http://www.lcbtv.com/flash/movie/tonghua.swf

shall tok abt canoeing. how i miss canoeing. :) wenta support in the scf womens kayaking champs! wenyi and huiwen tok a k1 and t1 each! WOOHOO. so zai! here's us after the race !


i really admire them, admire them for their hardwork, their drive. i noe my teammates will win the gold one day, and til then, i'll be supporting them no matter what. i guess it really doesnt matter wheter we win or lose now, it aint the official ntls'. i guess hx wanted you to try, cos no one frm the team tried it yet, and u could do it. in time you could. i noe you guys can! i, for one, noe i couldnt. you guys were alr veh zai, we're only j1s! we only just started! so yes, im prouda you! jiayous!
and in time, the canoists will get more involved and they'll support u all lik i supported u! :) gogogo!

im proud of my teammates! sighh.thy're all tan and im not :(

alrights, must study at least a lil tmr! :D i promise!

I Dont Want To Miss A Thing-aerosmith.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing


Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever


I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing


I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time


Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing


I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing


Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing



amagardon rocks! (: no matter how many times i've watched it.

packing da memories

am packing my stufffssss. really a lot. al those small gifts we used to exchange in sn. (: during vday, during npfarewell.

there's mic's EGG! (: sighh but its brokeen somehow due to rough handling i suspect! but im still keeping it i dun care! in a bottle now! shld be safe frm breakage!
i love packing them tho its irritating.
there's 5testubes frm chem practs, two stringes that used to contain mini m&ms, ikea bottle frm my mentee, another one with a pig face frm crys, large cup with sunflower,ceramic snake thing,milkbottle with folded stars,chopsticks,3D metal heart structure,tons of candles, a blue spoon, one party whistle,purple board with gone fabric glue, bee thing, cow and pig bookmakrs, wire bookmarks, jaychouconcert pencil box! , ccc photoframe, mentor's photoframe, paper rose and cup, socks,felt angels wings...
ytd was happening. buday. went ard taking pics. (: den went jacksplace with ms sim :( sim sim. thadd did a rap, which is VERY COOL! i wan the lyrics! den went find cecs! sighh.still DIDNT noe wat exacting was troubling her, but nahh its ok! cos chatting is gdd enuff. den i went for aj harmo-guitar concert! not bad!!! the harmo's encore was tonghua which rocks and cause jas to think im in love with the conductor. THE WHITE'prince'.

thadd's rap. (:
'Miss Sim, you taught class 22
The class which was super fun and cool.
You showed much concern and care for us
Let us slack and joke around in class.
You let us play with your molecule toys
Had to endure our tremendous noise.
But I think you enjoyed your teaching here
Someday we'll 'yam-seng' with wine or beer

We had Mrs Kwah for chem prac yesterday
One look and we knew that she like to act 'sei'
She spoke to us with a very stern voice
So much that no one dare to make a single noise.
Now everyone don't dare to play,
Especially Chin Guan and Phua Zheng Hui.
It's obvious that we don't want Mrs Kwah.
The person we want is Mrs...CHUA

packing brings back all the images that i had when having that particular object, all the scenes, and the things. (:while i pack, i keep them away too. food for thought ehh?

PSseminar anyone?

ahah. jus rmbed saturday got PSseminar. want come? thinks its 830. nobody will read anyways, jus wanna put it up. hahas!

heyy! tmr's the last day of SCHOOL term2. ahas. and tmr will be fun! we'll b playing games! YAY! love to play games! (: think we'll b playing caps ball with sim. and they're screening phantom! i wanna watch! PHANTOM. PHANTOM

SPAtdy was ok, (: thank god.

was thinking of qt a lot by staying queit in school. but shant write it down. its jus me and my odd belief and (dis)likings

HOLIDAYSHOLIDYAS! but its gtta spent mugging! :( was really sad, tdy siva'a last lesson w us, no more nice tcher to joke with during gp, no more nice tcher to give me higher marks den i deserve for eassy, and no more nice siva to call "lucia.... (and gives the weird look) " or "yeslucia?" hahas. (: gonna miss siva! siva rocks rocks rocks. so does simsim! ms sim! (: sighh.the new kuah or keuh doesnt lokk nice. :S but i shall try. try really hard.

