a mistake in life could never be reversed. erm. yepps...like how i have to force myself to realise that time/life is never a rewinded game. we cant rewind like casette tapes to the past, to undo the things we regret having done.
all the best to our canoeing snrs:)
even tho i most prob cant stay, i hope hc canoe rock on! lucks!
hais.
smthg good at least, band concert's on tonight. hopefuly tt will cheer me up. ohh.and my blisters are healing:) but trg on monday again! heh
its amazing how a wrong moment of a wrong move could just end things for you. like how with just a slight flip of the canoe could cap ur canoe, and how you're just out of the comp. makes me think of how like a mistake in life could never be reversed. erm. yepps...like how i have to force myself to realise that time/life is never a rewinded game. we cant rewind like casette tapes to the past, to undo the things we regret having done.
all the best to our canoeing snrs:)
even tho i most prob cant stay, i hope hc canoe rock on! lucks!
hais.
smthg good at least, band concert's on tonight. hopefuly tt will cheer me up. ohh.and my blisters are healing:) but trg on monday again! heh
Mar 11, 2005
fiddled with the layout just now! and now, its a new one! hoho its ORANGE! to all those who says my blog is sad, namely sisterlh becca and hongli! MY BLOG IS HAPPY! :D hoho. alrightes, maybe not so lar. but at least it looks happier now however deceiving looks can be! :)
haha.yes. and so the first three months of my new life, away from the homely and protected st nicks, have came and gone. i must say it certainly have its good and bad side. but, i shall take it, and leave with only the good sides of these three months. the bad ones, i just hope to learn from there and move on.
it didnt felt lik the last day. it didnt feel like parting. maybe. maybe its not the end yet, just not yet? i dunno. but the experience in sixoh was good. was good. heh. now i kinda in no mood to reflect. noeing someone out there does read blogs. hhaaha. yes YOU! go go go. shoo! dun read. haha. lame la :)
only thing on my mind is: LEARN TO TRUST & BELIEVE
no idea why. hais.happy holidays .
i keep telling myself not to take a liking to anyone in hc, as in cos i'm leaving. i dun wanna leave with a heavy heart, go to another sch and thinking abt him. but. have i failed? evven i myself dun noe...
haha.yes. and so the first three months of my new life, away from the homely and protected st nicks, have came and gone. i must say it certainly have its good and bad side. but, i shall take it, and leave with only the good sides of these three months. the bad ones, i just hope to learn from there and move on.
it didnt felt lik the last day. it didnt feel like parting. maybe. maybe its not the end yet, just not yet? i dunno. but the experience in sixoh was good. was good. heh. now i kinda in no mood to reflect. noeing someone out there does read blogs. hhaaha. yes YOU! go go go. shoo! dun read. haha. lame la :)
only thing on my mind is: LEARN TO TRUST & BELIEVE
no idea why. hais.
i keep telling myself not to take a liking to anyone in hc, as in cos i'm leaving. i dun wanna leave with a heavy heart, go to another sch and thinking abt him. but. have i failed? evven i myself dun noe...
Mar 10, 2005
THIS IS A HAPPY BLOG :)
Haha. wat's up with Anonymous commentors on my blog. haha. (btw i copy and pasted the word 'Anonymous' cos i didnt noe how to spell!!!! ) gtta buck upon my spelling one day. thanks becks! and the 2 Anonymous ppl. :) u kinda brighten up my day!
Anyway sister asked y my blog always seem so sad!
TAN LIHAO! IF THIS IS SAD DEN DUN READ LAR! MAKE URSELF SAD FOR WAT! YES. DUN READ ANYMORE K! ;)
hmpf.all of a sudden i feel watched. but doent matter, i'll just keepon crapping no matter wat. haha. i love crapping anyway.
