moving!

i'm moving my entries to a far away place for the new year as a trial for a new start!
but i may be back (:

for the past three days,
i composed my own fonts
i met a kind shuttle bus uncle who waited for me to board the bus from qt some distance away (and under darkening skies, so you know how grateful i am!)
results were out. contentment (:
choc fondue
got cheated by the people who said it will be slow jog (ended up panting! how slow is that!)
midnight movie with people who cant stop laughing
suffered from stiff shoulders that doesnt go away ):
saw three korean guys move into hall! (small eyes!)

for ltr,
tutu dinner (:

the year's ending. i dont know what i've really accomplished this year. in fact, i think i just let half a year went by without any feelings (working). im glad im back in school. resolutions at a ltr time.

perhaps the last. perhaps not.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ( :

PERHAPS

Perhaps its cos we've grown up and grown old

Perhaps its cos happiness is running out, not on limitless supply

But, really, perhaps its cos we don't care anymore

That things turned out this way.

We need to be happy, to make ourselves happy.
This world can get quite dark at times
But after the darkness, there'll always be the sunrise. Or so i hope.
December's ending ): I dont quite look fwd to christmas or new year. I havent accomplished enough this year to deserve anything. its sad.

my mind's bogged but i cant exactly say what/why. its this mixture of worries and thoughts and i-dont-know-what.

i'm trying to keep my entries short, really. but cos my grasp of the language is so lousy, i needa use more words to express myself. DANG.

i had steamboat with cecs (: MARINA STEAMBOATS ARE CLOSING DOWN ): ): pretty place where many memories root from. kiteflying, steamboating...

i cycled to fong's hse today. knee's aching. but well worth. (: chow is cute,when she doesnt come near me.

i ny pizzed.

i finally saw sharon au on tv today!

i need a break. a real break pls.

okay, no emo. cos cecs said so. my only excuse is, cos my leg aches. so its making me emo.

this is love

this is love!
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

2205bbq ytd. thanks to all those who organised! finally got to meet up with everyone (: yay! we didnt sleep a wink the entire night and caught the sunrise! and had macs breakfast while waiting for the too. haha! thats how you can get this pic you see above! :D we saw stars too! YAY! reminds me of nan, only less clear and bright! ): i miss nan.

met up with the ps exco after that too for nydc! havent met them for really long cos i was always missing out on outings, i admit! HEE (: but yay. the girls are done with exams and the guys still bogged by army. one yr, just one more yr boss,cp and pres!

sometime in the week i also met up with siyu and jas! my lovely pri sch frens! siyu's away in China now and i didnt get to go send her off cos i was in ecp. really didnt know how to go. i hope she have fun there!!!

sometimes i think i really need to get away from the comfort of home, and go on this big exciting adventure (: that sometime, will come soon. soon, i promise myself. i just needed that push, that motivation. and i must do it. shooting stars aplenty. wait for me pls. i get worried that when i finally get to backpack, the skies would get too polluted by our own wrongdoings that it is nv the same again.i worry, and i WANT my shooting stars aplenty sky. thats y sometimes i get environmentallyfriendly too. (by taking bus/trains instead of car rides even though its twice as long).

thats my way of saving the earth. whats yours?

NOT BAD

NOT BAD
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

1/ i was clearing my worksheets last week (slowly but steadily im trying!) and was reminded of the days when 48% was a not bad even tho it barely was a pass! i think 50 plus was VERYGOOD. of cos, i wasnt that elite group! for CHEM last yr. how bittersweet (:

2/ STARS-ed just now. oh my, the waitlists can go on forever. but yays to THREE econs core!

3/ this week's rather packed, what with 3plus hours journeys to and fro from hall. BEN AND JERRYS ytd with sherm & pj ! wohoo! icecream with CHUNKS

4/ i've borrowed books from the library! (fiction! in case u were thinking otherwise, like econs) gotta get myself back to reading. saya gemar membaca buku cerita!

sometimes when i put myself in the shoes of foreigners, i do want to feel welcomed and included in the local circles if i were in a foreign country, wont i? but why aint i doing just that?

do we get too comfy in our comfort ? we forgot those onlookers on the borders.

remind me to love

becos for the longest time, i've been trying.

10k tmr (: may all things go well. stitches unwelcomed.

ive jus backread my posts again. i think i sounded suicidal during the pre a's period. but then again, i sound suicidal ever so often.

19 on 29

i’ve been really fortunate. despite all that i’ve done (or rather not done). many times i know that i aint worthy of such good friends and family because i don’t even treat any of them half as well. thank you for making my days, not only today. for every other day that you’ve been in my life.

i was battling a headache and fatigue and the lack of sleep ytd right after malay. what a way to end it. but yay! all’s over. (if yours havent) don’t worry, it will come soon! living ytd for the 17 hours before 5pm came, was scary. its like living in solidarity in hall. i dont think i spoke more than 5 lines to people prior to exams. but sure, i did speak alot (but only to myself). sometimes i think maybe i'm on the brink of madness. but other times i reassure myself that people alr thinks im mad so it dont matter. haha.

thankyou BESTEST fren, roomie wj ele pj yx jh for ytd. and my nicest sisters.and the surge of msges coming in this morning. oli yeetheng cecs pan fong yuexin siyu ele laowu chinny xiaobai becca hongli lew su redmoon heng siaoer meijie jo baguamate esther zhimin peijia ossie kaiwei mich hil aiping yongchuen mstan cereal ying katrine kez shimin wongjia val buddy iggie diana hinho huiping boss choonyuan meiyee sherl sherm. THANKYOU

a year older, but aint much wiser / happier / sadder. how to, when you're on the brink of entering the big 2. its scary, paths ahead. wait up Time, i've not yet thought of the future. dont transport me so far ahead, could you?

perhaps its some wakeup call. but i know, in no time, when the work gets to me, i'll forget about this again. til the next alert comes by, its already too late.

but as a happy & rare post goes, this post comes with PHOTOS. note the plural! i dont normally post so many photos per posts! so u're in for a treat.

MESSY table


only she can make things so happy


minli's bday!

early morning rants

im only dropping by here to blog the fact that i've woken up the earliest today in months, on this last official day of my sem. wohoo!

its only 615am and i've

bangun tidur den sudah berus gigi. saya akan belajar sekarang!
(woke up from sleep and brushed teeth. i will study now!)

you know you didnt choose the wrong course when you feel a rush of adrenline reading through the descriptions of the modules you can take next semester and in the sems to come as a major. it brings a smile you cant explain.

and that is despite just coming back from a deadly core paper.

im glad it still excites me so.

one last paper! (: jiayou lu!

HOME

feels so good to be home after a week-long battle with my notes. i could feel my body breaking apart. aching shoulders, and just a really drained mind. i complain way too much, i know.

in a week's time, everything is gna be fine. even if anxieties will hit, even if papers prove to be discouraging, there's always this three people i can count on. i'll be home more often i hope!