oh, and 22's exconvict (even siva says that) iis HOUSE CAPT. woah.mdm woon and siva got BIGG SHOCK ehh. woahhh! (: ok, our hse dunneed win alr. haha joking! (: we'll be damn enthu abt hse stuffs next time! haha!

wahh i haven been inspired for long! ANYOME HAVE SISTERHOOD2 pls lend to poor lack of inspiration and thinking me the book? PLESASE! i need some inspiration. like sisterhood and 5ppl did to me! (:really need some insights into my life. guitar concert tmr! they're playing qingtian! im seriously paying 5bucks for qingtian only! haha!no la, peijia playing! (;yay! oh wells, shall stop crapping! relieved stress and put myself into holiday mood alr! (: YAY!

xiaoli was in yishun tdy. :( but i end school late :( :( xiaoli!!!!!!!

keep me safe within you

Sighhh! Why do people leave? Why is there even this term- separation in the world? I mean… cant things stand STATUS QUO? Nope. It cant. It must change, it must be different ever so oft.

Asked
What I wanted in life
Asked
What I hoped to be
Asked
What was my purpose
Yet I have none,
And none beckon.
Is it to have tons of friends
Or just few one
That stays no matter what/
Is it fame and glory at one instance
Or a sense left in friends
That they’ll always remember.


bahh! ms sim is leaving. in fact tdy's her last day! :( we had a celebration again, farewell actually. nt celebration. nothings to be happy abt tho. chem spa tmr! really wna do her PROUD! so i shall go mugg now! i wan get full makrs! luciawants to be a top student! luciawants to score all As and Bs !

dunno wat im tokign abt.

was thinking of how much we shld(not) live in the past.

how we should treat others.

how we get trapped in our own shadows so easily.

sighh.was reading someone's blog jus... and his life seem all so...well... in misery. i truly dont know what is bothering him, but its just uncomfy knowing someone i do noe, in distress yet i could only stand by and look. and look.and look. is that all i can do? sadly yes. i have been determined to start a somewhat new start, fresh, away from those memories. in the process, perhaps, i have put away the sadness. yet i nv felt as miserable as i think he's feeling now. no idea why. sighh. how easily we fall trap to ourselves, enclosed in our thoughts for too long... its hard to get out of it. i had a change in enviroment, so it was bad, but wasnt THAT so.

the new gp teacher came. shes ok, im in no position to comment. but i jus felt that we all, or mayb its jus me, fall into the hole...that sinful hole of preassumption. we, or at least i did... well, i didnt like her that much. and no, it was by no fault of her own. its jus i really wanna siva to stay, thats y i dun like the new girl .thats rreally bad ehh? yesyes. it is. certainly. but i cant help it, its jus this instanteous feeling of ASSUMING thats shes no good. sighh.i just wished i didnt. becos its mean...its mean to not let people have a chance to show them themselves and jus LABEL them with smth. smth bad. like how we dun give ppl chances, and we jus based everyth on first impressions? like how superificial iit is man. i see myself repeating that mistake everytime, every. i nv learn do i? i jus dun give ppl chances. but i wan to ...butits so hard. shldnt we treat her anew, not as a second inferiority perosn to siva but as someone DIFFERNT. both of them are different anw, they aint the same, it aint fair to compare. it aint.

and i hope i do noeit aint fair. jus that it nv goes into my dumbo head. and i end up making so many mistakes. so many. sighh. humans aint perfect i hope. else, i dunno wat am i.

am i just deluding myself, staying around here? should i jus move on? ehh?

do we delude ourselves? we do.
but...
do we do what we truly love? nahh.
do we say from our hearts? nahh.