THIS IS A HAPPY BLOG :)
hais. school's ending and i still feel there's somethings i hadnt yet settled. CHANG AND OLI AND PHYL CAME CRASH TDY! and becca was superhappy. she wasnt even half that happy when she saw me everyday! hurr. haha
yep. back to the unsettled isues stuff. hais. watever lar. mayb i shld just say it. but its hard. these few days i've been a lil avoiding him to avoid saying it. cos... its hard to say out a sorry. esp when i'm really really at fault. hais.
Anyway sister asked y my blog always seem so sad!
TAN LIHAO! IF THIS IS SAD DEN DUN READ LAR! MAKE URSELF SAD FOR WAT! YES. DUN READ ANYMORE K! ;)
hmpf.all of a sudden i feel watched. but doent matter, i'll just keepon crapping no matter wat. haha. i love crapping anyway.
THIS IS A HAPPY BLOG :)
hais. school's ending and i still feel there's somethings i hadnt yet settled. CHANG AND OLI AND PHYL CAME CRASH TDY! and becca was superhappy. she wasnt even half that happy when she saw me everyday! hurr. haha
yep. back to the unsettled isues stuff. hais. watever lar. mayb i shld just say it. but its hard. these few days i've been a lil avoiding him to avoid saying it. cos... its hard to say out a sorry. esp when i'm really really at fault. hais.
Mar 8, 2005
xiang hui dao guo qu / shi zhe bao ni zai huai li
xiu qie de lian dai you yi dian zhi qi
xiang kan ni de kan de shi jie / xiang zai ni meng de hua mian
zhi yao kao zai yi qi jiu neng gan jue tian mi
xiang hui dao guo qu / shi zhe rang gu shi ji xu
zhi shao bu zai rang ni li wo er qu
fen san shi jian de zhu yi / zhe ci hui bao de geng jin
zhe yang wan liu bu zhi / hai lai bu lai de jii
xiang hui dao guo qu
i dont understand myself . came online wanting to blog, but once i load the blogger page i've nthg to blog abt.
random tot:
whenever i feel sad, i think that no one will come and stand by me. yet i know deep inside that there will be friends if i just open up and ask for them. but yet, how many will come to me even if i dun ask for it?
smthg i smsed on the bus to myself:
i miss st nicks, i miss the freedom of speech there. maybe it wasnt as wonderful as it may seem to me now, but in my mind, it always is. there were bad times and good times then, but why does the bad times here seem so much more? i dun feel good, maybe its cos i dun speak my mind here. or that i'm not truthful enuff, which makes life less enjoyable. i dunno.i'm tired, just tired from everything, and abt everything.
xiu qie de lian dai you yi dian zhi qi
xiang kan ni de kan de shi jie / xiang zai ni meng de hua mian
zhi yao kao zai yi qi jiu neng gan jue tian mi
xiang hui dao guo qu / shi zhe rang gu shi ji xu
zhi shao bu zai rang ni li wo er qu
fen san shi jian de zhu yi / zhe ci hui bao de geng jin
zhe yang wan liu bu zhi / hai lai bu lai de jii
xiang hui dao guo qu
i dont understand myself . came online wanting to blog, but once i load the blogger page i've nthg to blog abt.
random tot:
whenever i feel sad, i think that no one will come and stand by me. yet i know deep inside that there will be friends if i just open up and ask for them. but yet, how many will come to me even if i dun ask for it?
smthg i smsed on the bus to myself:
i miss st nicks, i miss the freedom of speech there. maybe it wasnt as wonderful as it may seem to me now, but in my mind, it always is. there were bad times and good times then, but why does the bad times here seem so much more? i dun feel good, maybe its cos i dun speak my mind here. or that i'm not truthful enuff, which makes life less enjoyable. i dunno.i'm tired, just tired from everything, and abt everything.
have been pondering over issues the entire day. was and am still quite sad. only i didnt say out. hais. blisters, homework, and issues.
i noe there's a need to apologize, but i just couldnt bring myself to do it tdy. its cowardly, but i am i guess. and plus the fact i failed the lit essay on wuthering heights with the lowest marks in class. today is pronounced a sad day out of many other sad days. hais.
dun wana care more. cos smtimes, the more you cared, the more trouble you entangle urself into.
i noe there's a need to apologize, but i just couldnt bring myself to do it tdy. its cowardly, but i am i guess. and plus the fact i failed the lit essay on wuthering heights with the lowest marks in class. today is pronounced a sad day out of many other sad days. hais.
dun wana care more. cos smtimes, the more you cared, the more trouble you entangle urself into.