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

and joy made my week so much the better.

what do they say?

shadows, and what do they say?
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

and i panic. i'm trying to keep every breathe light, its so stiffening. its tomorrow. i cant breathe ): it always happen.

i've drank two cups of milktea today. at least it feels better than coffee. the night was so peaceful, waking up to the music in the background. (:

wish me luck! jiayou lu! u can do it! two weeks (:

in between shades of rainbow, is there light?

micro notes + text > eeyore
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

trying times, i hope i get through.

everything suddenly becomes nothing. there's plenty i need to think through. and this is bad timing.

jiayou!

rainbow

rainbow
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

I believe in coincidences, sometimes. Last Friday, on my way home in the feeder bus, I saw a RAINBOW! The very same week that jay released the album, ‘on the run’ which have a track called CAI HONG! (: it really made my day (in fact, my week) cos for the whole week I was so drained, much on the verge of falling ill.

Miracles do happen to me after all.

in my excitement, i also told my mum to look out for the rainbow. though she couldnt see it from our house, she commented that the skies were very nice. that we didnt notice it so all this while. true, i think all of us have been too busy studying, working, earning our keep that we often neglect life's beautiful creations. i shall, learn to appreciate these things even among textbooks and notes. that, is my hope.

But I know miracles don’t happen during exams. to do well, lu, pls mugg hard! Last week! You know you want to do well! (: this week is all you need, and got, to last thr!

The other day while jogging, I thought of choices, and how I had a choice then- to choose what I wanted to do. That, already makes me more fortunate than many others, those who had no choice, and those who had to choose something they didn’t want. Since I have made THE choice, JIAYOU I shall. (: it’s been a wonderful journey thus far, i learnt more things than i knew, i found it more interesting, and I can only continue making it more so by mugging hard this last week, this last stretch this sem!

jiayou! (:

many happiness awaits after exams <3

reminder

reminder
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

when you know that you're losing things that you've only just learnt to cherish, you panic and start grabbing whatever you could save of it. its like when you're drowning, you struggle, trying to hold onto something, anything that can keep you afloat.

i found myself struggling again. the same feeling that i felt a yr ago, in the midst of A's. i was in the library today and the girls beside me were mugging for Binomial, Stats and the like. A's. i havent been to a real exam in such a long time, i am begining to feel the struggle, the panic, the stress again. and i hope i succeed this time, as with my blessed previous times.

thank you for keeping me sane, you: the person i dedicated this picture to, last yr. you're on my mind again, for this exam as with o's and a's. and will be, for the four yrs to come i think. i never did thank you explictly for this, but you know i can never open up myself enough to do so.

thank you for keeping me afloat in the bigg vast sea of yesteryear, and also the constant support in the new terrain this year. i'm just glad you're never far. but ive never been a good friend. have never, and might never be.

and so i know i will start talking to myself more often, again. foolscape pads, here comes. everything else, is now secondary.

obituaries

i read the obituaries in the newspapers quite often recently, and imagine the life the people used to lead. merely a day before.

its a really addictive activity, and it takes me more time to read through the obituaries than to scan the entire newspapers' headlines, but well worth the effort. from the descriptions,i form an image of the life he/she led and the feelings of the person who sent it in. i let my mind wander and think of how i would have written my own obituary, if ever the chance arises.

infinite possiblities, but really, which one represents us most? what do we wish to be remembered for?

or, do we need one at all?

perhaps when i'm gone, there's really no need to inform/express sorrow and grieve in words, though i believe such avenues of release does help the griveing deal with their sorrow. but to have my photo and life (for potential stalkers, erm i mean, thinkers like me) exposed to half the local population. i think its scary.

perhaps there will come a time when i would need an obituary, and i could start preparing for it now.

for now, pls mugg. just mugg

HALLO-there

HALLO-there
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

im trying to mugg but the tv's wayy too distracting.

1. omg two weeks. two week's all i've got, even in the midst of many quizzes on the coming dreadful wednesday.
2. yay, home is getting all wireless-up. (: whee.
3. i feel like im on a tv marathon.
4. and its five weeks to stanchart, lima weeks to end of exams! thats when the panic sets in, the same panic one year ago.

must things always repeat itself?

FOCUS, focus lu. u're on your own this time.

descend

descend
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

its days like this when i go back from school and feel like everything turned out fine. its days like this that makes the onset of nights feel safer.

i think i've learnt to live with constraints, this was the best view i could get at that time, and even though it doesnt have the best composition. trade off. i love the blend of blue and orange!

on a happier note, my sister and i CONQUERED 10k together (: great weather, condition, motivation. it helps, to go through the race together.




exams. exams. exams.
i cant wait for time to stop.

milo overdose

i think i’m going to overdose on milo. have been drinking it at least one cup a day cos the weather gets so cold, its just comforting to have tasty warm milo with you. assurance, it sure is.

if you love something, you will want to do well for it. and so mugg you shall lu. no thinking of other excesses that dont bother you. mugg! one month. no blogging too often. no talking to self alrite! argh ): stress, is only when you feel unprepared. and i'm stressed ):

how'd things get to this?

saturday fish beehoon

my yangzheng class gang
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

I had a happy Saturday meeting my yangzheng gang over fries and yummy yu pian me fen. I’m eating too much over the weekend, there's always plenty of food waiting for me at home! wheee!! but AHHH! great great company I life, where every saturday i would jus go down and tutor. hah, so diflove! Too bad didn’t get to see brokeback and suyee and wongchiobu! ): i realise all my photos are at home, so the only yangzheng photo is have is that of the classgang. pls add yuk suyee and brokeback in. the eight of us. haha, i think that was my most consistent part of life, its so difficult to commit now it seems. happy happy faces, shall meet again.

meanwhile, people have been reminding me end of sems are here! boo! it is, ): . mugg hard and start soon enuff, i hope.

yay,class bbq/chalet end of years! smth to look to aye.

and i was slacking happily over the weekends, its so enjoyable. the peace.

u couldnt possibly think i will want to take your every scream , shout, depressed bout and smirk, do you?

tough luck. i'm getting a tad too irritated. but really, im just amazed you're so schizo. so imperfectly the one i used to know.

Every time I hear the military planes flying over on our horizons, I think of the people protecting our country.

i think, as long as i run, it doesnt matter how many kilometres it was, how long i took. the main point is that: i ran (: and that requires much more recognition than other technical details. i think. i think this world is too focused on figures, on achivements that we neglect the main objective- which in this case is to just work out and be healthy.

i forgot that it was so much laughter to talk to people (:

of the undone, and to be done.

you know you're very dead if you dont manage to rush out your essay dued friday by TONIGHT because tmr night you'll be having something on. plus another essay and an oral and listening compre in a still-foreign language CA on monday. and TONS of chinese words on ur notes to understand.

i think ive got no sense of time. literally and figuratively.

and im stressing myself out over essays and CAs. deadlines and line deads. i dun like how every little thing counts towards your GPA. ): but then, if it doesnt, perhaps rationally, there's no incentive to do it.

my head feels hot and fuzzzy, i need ample sleep. but sleep, i cant.

i had a happy thursday going back to our kampung school for a visit! brings back lots of the familiar feeling, i cant describe to anyone. but its those very familiar feelings, like that of deva ju.

we spent some time mugging back at homeroom. crazy as it sounds, yes. mugg (: and i saw someone who , like mem prefers that warm, isolated bench outside the library! wheets! got to talked to only mdmwoon and mstan! always a source of inspiration for me, everytime i go back.

i havent really mugg this holidays so you know just how dead i am for my quizzes next week! sigh. its back to school tmr again! May everything go well! (: finally met up with steffi and osy for our chongpang dinner + gossip!