ytd was packed for me... had BIGG walk in the morning. woke up so early, 545am. den was stil late when meeting peijia. bigg walk was fun! altho its reallly lonng. 10km! woah! only the girls did! :) whoo! there's yuexin, me, jas,emily and peijia! (: wheee. the guys, dun tok abt it alr, pangseh us halfwayy. den went to macs to eat, and got lost at kallang! haha. we didnt noe how to walk to the mrt cos that area was under construction. haahs! call sis for help, den went suntec walk a bit dn went home.
den... went out again. v lame rite? hahas went MARINA FLY KITE! yay! sixoh damn nice! they were waiitng for me tho i was like one and half hours late... got other ppl oso la..ahahas. (: whheeee! veyr fun, playing arcade, osctro pig and flying kite. we took like less than 5mins and the kite was so tiny alr! (: yay!!! steamboat oso rcks! all thee girls shared one table..the soup is so sweet!!! and nice ofcos. and yesyes. the icecream, those potong type, like prisch those days eat one. redbean! wohoo. had LOTSAAA fun! esp with the girls!!! saying the 'really MEH' and 'really LAR' and all.missed them all so much. sometimes i jus wished time could have stopped then. that time when we all had nothing on our minds. stupid bc refused to invulge any insider info into any issue. sighh. i guess, mayb i jus shldnt wan to noe... cos u noe... its kinda not v related to me alr. hahs! wayy home tokked to yz while hl was sleeping. (: wahh yuzhong muscle 14inch man!

alrites, mus do some work alr!!! :( sighhh work's piling up from one day of playy. ohh did i mentioned i met up with xh kez and crys on saturday for high tea. (:

last wekk! chem spa lehh. woah! LONG ENTRY! woohhhhhhhhhhh. holidays here i commmme.

ok, lame.

i miss the days of cheering and feeling truly a lot a lot for something. just this sudden feeling of wanting to CHEER for someone, something, some cause.

but there's nothing. nothing to cheer for.

sighh! hah! haven updated for some days. have been rather busy.. and was thinking abt this issue mrs siva raised. anyway she's leaving this term! :( sighghhh will miss fun lessons. anyway, yes, its on writer's intent. so i was thinking lik she had said, blogging is a controverisal issue. like u noe, if u wan a diary, and dun wan others to noe, then u shld keep a normaly written diary. hence, many blogs actually have something deeper intented behind. like the recent a*star and racist blogs being raised. i guess, the authors do actualy wanna hint something? i dunno. hhaha. so wats my intention in blogging? hahs! i dunno. bahh

anw the pass week have been rather busy... rushing pi, gpp, tests, etc. the list can hardly end. goshhh and for the past few days have been coming home rather late, so i cld only come online for like 10, 20 mins den haveta sleep, so is too sleepy or have to rush hmwrk. my flu is okay alr! YAY!

met up with osy and steffi on wed! :D hoho steffiiiiii have a fidoooo.(: had lotsa fun eating and pigging and baguaing and watching awang. aahah. (: mus have more eating sessions. didnt get to eat stingray so i was qt sad, but carrot cake, hokkien mee and otah and sugarcane drink makes upfor it! :D heehee

sighhh mus really buck up on homework this lonng break. ok, nt veyr long but still 3days is preciuos for work seems never ending.

yes xiaoli! hooo!!!!!!! (: u're actualy herE? ahhaha! hows lifee? ur gpp ok alr nt? haha!!!! i missed you u noe!

sighhh~ will update often i promise. hahas. meeting xh & gang tmr! (: whee! meet me!meet me! lol . if u hadnt realise, thast MY authors' intent.

believing is.

jas kept saying my blog's inspirational. nahh. thank you, but its nthg near inspirational cos im here to crap! (: bahh. anyway, the flu jus wun go away. and my class is highly in danger of gettng it too, cos there's me jolene and emily who all got FLU :( sighhh quite siann now cos i'm listening to peihans' fobidden love instru. :) nice! sighh shll STOP writing crappy stuff even with inspiration cos i got work to do u stupid lu! but i still am tempted to :

believing is. beliefs arise, beliefs sunken
we lost beliefwe dont believe.
tempted to let go
yet holding on
to what little's left -
wats the point,
when we no longer
believe.
had we held on to what we thought were beliefs?
or did we plainly
paid lip service to it?
did we believe in our beliefs?
cos otherwise, thats never
any belief.
everyone believes in something,
but whose is to say
that something is worth
believing?
people often say,
believe in your beliefs
but is believing
deluding yourself -and popular
or going against norms -and out
a belief?
is believing
pretending to be
or is believing
what is to be?