Mar 6, 2005
Here's wat i got from 69's blog posted by one of them "altho friends always say they will keep in touch and they will nv drift apart wenever time has come for them to part, its always inevitable that they will become more distant"
i just hope this shall nv happen however likely it is.
moulin rouge kinda rocked.loved this phrase
"How beautiful life is, now you're in the world" :)
i just hope this shall nv happen however likely it is.
moulin rouge kinda rocked.loved this phrase
"How beautiful life is, now you're in the world" :)
lilin looked damn cute. hoho
elaine look chao class.
hais.
woke up today feel this sense of lost. this fear in me of losing things. losing you. havent felt this space in my heart for ages. and its back.i'm scared.
aniw, CONGRATS NAIFEN AND WOONHOWE! they both rock. :) talentime was great. the previous winner sang jie shou and hei se you mo! damn nice.and super touched. and almost cried at some pt in the show.
have been long since i calmed myself down enuff to write poems. :)
this poem is dedicated to all my sixoh classmates.esp lihao, weiheng, meowvin, van-lots of lucks! , becca, pan, elaine, mavis, hongli, shuiying, peiwen, junhong, char, naifen, woonhoweand everyone :)
YOU
That lone lamppost
Lighted
Paths for many people
In its life.
That blanket
Warmed up cold nights
That one spends alone.
That lolly
Placed a smile
On an innocent young face.
That plaster
Heals wounds
That one thought could
Never be.
That hug
Calmed that panic
Mind, soothe it
Touches hearts.
You’re that
Lamppost,
Blanket,
Lolly,
Plaster,
And hug
In my life.
woke up today feel this sense of lost. this fear in me of losing things. losing you. havent felt this space in my heart for ages. and its back.i'm scared.
aniw, CONGRATS NAIFEN AND WOONHOWE! they both rock. :) talentime was great. the previous winner sang jie shou and hei se you mo! damn nice.and super touched. and almost cried at some pt in the show.
have been long since i calmed myself down enuff to write poems. :)
this poem is dedicated to all my sixoh classmates.esp lihao, weiheng, meowvin, van-lots of lucks! , becca, pan, elaine, mavis, hongli, shuiying, peiwen, junhong, char, naifen, woonhoweand everyone :)
YOU
That lone lamppost
Lighted
Paths for many people
In its life.
That blanket
Warmed up cold nights
That one spends alone.
That lolly
Placed a smile
On an innocent young face.
That plaster
Heals wounds
That one thought could
Never be.
That hug
Calmed that panic
Mind, soothe it
Touches hearts.
You’re that
Lamppost,
Blanket,
Lolly,
Plaster,
And hug
In my life.
Mar 5, 2005
sometimes thinking too much merely does more harm.
the more you think, the moretroubled you will feel.
went canoeing tdy! :) am glad i went... cos i've overcame fears of the wobbling t1 and when i got onto a t2, its like damn stable! wenyi is super good, canoed t2 with her and she's super strong and all. her hands all blister, my one got one small one and i alr felt like complaining abt it! hahas. i love canoeing alr! but leaving soon. so its like hais. too late for regrets
on the way hm was thinking abt wat she asked abt having that kind of feelings again. shit. shldnt have even tot of it.
watever lar.
praying hard for naifen and woonhowe cos they got talentime tonight!:)
jiayous! :):)
just hope the inner sadness get better. hais
the more you think, the moretroubled you will feel.