HAPPY 19th FONG! promise we'll meet up SOON!

arrows

arrows
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

sometimes i wish someone would just lead me by the hand. becos i no loner know how to walk on.

leaving loving knowing

so many things were going on over the weekend, i felt like i hadnt got any rest. truth is, i didnt. i get discouraged that no one else cares anymore. but im glad im always proven wrong in the end.

two parts of an important part of my life is going to leave in two days 0r in 5. im gna feel quite zonked/lost/stony for the next few days. i've already been stoning the whole weekend and today away. i hate it when things change. but im much much more happier for them cos i know the education they received there would be so much more WOAH.

hate < happy

no matter how much we did/didnt enjoy nplife. i do love my sqms a whole lot. there were just so many things to rmb about them. how we survived camps, all the stupid things we do, all the complaints. i guess thats growing up, but hopefully not growing apart. it seem so surreal. it didnt seem that fast. in no time, this week's gna past and i'll be left at the starting line, thinking whr did eveyrone go. overseas. away from home. i guess its gg to be even harder for them. i PROMISE that i wun cry when i send them off. happy faces we all shall be. i know they'll be back :D

perhaps these are the things that taught us how to treasure, how to grow up, how to love more.

happy brunch and bbq (: <3 pls bless my sqdms

i feel like i'm busying myself, doing nothing.
i get stressed and i hate it cos i get panicky.
i hate deadlines cos i get stresed, panic and get nothing done.

and i promise i will complete all my assignments in the one hour left b4 i get out of house.
i need photography therapy.

i am incoherent as usual.
i need to write, with flow.

this is who or what i wan to be

i can write a thousand word blog entry without thinking but i spend more than two days thinking of 100 words with so much mental block and feeling v drained. i can never reach the 250 words by monday ): boo! i dont really want to be anyone or anything else. i just want to me myself, really. mental block, perhaps is just an excuse for not having a good idea. but i use it anyway. stressed people are entitled to lame excuses i hope.

fong! i miss u so much too! ): u never have time for me! argh!

and ossie! HELLO! (:

first 10 K!

haha yay. my first 10k. k for kilometers, not as in ten thousand bucks.

whee! was a good run, the weather was good, although our condition was qt bad. plus we get to run on roads and "dash" past many many red lights! but all thanks to running partner, diana, i survived! ten k now no longer seems so far anymore! i think it was the company that helps! got a few more runs in the next months... jiayou! (:

but now must mugg for some quiz on tues ): how dead am i! boooohoo.

run!

duck race
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

i havent posted pics for some time. so here's one, to cheer everyone up. i went for a mindclearing and refreshing run this morning that puts me in gd mood (: in my new runningshoes that isnt the perfect fit i was looking for, but its the next best alternative already. econs is getting difficult. jiayou!

and fong! im emo cos i dont get to see you for more than a month and i dont have updates on ur life, neither pics of ur room nor any cycling trip to ur hse! im angry! hahah :x

happyhappy people

i met up with the people in life who makes me happy. its a happy happy feeling to know the people you care about are leading comfy,satisfied and happy lives. that's perhaps all i needed to know. and all i care about.

isnt life simply and ultimately about being happy?

:D

im a selfish girl. i dont quite like frens leaving hometown singapura. because i know when they leave, i'll be sad. and its difficult to keep in touch ever so often again. and i wun know they're safe, but at least i know they'll be happy and doing so much better. its an experience worth. i pray for u u and u (:

i think i got lost somewhere in the middle out there. i need someone to walk me through.

i promise to be a kinder and nicer girl. i do i do! really.

i need some motivation. and i feel like turning to taking random pics again. its easy but its difficult. such a contradiction. but jiayou lu! i miss tutucians and everyone else. but inertia is a powerful thing.

becos im unwilling to show, i can only respond with laughter.
heartily but forced. life can get so cold.

pile on the blankets my dear. the world out there is pouring.

shoes

i get rather sad whenever i attempt to find myself running shoes. i need to find THE running shoe before i can buy it becos misfitted shoes dont rock. they dont give the happy jogging feeling

so i shall continue my (already half a yr) search for the perfect fit (:

Somewhere Out There

i dont blog when im angry. but im angry with my lappy. ): BOOOOO.

maths in relation to econs is causing me a bigg headache.

i was a maths rep okay,so i shall NEVER be defeated by it. shld have known im more essay than maths considering the fact that i post lengthy posts :/ cos im naggy.

i got my lappy (: YAY. i will not be disconnected from the world while in ulu land !
and i need to do my tutorials now becos econs starts tutorials this week. like FIRST WEEK. haha. and there's 2 tuts tmr.

wish me luck .

i love my sundaytimes

i love my sundaytimes
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

this is my last night of internet for the next three days. (i sound super spolit) i must, will and shall get a laptop soon! yay. sis got me 26bucks worth of junkfood. mum got me many many bucks worth of stuff like pillows and all the cleaning stuff. v happy to have a nicenicegreatloved family! i'll miss home and will be back as often as i can. i AM a homebody at heart!

EARLY lesson tmr! haha. waking up at six a.m. begins yet again! school is a scary scary place, but let's hope all things will be fine (: uni's lessons are sucky cos have to print ur own notes :/ haha, typical spoon-fed student rite?

met up with my FAVE FONG today (: super happening la her, shall visit ur room one day soon! and have fun (with many of my frens! lol ) partner and hil is my blk cum level mate (: YAY.

pray. hope! bless my family! <3

where'd that breath of fresh air came from?

new template again. haha. guess im still trying to find one im really comfortable with, like my prev prev one which stayed with me for quite long! its still grins/green and oranges though (: just a lot less cluttered, perhaps in an attempt to clear my mind of its clutterness. (i ran 3km plus today!)


starting fresh and with renewed faith in people, i hope! life's gna be good.


plenty of stuff to buy and prep. i think my mum's even more anxious than me (and more efficient too) :/ DANG. stop procrastinating! ive got this long list of things to get since july and its not even 10% done. how dead! i wna meet up with everyone but then i also wna be home for my mum since im mostly not home these days , and aint gna be home in time to come ): bahh.

bytheway, my blog's gna be 4yrs old in the month of aug! whooo! time really flies. i could still recall my apprehension to go jc two years back, my first day in stnicks, and some fragmented pieces of pri sch and the day i got punished in kindergarten. i feel like im being forced to grow up all so suddenly. i dont quite feel like gg out and doing smth outside of my confort zone, but for which i must. life dont give you many choices someimes. but other times when you wished things were pre-determined, you're loaded with tons of decisions to make (like choosing which modules to take-it is like argh confusing).

im gna miss all the ppl gg to nus (mainly) and even in ntu, i guess its gna be hard to meet. but try i must. and i shld go know someone gg econs pls. :x

roomcleaning on wed. no rats/insects/cockroaches pls. haha.

innocence on the rooftop

innocence on the rooftop
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

when worries was nv on the mind. when life was about school whoch ends with the lessons. when you only need to think, food or five stones.life was so innocent, pleasantly simple. things didnt feel THAT far away. but it is. everyone i see is like the elongated, supersized version of yesteryears. only more different. much more complex.

primary school days scopes.

life's moving by slow, but days are moving by fast. when can i catch up?

anyhow i had a happy time catching up with qf and jas over yumm cakes at bakerzinc. yay! sucha small world, really.