when is believing true belief?
and when do you truly believe?
when can we stop believing,
and start living in our beliefs?
when can we so,
believe and do
what we truly believe?

for human's complexity
its hard to do
what you believe
and to believe in what you do.
forsake all the riches in the world
i shall,
only to believe in the believable,
to hold on tight to what i
believe only.
and believe by it.

for believe is only an e
away from be LIVE(ing) (:

hafta admit time's passing faster than i realise. just like for a while time have passed, yet its alr less than half a weekend gone. thank god there isnt much erm..hmwk and tutorials. just that the pace's too fast for my liking.
jus that this term is ending real soon and i haven yet accomplished anything much. sigh.

having flu dunno y. sighh.but played badminton w my sis in the morning at the cc! yay! fun! (:

sighh. feeling sleepy cos of the flu. irritaing nose

a nice but sad war story

war. yes it sums it all up. yes. the stajeworks play-mother courage and her children... sums up in one word- thats' war.. its been an eye opener. didnt expect the play to turn out rather different from wat in my subconcious have been. its really small, which means the setting's fab! u're lik near the actors and can actually see their expressions and all.i say the venue's a challenge.

let's see. nt sure if my interpretation's correct (cos it is wrong half the time). well, but i do take home lotsa thoughts... like how war actaully beneifts no one, and those who even used to be for the cause of war actually, and eventually, lose smth in the process. it may be a life, a loved one, or one's logic... like how one may seem to be in this case, courageous, but actually isnt. just like how appearances lie. like how one may be happy and all, but behind that smile, he may not be so.

oh! and i saw weixi ma'am at the same busstop at the yishun intercahgne as me! :) whhee! we toked. and she's nice. yay! kinda missed her tho was qt fearful of her during np days. sighh.

(:

keep me safe within you

Your #1 Match: INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

rather tired for not much reason. jus did a few qns for mathhs. :( trigo i hate u! hmms. and jiayous to the debating ppl! jiayous jiayous.

work's piling up... hhehh. gtta finish them all! soon. pi, phy dyn, maths trigo, pbl, gp newspaper analysis. bleagh.

tired. wana sleep early! take me destressing one day quick. b4 i get too stressd! all my pimples coming out. hmmmmmmm. shall jog soon . or play ball or smthh.

napfa.over at last

was freaking outduring physics (or was it maths? ) aww.i suck at rmbing timetables. watever it is i was jus bascially freaking out the period b4 pe cos its napfa 5items! and phew. its over. and the best thing is... i jumped 170cm for the first time in my life tt i can rmb! yay. but the 2other tests after that is bleagh. cos.. gt study no study oso die :( but i got study im guai kia! hais.enuff ranting over studies.

hmms. i was t happy tdy cos there were lotsa smses frm ppl i didnt much expect. yvo. chuan. kez. yuzh. just enuff ppl to make me happy and smilin at the phone. cos no one msges nowadyas abt nthg. sigh.

liking the word sigh to hais. sigh sigh . nt a v good sign. bahh

superman-i like the song! gtta study soon!

I can`t stand to fly
I`m not that naive
I`m just out to find
The better part of me

I`m more than a bird...I`m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It`s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I`ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don`t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won`t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It`s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It`s all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
I`m not crazy...or anything...

I can`t stand to fly
I`m not that naive
Men weren`t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I`m only a man no silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man, no phony red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
inside of me
inside me
Yeah, inside me
inside of me

I`m only a man
no phony red sheet
I`m only a man
looking for heart`s dream

I`m only a man
no phony red sheet
its not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

hc guitar concert was ok! (: they played qilixiang. realised i hav abandoned my jaychou albums for too long i ought to hear them soon. update tmr. qt tired. happy mummys day mummy! (: hahha
this some crap poem :/

The wind blew past
The grasses moved
Yet nothing seems to shift
The front put up

One quiet lake
Many silent nights
Deafening muteness surrounds
Hear no one

Speak a thousand words
None went into mind
Silence equates
Hear not listen

had we been good friends?