went canoeing tdy! :) am glad i went... cos i've overcame fears of the wobbling t1 and when i got onto a t2, its like damn stable! wenyi is super good, canoed t2 with her and she's super strong and all. her hands all blister, my one got one small one and i alr felt like complaining abt it! hahas. i love canoeing alr! but leaving soon. so its like hais. too late for regrets
on the way hm was thinking abt wat she asked abt having that kind of feelings again. shit. shldnt have even tot of it.
watever lar.
praying hard for naifen and woonhowe cos they got talentime tonight!:)
jiayous! :):)
just hope the inner sadness get better. hais
Mar 4, 2005
sometimes i jus feel rather down, yet i dun wana tell other people abt it.
i guess there'll be some point in time when everyone will feel the need to close up one's feelings. and i do, at more that one point.
i think it aint very healthy for my mind, to keep trying to keep IT outa my mind admist many other things i am unsure abt and all.
sometimes i just wish life will be damn simple. augustine talkked abt the power of the subconcious self, that it can be so powerful that it creates a whole world on its own. i dun wan it to be that powerful. for powerful minds proved to be only troubled minds, unhappy souls.
i wan a life simple and easy. it sounds lazy and cowardly to some extend, but but but... shldnt life just be without that much complxities? i wan a life with not so much of troubles abt school and schwork, about friends, about love. i just wan my short life to be lived as ME.
just hope i can have someone special to seek solace , seek peace from. i noe there will be, he just hadnt arrive into my life yet. maybe i think he has, but thing is, unlikely so. :)
i guess there'll be some point in time when everyone will feel the need to close up one's feelings. and i do, at more that one point.
i think it aint very healthy for my mind, to keep trying to keep IT outa my mind admist many other things i am unsure abt and all.
sometimes i just wish life will be damn simple. augustine talkked abt the power of the subconcious self, that it can be so powerful that it creates a whole world on its own. i dun wan it to be that powerful. for powerful minds proved to be only troubled minds, unhappy souls.
i wan a life simple and easy. it sounds lazy and cowardly to some extend, but but but... shldnt life just be without that much complxities? i wan a life with not so much of troubles abt school and schwork, about friends, about love. i just wan my short life to be lived as ME.
just hope i can have someone special to seek solace , seek peace from. i noe there will be, he just hadnt arrive into my life yet. maybe i think he has, but thing is, unlikely so. :)
Mar 3, 2005
i starting to feel nostalgic.
the de vaju and all.
i noe i cant stay in hc.
and i regret nt cherishing the initial days.
now, i'm trying to spend my last few days in sixoh menaingfully.
trying to keep those irritating tots outa your mind is tough stuff.
many times i feel like crying.but i noe i must hold back...
still the same bagua lucia, but one that keeps secrets that is.
i hope my friends trust me with their secrets.for once i'm gone, it'll hard to ba gua abt you guys anymore. pls. give me this last chance to noe you. pls. give me no room for regrets.
i noe i have to leave. and i will, happily, when the time is up and my wish is done.
the de vaju and all.
i noe i cant stay in hc.
and i regret nt cherishing the initial days.
now, i'm trying to spend my last few days in sixoh menaingfully.
trying to keep those irritating tots outa your mind is tough stuff.
many times i feel like crying.but i noe i must hold back...
still the same bagua lucia, but one that keeps secrets that is.
i hope my friends trust me with their secrets.for once i'm gone, it'll hard to ba gua abt you guys anymore. pls. give me this last chance to noe you. pls. give me no room for regrets.
i noe i have to leave. and i will, happily, when the time is up and my wish is done.