and one of my fave girl, who can make me grin-happy, over sizzler and bloated stomachs.

figurines i no longer understand

DSC01120
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

i hate it whenever i hear the song ' Bad day' ringing in my mind. because superstitious as it sounds, i normally have bad days that day. ): and i hear it in my mind for two consecutive days. can u imagine the terror? goshh.

i shouldnt hav been. im sorry. i shouldnt have taken. im sorry.

half the week's almost gone. relief. this week had been bad. i dno where to start. bless me. :)

but thank god for TRANSFORMERs with dear old fong. superb movie, i love the way things are so technologically advanced in the movie. but scary, if you'd to think what if it really does exist in this world now. and an overly FULL sizzler. and tiring badminton with my badminton gang.

alrighty! work for three days straight! and there's the mizuno run with diana to look to! (altho my shoes are in wayy bad condition).

jiayous (:

ubinn!

yay updates! its monday! nothing much have happened, only that i went to pretty ubin on a wonderful wednesday (: its so tranquil, so peacefully simple there. i dont take nice pics, so i think photos dont justify the beauty of the island. we saw crabs with uneven pincers, a whole SHOAL of fishes, two jellyfishes and plenty of leeches at chek jawa! such an adventure, as always! YAY. even though fitness is failing and rides up slopes are killingly tough, WE MADE IT.

and over the weekend was jo's birthday! altho i think she wun come by, but still,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOJO! ((:

i just found this song on my com, and its really nice! i like!

Not Pretty Enough -Kasey Chambers
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can

I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can

happy day ahead! and ahead ahead (:

it could have been better

my first week of being office-employed-less was not spent resting again. but then lu is a person who needs to feel she have sufficient rest and time to herself and going at a pace slow enuff to feel happy. but this week i didnt ): and next week's gg to be crazy-like-anything week cos im working four days straight ): i hope my third and fourth week of july would be BETTER! (:

i need- the simple life. i need the slow paced, everyday rest at home and be familiar with the offpeak drama serials showing on tv kind of life. the play-neopets-til-very-sianed, dont wna use internet anymore, afternoon naps lifestyle. i like! its lazy, but who cares! (: soon, soon i will be!

but this week was happy TUES back to sch with the girls (: yay! sch makes me happy. and the fact that sch still looks pretty much the same makes me feel EVEN happier!

yay

i just happen to chance upon Time's magazine the issue on the best photos of 2006 in the library today (i'm gg back to reading!) . i think i've come to realise that the best photos, arent the ones with the best technicalities like the correct exposure, the best composition, appropraite shuttle speed and all. its really really about the story behind the photos, or in fact, the story it brings forth.

havent read Time for a long time! its the nice comforting feeling you get when you hold the familiar paper. and (not so comfortng) issues that alw seem to persist :/

im blogging often, i'm freeeeeee!

milkrun07!

happyyouthday (i think). anyhow today was milkrun along the singapore river! i like the scenery although the crowds makes it more of a challenge running continuously than conquering 4k. haha! yay and thanks for cecs n diana for the company! i tried my best to run for the most part when there aint a crowd in front. i like sweating out. it reminds me that i like to run and why i like to run.

i think most ppl dun like to run cos its tiring (i think), but then runs are very therapuetical stuff! they give me time to think, they're also the time when i dont think and just let my mind go all out and focus. qt contradictory, but there're many nature of runs/jogs, thats y! runs also let me feel good, that i'm leading a healthier life(supposedly, although the FOOD after the jogs balance it out completely). so yea! i <3 running.

yay no more mon-fri work! (: i need the rest! but i'm thankful my boss is a qt nice person and exceptionally nice to young me sometimes and i have rather nice colleagues tho sometimes i do get a bit of argh. 6 months.

gg back to kampongsch sometime the coming week!

im feeling antisocial just as sch is starting. heh! bad bad.

even when we have nothing else left...there're the memories we can keep going.

its perhaps times like these when i think that i dont need everything in the world, when i think that hey, life's not always about quick quick quick all the time. aint it. times like this when i learn to be kinder, when i learn not to say anything (partly cos it was painfully difficult to produce a sound).

june's fast ending! amazing how half a year can go by and feel like i have not done anything.

swiss mail !

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yay! ive received ossie's snail mail (: even tho she was forced to send it to me, who cares! its still a snail mail frm switzerland ! wheeeeeee!

anw uni reg is so complicated and messy and long and boring. ay and so i procrastinate.

2 weeks. pls let time flyyyyy so i can just eat and bumm ard at home!
when sch starts , i think i'll continue missing everyone cos ahem til now i've not known a single person who's gg econs. :/ right, so much for a venture. :/ and i haven collected the sch grad cert! hahahah.

hello cecs! (: i havent seen u in months! july july!

my post is disjointed. i'll blog better other days. cyaaaa

perhaps, its the experience that humbles us

this week's getting off to a bad start. early mon morn and its rush rush rush, problems problems plenty at work ); JIAYOU jiayou lu! 3weeks!WHEE! it'll get better!

what's more, bestfriend is OFF to europe! ); but YAY! im so excited for her adventure beginning! such a silly girl, really. <3 I MISS U! i hope she's na come back with chocs and lots of stories to tell! cant wait!

last week was happy piggish gang meet up at buddy hoagies (my fave cafe) and ljs meet up at hans! i feel so loved and so i must learn to love.

sometimes i wish i would stay positive more often, be happy, think the world is good and all. (: but when lousy thinsg happen in the midst of the day, i lose the faith, i lose the vision. speaking of faith, ive finished this book by jodi picoult 'keeping faith'. actually i took a really long time thru' this...but i like the back (but not the ending) part, where i feel the climax really is in the lawsuit.

maybe i really shld keep faith. the world's still gna shine brightly someday!

adventures

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Originally uploaded by lucia!.

i think i've pretty much fallen into routine again, workwise. i dont lovee them, but i like them cos they keep me on track. (like no messed up schedules and all). last thurs was vesek day and i got to see my lovely tutugirls (: yay. and cycling/chatting/eating icecream was happyifying! we sat on the tandem (*THINK new word for me!) bike but there was no SUN. ):

btw its the PODS that u're seeing above! (a kinda snack) super YUMM! esp the snickers version. but its a lil ex but yummy chocs are alws worth the money cos they make u happy.

sometimes i get pretty motivated to go out and help people and i searched high and low for organisations that want me (sadly, none). and i'm in one of those moods now. when i think of how i'm comfortably enjoying my meal, my ride on the bus, my tv time and yet somewhere in this world, and even this society, there're children whose childhood is a nil, who are forced by realities to grow up. i wna volunteer for children!

anyhow i've started the countdown to end-of-mon to fri-work. its another 20+ days to go before i say bye to nothing-to-do-for-the-entire-day work. school's starting in two months and for the longlong break i'm having, i feel like i've achieved nthg. its like not satisfying. like when i used to study, there's this aim/goal for you to touch down and look to. but now the break, seems endless to me.

and my bestestfriendosy is going to europe in a weeks' time. ): okok! i'll miss u! pls take care and keep ur promise to MAIL me smth! haha! adventures are always fun! and i hope they're touched with a tinge of craziness as well so they'll become lifelong memories to smile back on! :D

i'm naggy. bye!