friends (:
friends come, friends go.
sometimes i wonder,
how many hearts had we
left imprints on?
we enter their lifes
just like they had entered ours.
and when we left,
whats that remained?
is it that of nothing
or is it something of love?
had we done our friends right
or otherwise wrong?
were we the bestest friend that could be
or did we just treat it as -nothing?
did we try to give our best
or did we scorn and not love?
had we treated them real
or perhaps hidden ourselves within?
every tale tells a different story
but does every entrance have an exit?

its gettin` cold in here

burr! its been getting cold these dayys. esp during lessons in homeroom! burr. one of these days we'll jus be aircon resistant. shucks.

and rained tdy! wanted it to b bright and shiny cos my class girls was planning a bball game.shucks. it rained lik right through practs and all. :( we played in the rain and gt chased away by the tcher..ok she was being nice la! :)there's always another time.

i guess. im living okay in aj now alr. maybe its getting resigned, maybe its jus getting used to it. ok its nt as fun, its not the same nice ppl but at least there's that tiny tinge of life and fun to keep my going. bottomline is, im grateful that my class aint anything lik all mugg and no play. at least theres funny ppl who wld say funny stuffs to make my day.and there's siva the nice gp tcher whose lessons we can look forward to.and im glad twentytwo is moderately fun. :)

im kinda in a hmms.reflective mood after reading char's reflections abt sisterhood2. make me wanna get the book. bet my sis wun get the book cos she didnt even lik the first book. hmms :( no money! bleahh. anyway there's this thing that i lik and wann kope frm her.


tibby went to college to do a film. she met friends-- cool friends to hang out with. but they weren't the people she really liked. she just hung around them 'cause they were cool. until brian the tech 'dork' and her mum and the ostracised girl vanessa who lived down the hallway made her realise the importance of being true to yourself.

ta above was all frm char! (:
i guess, when i read this part, i kinda felt. i kind of feel for it. something lik the people you ahng out with arent really who u really wanna hang out with sometimes, but for company, you jus do? like sometimes i jus felt lik gg around alone but its weird? liek sometimes u can walk around school yet u feel u aint living a life. u arent doing things that u wnna and that not being yourself. shldnt life b jus doing things ur own wayy? sadly, nahh. but i guess, the least is to be true to yourself. to hold on to your beliefs and live your dreams. maybe one day i could, mayb i couldnt.

have been busy nowadays! arghh! esp the past two days. ytd wenta back hc, den ended up home qt late and tired and all , with tons of unfinished hmwrk and all so i couldnt blogg abt things i wanted to, do my regular visits to bloggs. yepp. but i lived thru it! its friday tmr and noe wat? i always love to thank god for weeekends! meeting osy! i wun pangseh her this time i promise. i have gone through enuff to noe who are your true friends who will be there for you no matter wat. i have known enuff to be grateful for friends and to cherish each and every friendship i have formed.

to lao ma, lao pan,gong. i really wished hc had done it. i wished i was there for you guys. and i hope u gusy had nt to face this shattered dreams. im sure u guys did ur best, and im sure therell be a bette rnext time! smile for u noe u have done well. smile for you noe im always behind u. the next time there is, u noe, ill still be rooting for u guys.

to the nicenice ppl hugging the tagg huggs meter. thanks! make my dayy! but if u're busy and all jus dun hugg the thing! its ok! (: but really!! thank so muchhh! *bigg hugg to eveyrone*

bahhh!

am torn between three meeting ups tmr. why am i so frree for all the weekeends and so busy for one public holiday? i have hccanoe girls jts! toapayoh sakura. i have sixoh iceskating at je! i have :( pw gpp discussion at amk and marina twentytwo classouting. goshh. pw's a must go til 2pm... so nt going for the canoe jts. damn sad! ...i miss canoeing so much! wana try out macritchie, but doubt i'll ever get the chance. :( sixoh sixoh. i wan sixoh. haiss. but even fishh is going for her class outing, shld i? bahhh! missing the canoe girls getting nice tanned and all! (: missing sixoh long nv have weekly classoutings. bahhhhhh.