Mar 2, 2005
i've been avoiding this place since the release of the os. its screwed. damn screwed. maybe its just me. maybe its only me. but the veyr thought of having to leave my lovely, dearest, sweet, caring, nice, fun, enthusiastic, great, wonderful sixoh is heartbreaking. it is. and as lucia, i'm known to just shut the bad things out for a while b4 adjusting. which was wat i did.
to think at first i hated being in my class becos i tot i didnt fit in. i tot the ppl weent that great. yet it was. it was an experince being in sixoh. the snrs and my sisters and becca and jz are damn nice. they came all the way down to find me. sweet. and of cos i am ever grateful to shuiying for being with me everytime i needed her.and this time, i needed her so much so much. and she's there for me. thank you! :D thanks for veryone's concern, those who called to asked abt the results only to be faced with a sobbing voice which probably gave you a rude shock. i apologise. even til now, i try to put it away far far away in my mind. chooosing instead, not to think abt it at all. thanks for the encouraging smses you guys sent. :) thanks for the concern you shown to be. i am thankful for all my friends. i am.
if i were to leave hc, the greatest thing i will bring with me and no one shall take it away is the great friendshipsi have made this short 2mths. i'll treasure it no matter wat. no matter wat.
i noe chances of staying in hc is slim. it cld even b non existant. but, i'lltry..bcos i love sixoh.
there's becca with the alr true scandals and lame jokes, janet with e whines, mavis with the cool look, lilin with her obesson woith pandas, betty the ever studious girl , yvonne the great actress, huetheng with her diet cokes, elaine with the fish teases, van with the light green skirt, xying with her love for techno, hongli with the siaosiao tag and super ncie slate . there's also my sisters:lihao with the ever phantom love, melvin with the extra obvious MEOWing, and weiheng with the funnysmile when asked abt the scandal and the muscular body i heard. and also haining with the DA HAI DE HAI, zzzzziyang with the elongated zzzzziiiiiii , llywelyn with the looooooloooooooolllooo in front of the name, gordon with the gong replaceing the gor, chuanwei with the josephian call, yuzhong with his big arms and strenght and runs to the canteen for breaks and the ever ncie canoe guy and the ramly incident, mak with the 10a1s written on his face! haahs, peihan witht eh GP thing i nv forget, justin with the eloquence as emcee for huangchen, guoxian with the llloooong legs like meow, junzhe with the ONLY SOCCER attitude, and eveyrone everyone. :)
pray for me, and take me to where i belong
to think at first i hated being in my class becos i tot i didnt fit in. i tot the ppl weent that great. yet it was. it was an experince being in sixoh. the snrs and my sisters and becca and jz are damn nice. they came all the way down to find me. sweet. and of cos i am ever grateful to shuiying for being with me everytime i needed her.and this time, i needed her so much so much. and she's there for me. thank you! :D thanks for veryone's concern, those who called to asked abt the results only to be faced with a sobbing voice which probably gave you a rude shock. i apologise. even til now, i try to put it away far far away in my mind. chooosing instead, not to think abt it at all. thanks for the encouraging smses you guys sent. :) thanks for the concern you shown to be. i am thankful for all my friends. i am.
if i were to leave hc, the greatest thing i will bring with me and no one shall take it away is the great friendshipsi have made this short 2mths. i'll treasure it no matter wat. no matter wat.
i noe chances of staying in hc is slim. it cld even b non existant. but, i'lltry..bcos i love sixoh.
there's becca with the alr true scandals and lame jokes, janet with e whines, mavis with the cool look, lilin with her obesson woith pandas, betty the ever studious girl , yvonne the great actress, huetheng with her diet cokes, elaine with the fish teases, van with the light green skirt, xying with her love for techno, hongli with the siaosiao tag and super ncie slate . there's also my sisters:lihao with the ever phantom love, melvin with the extra obvious MEOWing, and weiheng with the funnysmile when asked abt the scandal and the muscular body i heard. and also haining with the DA HAI DE HAI, zzzzziyang with the elongated zzzzziiiiiii , llywelyn with the looooooloooooooolllooo in front of the name, gordon with the gong replaceing the gor, chuanwei with the josephian call, yuzhong with his big arms and strenght and runs to the canteen for breaks and the ever ncie canoe guy and the ramly incident, mak with the 10a1s written on his face! haahs, peihan witht eh GP thing i nv forget, justin with the eloquence as emcee for huangchen, guoxian with the llloooong legs like meow, junzhe with the ONLY SOCCER attitude, and eveyrone everyone. :)
pray for me, and take me to where i belong