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Originally uploaded by lucia!.

i always wanted to post this up. so pretty isnt it? the moment the background all fades and this bright blue thing comes up.

ytd i was at the PS annual seminar -this year : 'Senses'. i always like listening to the guestspeakers, and every yr there're many nice topics being touched upon, many interesting perspectives. i think somewhere in my heart, i still love photography, but its perhpas i'm slowly drifting away. its beautiful what photos can capture, i nv doubted. but then, i still stand by my belief to do very minimal edits, thats photography. anything more, its just image creation?

i will decide by thi weekend, i promised. but then dilemmas remains.

i fell down ytd on a very beauitful morning jog. the air was so fresh,it felt good to be woring out and everything. save for the fall.

anyway, happy week ahead pls!

and i update.

its another weekend!

i hadda happy sunday morn cos i got myself up and early to CYCLE! YAY! i always love cycling trips and man, minyi is children's fave! i think u go contest for most popular jie jie, you'll win! i think its so amazing that me and minyi ended up in the same courses at both unis after all that talk! but INDECISIVE INDECISIVE.

PLUS i got a letter from crystal TAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAH! i <3 slow mail! thanks a lot dear girl!!! such a sweet surprise! its work ltr again! :/ but jiayou! may is a slowww week! GO GO GO!

HAPPY TUTU BIRTHDAY! i love my tutucians tho i havent seen them for months! :/

we you us

and i hate to get all bummed up over those words- we you us.
i hate to notice the diff in tone and signals, but i do. all too often i do.

one includes one's pretty neutral one excludes . i hate it but i dont blame your language. perhaps it'd all been to starkly clear long ago. i just dont fit in, or i chose not to. and you didnt open doors.

heng's japanese curry rice

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Originally uploaded by lucia!.

long overdued pics! (: yummm diana's japanese curry rice with cabbage! i like it so much, i'm inspired to do a copy version of it at home! i've even bought the curry-thing already. yays.

this week was okay at work! i hope it'll remain the same! i hope that the goods come in on time to meet demands and that life's as smooth sailing as it could ever be. hahs. i ask for too much.

this week was MONDAY at manhanttan's fish with my qingtianwawa. hahaha and thurs was sixoh girls outing at vila ge. feels really nice and warm to just have eveyrone meet and talk and just chat so comfy even tho we're very much varied? and tdy was andersens icecream, so much for being impromptu, with OSSIE ONG. (:

cycling trip to FONG tmr! i hope it goes thr'. i like the feeling of going on some excursion or smth! wheees!

yay! in a day, i've heard two more people in the accpetance list of ntuecons. i mightnt be that lonely aft all. but then, would it be ntu? bahh. i miss classes. cant wait til they start tho it'll be all that much different. :/ i love my weekends slacking

perspective

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i've spent my entire sunday evening youtubing(which doesnt ever top my fave things to do list) and listening to bands on purevolume.
hah.weird things, but just enjoying the evning passing.

and i miss school quite badly after looking at this vid filmed in sch ); and sports day vids coupled with all those screams and all :x

but i had a happyhappppy afternoon baking with dia! (: she's such a good cook! yummm curry and cookies and lemon bash and eveyrhting! yay

saturday was a happy workout day cycling at an corner tucked away in singapore w threeLs. very little people at the park(relative to my past experience of running wailing children) , makes it so enjoyable.

work ! i hope its gd.

it gets cleaer on hindsight

fact is, my life is pretty mundane there's nothing very much to blog about :/

i'm off tuition on saturdays now so, yay! i get to watch the saturday morning doraemon shows! (: heh. sometimes work gets either very busy or very non-busy that i have nothing to do for an entire day. and i dread work cos soemtimes there's always a possiblity of ordering too much / too little goods. i cant predict!

anyway these days i've been thinking my choice is right, is what i like, and is what i'm gna to do for the entire life as a career. i mean, i still feel too young to be making life's tough choices. there's prolly no right decision until we make them, but then. sometimes i think i'm just gna give up the struggle and just zam. like whack? but then its quite a defining decision! :/

haha aniw osy says her name dont get mentioned on my blog often enuff. so here goes- osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy osy. THERE. twenty times. i'm sure that can beat any name i've mentioned here. :D i'm thankful to have someone to laze around on lazy saturday evenings, talking, watching tv and just slacking around. (: altho many times i'll grumble. haha! but no one can beat the innate performer in her ! for that,i can award her the best story teller, really. (:

haha. no photos this weekend. but sometimes i think a mundane life can also be the simple life. the enjoyments of (or in) life. (: so yea, here we go to another week.

btw there's two running events for anyone who's here and likes to run.
one, the anlene 1.6km jog for women only http://www.orchardmile.com/pages/main.asp .
two, milkrun-jogging for a cause! http://www.milkrun.sg/.
pretty good events to start a healthy healthy lifestyle! YAY.

brownies!

brownies!
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

oh shucks, i was so sadden just now cos my pics dont do justice to the brownies! diana baked nice choco brownies that taste yumm! wheee. but my pics dont tell a single thing about how yumm it is. :/

sherm and i finally got to newyorkpizza last sat after 2yrs of watching the signboard from high up on the train. but we didnt have newyorkpizzza in the end either! :x

i met my dearest threeL after like a million yrs of not seeing them this week ! whee! (: i love threeL cos they make me think. becos i like talking abt issues. doesnt matter if i dont talk becos i get thinking! some things just nv change. (: much as i hope other things didnt change to become that strained either. sighs. anyhow i had a great time chatting intellectually i think. havent done so for rather long :/ work is brain deactivating.

ajfamilyday was ytd, the anniversary of tutu's haunted house! ok, even tho we were slogging thr' the pasting of newspapers to cover the windows and all, but twas was great fun nonetheless. its a pity,i didnt go this yr.

happy work out morning with pj! (even tho all those go to waste 5 mins ltr cos i was eating yutiao right aft! ) haha!

some many issues i cant fathom, i dont feel it and i dont subscribe.

i havent cycled to to minyi's hse in a million yrs. not to mention, i havent even been to ossie hse EVER :S stop procrastinating, me! and yes ,cecs, the ubin trip soon!

(by the way minyi actually says:
MiNyI says:
why dun you blog abt minyi is so beautiful also
right, minyi, i did! only that beauty is relative, and i'm MORE beautiful! ;) )

i guess for most people , there'll alw be days when we feel like the world's against us (or the alternative that we're against the world). but its merely that some people feel it more frequently than others, some people feels it more stronger than the rest. i do often get days when i just want the world to go by, days when i feel like the whole world's crashing down onto me, days when i dont feel like talking and days when i just wanted out.but everyone lives with that. i'm qt confident its not depression (or at least not the extreme case of), else i would prolly be one of the first few to be diagnosed alr. hahs. let's stop the depressing talk.

hope i'll have happy weeks at work ahead.

leading extraordinary lives, in his own right

i like reading about people's lives. for all those unknown stories is so intruiging, it really let's you read into people's thoughts. i, for a long time, have been wishing that i could read minds anyway. so thr' reading, i'm perhaps inching towards my goal of understanding people more. i dno why, but i find un-understandable people v scary and almost everyone i know (and dont) are un-understadnable. alrite, so it means (by the A=B, B=C therefore A=C theory), everyone's scary? heh.

for the past week, i've been hearing about people's dreams, thoughts and goals. ( over buddyhoagies meals and piggin out) it'd certainly been very motivating and interesting! i admire the many i know of, with real solid dreams and goals. not one, but many many have this certain goal in mind that pushes them.

because for the longest time, i've been trying .

i feel happy for those going into dream courses (or are gg to know that they're gg into their first choices) ,even if not in prestigous unis, even if its a local uni but its one you truly wish for, its good enuff to be called a dream come true! some are my super NO NO NO! (read:physics & accts... erm) but certainly,if that's what they dream and wish for...its sufficient.

CECS just broke my heart this morning when she says she doesnt want to fan me ! :/ HEARTACHE ): what are frens if not to disturb and trouble? hhaah! hello there dear! meet up meet up!

BECKS! OKOKOKOKOK! i lead a very mundane life !

leading extraordinary lives. perhaps never a faraway dream.

its the weekend! another week . gogogo!

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boo! i think the weekends goes by much faster than weekdays seriously. happy happy three day break (:

tutu gathering at cereal's on fri. pretty pretty attic room with a sky view! how cool is that! but yay! we met up to send off the hair of some of the guys that's gg into army alr. after this week or so, tutu guys would all be botakish. hahs! and also got to see my tutugirls! yays! (:

saturday was IMM with diana! (; yay! the unagi rice bowl rocks. (and so goes for the yumm mochi) i'll drop by to BAKE soon!

and i ought to cycle to fong's soon. bike's ortting away again.

decisions decisions decisions. BAHH
amazing aint it?

happy happy fruitips to get myself happy! YAY

BATMAN!

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who needs superman when u can have batman? its my super cool lego keychain! (: BATMAN! hahahah!

i miss photographing all my randomish pics. i think when u take studying out of the girl, you take random photographing habits outa lucia. shall get my feet back on random shots! YAY

i'll keep trying, even if my cam is consumer :/

perhaps some things dont really matter to me anymore. but i guess there'll always be things that will continue to matter. there's rats in the office, which is v scary! imagine them running about where u were walking along just earlier in the day :/ i hate rats. arghh.

happyhappy yz meetup, i hope all goes thru despite the fact that everyone's in some corner of sg each. (:

sparky!

this week was OKAY! (:

chased away midweek blues with my piggish gang to the tune of swensens! (: YUMM. i realised i forgot to blog abt last fri's sushibuffet with my squadies and jnr squadies and jnr jnr squadies. anyhow! food = happy.

i think i should say im qt glad the uni applications are closing soon cos that leaves me with no chance of changing my mind :P WHEEEEEEE! its now just awaiting results of the applications! wahaha why do i sound so excited? i also dno, must be the late night.

a whole list of things to buy but a LOT more procrastination :x i wan my asics shoes (in green!) my puma shorts (in black!) my toystore watch in a funky range of colours! bahh!

i havent been with my cam for a long time... must be getting rusty! i'll pick it up tonight! (:

for one more dayy

i believe that a good read is always like one treasure,one that waits at the corner... quietly but surely waiting to inspire whoever picks it up. and good reads should be shared. because they are hard to find, so alone, there's only so many books we can plough through to find that few surprising good ones. tuan jie jiu shi li liang! haha.i just found another good read just two nights ago when i ddint wna sleep too early on a weekend night and i just looked through my sis shelves. and i found:

for one more day by mitchalbom

in that it reminds me to cherish all that ive taken for granted. my family.i need to cherish my mum more. i need to look at my own actions n behaviours more often. more importantly, i need to learn to love (:
we're always learning to be bettter persons, aint we? its a longg longg journey,but thats prolly the single only journey we'll ever take. we dont often have chances to go back into the past to redo things, but i guess, mistakes are just inevitable. just leave out the regrets (:

i'm almost 98% thru the book... but i cant bear to finish it (as with all other good books that i read) i ahte to put it down and the end :/

anyhow monday was a blue-ly day. tmr shall be better! :)

fong- yessss. i guess so! lets go cycle this weekend (if ure free!)
sherm! haha..i cant tagg ur blog, but if u see this, where's our weekly affair? its supposed to be once a week but i think i havent seen u for TWOweeks ):

keeping on

heh heh! there's really nthg much to update. i think the days pass by fast enuff but march seems so long :x its only mid month! after such a long struggle! BAHH

w ytd i went to amkhub with my sister and i saw DIANA! (: YAYS. wheeeeeeeeeeeee. its so happifying, meeting people that u really love by coincidence!

i think i've pretty much made a descision, altho it pretty much seems like the elimination we always use in school. i miss school! was looking thr' jc1 photos at work just now and i realllly miss the days! i feel like a total fool, i reread notes we were made to write on the last day of school, letters we exchange during those days, relook at vday presents. all for a touch back at memories. hehhs.

i read smth somewhere about changing beliefs, because life's all about being flexible. but then i totally agreed with this phrase i read in a book:

keep on, even if all seems in vain.

i think maybe it strikes a chord somewhere, so much so, i even saved the msg on my handphone, to remind myself whenever i lose faith. ok this post is disjointed becos i dont have much to update really, life's that boring. but ive accomplished all the things on my to do list, most at least. pack my worksheets - i threw away a bagful of paper and no one in the family is impressed at all. cos thats less than 1% of what ive still kept, played the guitar, thought about stuffs.

i think next week im gna meet my lovely recess piggish gang cos its always the three of us stalking out at the canteen pigging during breaks though one member might be spotted as often beside mr econs king) haha! !

the hugmeter is up a few notches, thanks to my dear BECKS! huggggs ! altho i haven seen u for a REALLY long time! bahh ):

happy week i hope. postsecret for now!

inspired

i thank you for inspiring me. i think im really lucky in a sense, i feel larger inspired these days...when i feel life is almost stagnant, or at least thats what work makes you (or so i think). maybe its jus me being lazy to get out of my comfort zone, to venture further elsewhere, i dno whr.

anyhow, FIRST is my current book for making me think before i go to bed every night and on bus journeys back. ok, it sounds really silly to thank a book, mayb i shld thank the author instead. or perhaps its just coincident that its the thing abt the right book, at the right time. at other times if i were to read it, it mightnt be so. i cant bear to finish it... cos i hate finding good reads. SECOND is postsecret! i dno if its the suspense or the feelings that get captured in the postcards, but every sunday (or monday this week) is postsecretday!
THIRD is a list of inspiring blogs i freq. no reason why, but for some blogs i really love the way they put their thinking across, the language is flawless! (: and for others, its really the content, the relevations of thoughts. FOURTH is my family. alw inspiring(altho most times its the realisation aft quarrels). hah!

so there, is lu's inspired life.

ive been trying not to think abt courses but REALLY, its been a week plus alr, i really ought to stop dragging my heels in this! JIAYOU! (: i've also been giving excuses like NO TIME and very tired...putting off packing stuffs, making decsisions, doing things i ought to do. so to STOP PROCRASTINATING. off i go! (:

my heart feels weird, the second i saw

i dno how many times i've blogged this, but after today's openhses, courses could only get more mind bogging. omg and i was in major whining mode. HAHA, that was until i found a clone in mt four yrs squadie 2 yrs classie hengheng over msn. i really think we're qt alike in certain ways.

the idea of being the one taken the unbeaten, untravelled sidetrack.the idea of being that much different as other people, and being able to prove that sidetracks can be successful too. its a risk, a challenge, and perhaps also my ideal. and its one track thats bounded too, by many other considerations. if life didnt have that much considerations, i think my track would already have been very side-tracked. but whether now it will go in the usual pavement or towards some other tracks, i havent given sufficient thought to it. not enough to decide poly/uni at least.

i will/must/shld make a decision soon. this, i promise myself .

aniw on to happier stuffs! courses gets super depressing there's nthg to look fwd to alr. yay cos its buddyhoagies with my buddyfongfong tmr!

BECCA! (: instinct told me it was you! my heart almost jumped when i saw the numbers spike can! hah! LOVE! (:

SHUIYING! (actually tried to psycho me into engineering) --> see i managed toput ur name down again!

the big three

whoever topped my huggs to three thousand. thankyou! LOVE!

mind bogging courses. pls help :(

i guess certain things, we will never really get over it. perhaps we may just slowly learn to accept it, gradually forgetting the reason we cried so hard that day, and just letting time take its toll on the event in your memory. but we'll nv get over it entirely. it still stays in ur heart even if we dont think it still exists, even if we think we've gotten over it. becos when the time comes for it to be dug out again, the feelings remain raw.

i'm reading 'like the flowing river' by paulo coelho currently and its a really easy but inspirational book. jus perhaps fitting for times with lost faith like this.

life lessons, how'd we learn

the rush, the adrenline, the excitement, the queasy stomachs. in a sense, im glad its all over. ina nother, i wished i could go thr' it again. i dont know if its lost or fatigues that i felt ytd, i think there's prob no excitement left. not when you dun have happy friends around rite?

but for all those lonely studying outside lib at the hot humid place i call 'my usual place', for all the struggle to get myself outta the hse to sch, for all the mumblings to self, all the sketches to self to motivate and to share worries, for all the happy tutu days i call love, for all the sleepy physics tutorials, for all the braindraining gp lessons,

i'm contented.

this shall be a feel-good post.
im equally grateful for the higher powers' decision to land me whr i am, amidst all the love and joy, even tho they often couple with some negativities. come to think of it, i talked to myself qt abit then, and i still enjoy doing so today. perhpas, its one thing thats really personal, and perhaps weird i suppose.

didnt want to leave sch ytd, becos of the tranquility after everything. perhaps its the rain, or the soothing breeze. but the atmosphere just makes me wna stay on, and take in all the sights, endlessly.

i keep reminding myself. i am contented. becos all too often its easy to get lost and deluded in my world where good grades might perhaps be norm for some. but becos i know my grades didnt come except aft much failing for two yrs, i know i must and i will be contented. its enough to make me happy, enough to say i didnt fail anyone badly enuff i hope(other than ms gp tutor :( ). yay. whatever it is, reminders to myself to be contented is perhaps the most impt thing i've taken away frm the half hour but lifelong event. really did.
some time ago, i started wondering at the apt of it all. why do i hav to be different? so many instances. let's jus stop at quoting them. if only i was more similar, perhaps then, decisions werent be looking as difficult to make as it is now.

perhaps we could only be more similar, but never same, if ever at all we could be similar. becos sometimes i secretly suspect proclaimed similar ambitions get suspiciously linked to mr majority or mrs friends. i dont know. if i did, decisions would have been much easier. but of cos, i nv doubted, there are some passion followers. i respect much.

and i miss sch. i really do. i promise i'll go back often, just for the feeling i love. (present tense, meaning i still do)

SHUIYING says she didnt get mentioned on my posts oftne enough, so here's one for you, my creditor of 5bucks. (: its the company, really.

its today,

its today,
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

PANG

to the taggs in the gbk,
YUKLUM! yes, when's yz outing! i miss the yz gang alot!
MINYI! pls msg me. i'm super worried! i cant get u on ur cellphone/msn! and meet up !
lewlew! LOVES
OSY! (:

i've been procrastinating typing this post becos i dont qt know if this is anxiety, fear, or plain worry that makes up what i feel now. and becos i know once i get to the topic i'm gg to WHINE abt it. ive whined to everyone i talk to abt it alr. haha :( arghh ms panicky , but when i first heard the news, i just felt this PANG . PANG of fear, like how you feel PANGs of hunger. OMG. OMG im gna faint! ): booooooo!

just let me rant

1) im worried abt ms pri sch friend, and 2) my mind's been in such frenzy i cant post right. PANG. PANIC;

i hope i need to msg! msg yc = get 4As! wish me luck (: no repeats of os.

i pray for you. pls pray for me, too.

thankfully

some days...i just get this i-miss-school-badly feeling

i wna go back to school! ):
and so i look at e photos we took, the letters we wrote. and doesnt help that tv have shows on school life! BAHH.

just let me be.

i'll be back at school in a few months (: thankfully noted.
tho perhaps this SCHOOL and my SCHOOL's pretty much gna be different.
i dont know where we'll go from here, really.

because

'cos we dont always have tmr

dunno why, but this phrase had been stuck in my mind since. its like enlightenment, realisation or plain discovery of sorts. it just struck me as i read it, without any warning that it would. i found it pretty meaningful, so tot i would share here. also to record it so i'll alw rmb.

thanks crys for the pretty card! and xh kez chuan for good company. newyorknewyork is not bad. but bigg servings.

CNY!

aha its new year's eve! (: yay.

practically spent the entire week wishing for cny cos it means BREAK BREAK BREAK BREAK BREAK! haha. i guess its a much needed reak away frm work cos work these days get so stressful with so many ppl on leave which equates to many times my normal (slack) workload.

springcleaning this yr was NORM, only exceptionally late! and my hands are peeling frm being too dry! :/ hehh. just had SUPER filling steamboat! and i cant wait to munch on Bak kwas and pineapple tarts!

spent my monday happy at thaiexpress with jo!
and osy is sick! ): pls take care!
and i received a really lovely vday surprise frm fong! my love! hahah!

that sums up my week. ohh! and i cant find my white puma tee with red logo ): it screams festive! but aww well. it'll be back to work on wednesday! i dread results cos i have yet to know why i wna go! ): pls think, pls think!

a world of believers

i think i ought to start using my brain before it degenerates before i even return to school. not that i think i have very much of it . haha. heh aniw yippes com is finally back! haha.

vday is coming! but this yr there's no more schoolmates/classmates ard to share the joy! no more rushing to get vday pressies for everyone. sigh. i think everyone needs a lil love sometimes and eveyrone else shld also give some love at times we can. as they always says, SPREAD DA LOVEE!

i think im a dreamer. i dream and truly believed somedays that eveyrone thinks like i do, that everyone holds on to the same beliefs that i have. that on buses we will always give up seats to old, elderly or young playful persons, or that we'll always sit on the window seat so others can sit down more easily. that when we open our letterboxes to an entire stack of junk flyers, and some flyers falls onto the floor, we will bring it to the dustbin 10steps away and not pretend we didnt see it. that when the cleaners clean the tables for us to comfortably have our meals in a cleaner environment, we will politely give a thankyou. that when we cross the roads, we'll always wait for the green man to come on. that when we bump accidentally the shoulders of passers-by we'll immediately apologise.

those are my beliefs, however insignificant they seem. i am afraid of losing these stubborn thoughts that i hold so deeply to. that one day in a world of non believers, i will slowly get eroded. taht i will gradually become the actions i loft.

anyhow i think the tutucians sponsership prog is gg great! :D kudos to mr chinny (or his new name keegan) ! yays! stayover at ms cereal's ytd tho i didnt go, i knwo it must have been great fun! yippes! i love my tutcians and i am sorry i alw pangseh.

happy birthday dajie!

morning exercise with CPs! our long awaited outing was as good as it lasted! yays. now, its springclean springclean springclean! another of my stubborn beliefs- new year = must springclean! ahha! JIAYOU le! last week before some good days of break for newyear! and i ahven gotten my clothes! ):

courses courses course. mind bogging.

night under the skies

haha! lucia's com is back! thanks to dajie for reviving it!

happyhappy week. first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEWLEW! i love u muchie (but dun tell zhenxiong pls) haha! and frm her bbq, heard of SOMEONE getting attached. hoho my darling (surname)(name) , finally! haha yes i sound qt incoherent cos now jaychou's ju hua tai is playing on tv's superstar ! :D met up under a world of beautiful night skies, spent with my lovely tutucians. i love the night wind (tho i'm scared of nights).

den there's sunday morning breakfast w ps exco! saw boss aft a long long long time! doing well, but JIAYOU at army. i know its pretty tough, but boss being boss, confirm no prob one aye! i miss the irritating leeqinfang who misses every outing i go to and attends those i didnt. :x hee

and FONG! can u plsplspls meet jeslin for running on weekends so i can join too? im becoming a pig sooner or ltr! haha, or u may think im alr one rite! hah!

that's it for the week! work again tmr! hope all goes well!

i missss everyone! esp my jo my squadies my (insert name). yay! i dunno why, but i've got this anticipating feeling for jaychou's concert. i cant wait for it, but i dun even noe when's it gna be! so lame right. but i think its telepathy btw me and my husband la eh? ;) (ok, dun faint)

absence

com at home's down which pretty much sums up every reason why i've not been blogging/online/chatting on msn etc. hahs.

 

happy belated bday CRYS and peijia! (:

 

hope everything's fine with everyone! haha. didnt exercise over the weekend ): cos i was down w fever. but i still manage to meet up with the fave lewlew and hengheng! for the nypopenhouse. heh. i just hoped to be able to make a good choice when results comes out. :) friday crystal jade-ed with squadies! in between there was newton food with the exco for jianqi's send off! our pres is off to army alr!

 

the week, otherwise, had been routined.

 

alrighty! i'm missing everyone. really! there's a list in my phone to remind me constantly, so no worries, even if i have bad memory i'll still rmb eevryone ! hoh!

 

fong! cycle to ur hse SOON again! cycling's so addictive!

cecs! lets meet up soon too! need to buy newyear clothes ey?

jia! whoooo! happy teaching tuition!

 

cya!

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cycling and the wind

WEEKLY UPDATE! (:

hoho. shucks this is becoming a habit! weekly updating! HAHA. anyhow this week has been rather busy at work. but which is why i feel i deserve this weekend! and the pretty evening skies that sends me home most days. and the awesome glow of the morning rising sun. (: whee! I'm so sad blogger can no longer BLOGTHIS. becos i really love to BLOGTHIS cos its so hassle free! dun have to logg into dashboard and everything! ): anyhow I'M GNA MEET DIANA ONE DAY TO BAKE!

random. but i have lousy typing today. have got no idea why! ): sigh. anyhow i came to realise that actually everyone have their own idiosyncrasies. just that some people have less, or expressed them lesser times than others. so even though i acknowledge that some things i do are weird, i dont think that i'm so! (: its prolly just our own preferances when doing certain things. JUSTIFICATIONS. hahs. so i'm not exactly weird! :)

lu loves to cycle! whoohoo! cycled to minyi's hse to return her stuff and she treated me to ONE pineapple tart and refused to give me the entire bottle. see? see how she treats me man! anyhow i felt damn proud of myself for cycling all the way there! yay! altho halfway my legs felt like gg to cramp or smth cos nv stretch. hah! more more more trips on bike in future!

whoooo! so exciting. i think i came to realise that i like sports /activities where the wind will constant blow against you. it makes me a happy girl. kayaking. cyling. flying kite! see? me and kite =love. and this week i met jojo over fishnco! (: much much happiness! scooping icecream sounds like a whole lot of fun, can?

and pls tell me the world i live in is FINE.

CECS* boo says:and when is my jaychou coming down for concert
pls read again if u find there's nth wrong. BECOS jaychou is MINE! :D whee. and on weekends i love terrorising people and my fave qns is "did u miss me?"

like cleopatra, joan of arc, or aphrodite. she's so high. says: haha
like cleopatra, joan of arc, or aphrodite. she's so high. says: yah lah miss lucia A LOT

and sarah's not the only one. haha. ok monday beckons! JIAYOU LU!

monologue

i'm tempted to use back the same POOF! title. simply becos the weekends come by and POOF!, there're gone :x abother week have come and gone! haha

hello CECS and OLI! oh man, i miss my busstoppers gang! busstop waiting= school! hahs, january's almost half gone by. eek! its scary how fast the week actually do go by! finally one weekend to myself! i was planning a cycling trip over to minyi's to return the clothes and ACTcute slippers but the rain's got to ruin it :x its really smth ive been wanting to do, (cycling on the streets, i mean) and rarely do i get all hyped to do it. but well, not this weekend then.

manymany ppl i know are now in camp, ie army. and XH! omg i think she's v zai! gogogogo girl! yippes! altho i didnt go to visit her, but plsplspls know i still love u! aha.

for all thr is, my week was a happy curseofthegoldenflower movie. with liying n peisee on thurs! hoho! and before that was MONDAY CLASS DINNER for all the guys thats gg into army, technically supposed to be at least. haha but dinner was a happy happy affair. i found it heartwarming/wrenching and all the more touching that everyone came down frm where they work (and it really is frm all corners of sg) to meet at j8 for this one gathering. for that, im proud, proud of everything that we've seeked to do. thanks to jasminebaguamate( and her team and phonecalls to bugg ppl) for organising! (: was great hearing everyone talk abt work (not that work is particularly happy) but amazing that politics appear everywhere, and just meet and do some catching up. i dunno if is just me, or that there's really something special abt this feeling that the dinner gave me. altho i wun be gg for class cruise, im sure it'll be as happifying an event-thanks to lew lew!

other than that, the week, its really monotonous. but i like it plain. no kaya or butter. (alth if nutella's an option i'll make an exception.) lame! alrites, enuff updates to make up for MIAing the entie week right? ;) cya

poof!

havent been blogging for a week! must be some proud achievement for me! (: over the week, there had been several events.

there was the new yr's eve outing with sixoh at wh's house! yay. and new yr's day escape with the tutucians! (: i met up with fongfongfongminyi today for a good run at the yishun park, joined by osy (and a good tour of her hse!)! minyi have a pretty pretty hse and a preetty view outa her room too! and chow is qt cute too i realise!

poof! feeling v tired now. must be the age. :/ i havent met up with the many ppl i promise/ want to meet! argh. and i keep pangsehing my ps i know. i think work takes the life outa you! ): heh! but no! nono complaining alr! too tired to anw!

aniw MINYI! thanks so much for having me at ur hse dear ! (: PRETTY!
i'll be back for new yr resolutions soon! (: