the three stands for promos. three days to promos. stands for dome, exile, fluke? haha,bad try at some D< E< F thing. anyway, during GP we watched this arts film called Osama, abt a girl named osama. was really quite torturous having to watch women being undemined and OVERLYcontrolled. sounds a really bad case of inequality over at afganistan where there's the taliban. anyway its defunct now i think. i wished its non existant alr. women were like waht? rubbish there la. haha. quite a nice film and a good way away frm preps for promos. tho at some point i was falling asleep... thats cos im tired! haha
yeayea. studying these days in school was considerably effective i supposed. i jus lik to isolate myself and study, but with ppl i noe near. haah!
alrites, lucks to me for promos. jiayous lu. u can do it!
JAYOUS (jay wei ni jiayou)
i am unprepared, given the three days left, but i think at this point in time alr, i'll jus give it my best i suppose. (:
Sep 30, 2005
Sep 28, 2005
Sep 27, 2005
): not what i seem to be
sometimes i wonder, do i have gd frens? perhaps, no. cos i nv do reveal things botheriing me to others, perhaps other than osy. thats an excpetin. i nv do really let ppl into my life.. nv. perhaps jus school life yea. who do anyway? few i'ld guess. its jus this dislik for having other ppl whom u dun noe what they are feeling into ur own thoughts, thats dangerous? whatever i am not seen to be is masked. perhaps behind some masking tape? taped away in lala land, with my invisble friend.
iaintwhatilooklikeiam. perhaps, less so do i noe who i really am. is this identity crisis for what.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FONGMINYI! (: WHEE! really glad u still joke with me here and then (:
iaintwhatilooklikeiam. perhaps, less so do i noe who i really am. is this identity crisis for what.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FONGMINYI! (: WHEE! really glad u still joke with me here and then (:
Sep 26, 2005
Sep 23, 2005
slow rock songs
i didnt wna blog. but reading something tempted me. oh wells, it'll be short, it will. here goes, the thing i read is smthg abt eveyrone makin vows, promising to change for the better yet we often do forget them almost as soon as these vows are made. perhaps its the nicenice mayday songs that brings out the mood. hm
i guess this touched somewhere inside, on days when i go pesimisstic and thinking, that i want to be someone who is better, one who is kinder, more caring, more concerned, more oblivious to bad things. but i never did go any nearer towards being any of the things i mentioned. i remain one unkind girl, bothered too much by realities of life, irritated that people arent what i wnated them to be. they perhaps will never.
we are often too much of impluse, too little of thinking. too much of rashness and too little of care. too much of bad, too little of good. that we go around hurting people with words, with actions, with atttitudes, with behaviour, with mannerism, with anything we can get ourselves to do. even with our inner most thoughts we can often hurt, not physically other, but inside us.
i love slow oldish sounding songs.
sometimes i jus lik to think back, of how more fulfiling a life i would have led if i was that bit kinder. but then again, it mightnt be me, if i werent the me i was. i tried to keep quiet, to observe more, to see more. and i think when u dun tok as much, u do see more of people. i see that people tend to turn to whoever theyre most comfy with to chat, they are often smiling? they... i dunno, im a really bad observer actually. haha
to the nicenice songs playing on maydays' Disc SEA cd, i love it (:
anyway, i donr ranting. i think i am done. (: at least now i dun have so much things on mind now. off i go to study, i needa pass. ): i do. ! gambate
i guess this touched somewhere inside, on days when i go pesimisstic and thinking, that i want to be someone who is better, one who is kinder, more caring, more concerned, more oblivious to bad things. but i never did go any nearer towards being any of the things i mentioned. i remain one unkind girl, bothered too much by realities of life, irritated that people arent what i wnated them to be. they perhaps will never.
we are often too much of impluse, too little of thinking. too much of rashness and too little of care. too much of bad, too little of good. that we go around hurting people with words, with actions, with atttitudes, with behaviour, with mannerism, with anything we can get ourselves to do. even with our inner most thoughts we can often hurt, not physically other, but inside us.
i love slow oldish sounding songs.
sometimes i jus lik to think back, of how more fulfiling a life i would have led if i was that bit kinder. but then again, it mightnt be me, if i werent the me i was. i tried to keep quiet, to observe more, to see more. and i think when u dun tok as much, u do see more of people. i see that people tend to turn to whoever theyre most comfy with to chat, they are often smiling? they... i dunno, im a really bad observer actually. haha
to the nicenice songs playing on maydays' Disc SEA cd, i love it (:
anyway, i donr ranting. i think i am done. (: at least now i dun have so much things on mind now. off i go to study, i needa pass. ): i do. ! gambate
Sep 22, 2005
i love days when im happy and contented
yepps, i love days when i feel contented and happy about my very presense.
this doesnt make sense so dunbother
'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same',
got this quite from somewhere. its rather rhectorical i think. im breaking my selfdiscipline to not blog to write smth abt it! haha. i really think it does apply to very varied yet multiple situations. im glad today cos 1) i met my pri4 (i think) friend and he recognised me and i recognised him! 2) i have received sweet msges from friends i tot have forgotten my existence these few days! (: promos are coming and i reallyneed some motivation! in a weeks time! anyway, the fact is, 'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same' this quote. it sorts of puts down in words for me what i had felt sometime bck, that saw reduction to nil regoings. i hate changes for one, i think i have said it enuff, but i guess when things dun feel quite the same, i feel sad. prolly someone will tell me, we still miss u we still do. yes they do, but things are quite different. i can nv be in the know of all that they do everyday. its small things in school life prolly that makes one feels attached to ur frens aint it? missing out on the small things isnt quite the same as being filled in on things. anyway i jus needa crap, so yea! (:
i cant get into jcnet ):
i jus wna feel like earlier. happy and contented that u do get rmbed. long lost classies prolly will still recognise you. prolly. and you hope for prolly to become WILL. MUST. anything absolute, haha. meeting ex classies oflate makes me happy. somehow, its another kind of joy altogether, like one that comes DEEP DEEP DEEP from within. hahs. perhaps its smth thats been buried with time and finding it again brings about a great deal of joy and happiness i cant describe. i realise a lot ofthings, i have already chosen to forget,like today emily jus reminded me of sec1 stupid things i did in np. haha like standing in the corridor and greeting ma'ams. totally disgusting if u think back now, but we did those. prolly i was too paiseh then to rmb. but its jus dug out? dug out and you feel happy that actually u do still have such memories. u jus hafta search hard enuff. and i actually rmb a name i haven rmbed or thought of for at least 6 yrs! chunxi. the name jus came to mind when i saw him like woah lucia have super powerful memory! (: all n all. im happy im grateful. im missing ppl.
this doesnt make sense so dunbother
'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same',
got this quite from somewhere. its rather rhectorical i think. im breaking my selfdiscipline to not blog to write smth abt it! haha. i really think it does apply to very varied yet multiple situations. im glad today cos 1) i met my pri4 (i think) friend and he recognised me and i recognised him! 2) i have received sweet msges from friends i tot have forgotten my existence these few days! (: promos are coming and i reallyneed some motivation! in a weeks time! anyway, the fact is, 'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same' this quote. it sorts of puts down in words for me what i had felt sometime bck, that saw reduction to nil regoings. i hate changes for one, i think i have said it enuff, but i guess when things dun feel quite the same, i feel sad. prolly someone will tell me, we still miss u we still do. yes they do, but things are quite different. i can nv be in the know of all that they do everyday. its small things in school life prolly that makes one feels attached to ur frens aint it? missing out on the small things isnt quite the same as being filled in on things. anyway i jus needa crap, so yea! (:
i cant get into jcnet ):
i jus wna feel like earlier. happy and contented that u do get rmbed. long lost classies prolly will still recognise you. prolly. and you hope for prolly to become WILL. MUST. anything absolute, haha. meeting ex classies oflate makes me happy. somehow, its another kind of joy altogether, like one that comes DEEP DEEP DEEP from within. hahs. perhaps its smth thats been buried with time and finding it again brings about a great deal of joy and happiness i cant describe. i realise a lot ofthings, i have already chosen to forget,like today emily jus reminded me of sec1 stupid things i did in np. haha like standing in the corridor and greeting ma'ams. totally disgusting if u think back now, but we did those. prolly i was too paiseh then to rmb. but its jus dug out? dug out and you feel happy that actually u do still have such memories. u jus hafta search hard enuff. and i actually rmb a name i haven rmbed or thought of for at least 6 yrs! chunxi. the name jus came to mind when i saw him like woah lucia have super powerful memory! (: all n all. im happy im grateful. im missing ppl.
Sep 20, 2005
whee hn's damn nice! he came all the way to aj to pass me stuffs! yay haining rocks man. really paiseh cos i brought him ard amk central trying to find 74. and i took the wrong bus home. was waiting for 853 and i tot a 169 bus was 853 and took it. thank god it does go yishun, but a much longer way. ok, end of an exciting busride. felt my face warming up when i got enuff courage to ask if the bus goes yishun. im sucha idiot travellers guide. lives in yishun my entire life yet i stll dunno the bus. studied in amk yet i dunno amk! ahah! oh wells, lazybums. get working!
Sep 16, 2005
countdown to promos. sucks.
ugh! whoo ive managed not to get online ever so oft and ever so lenghtly! yay. promos coming and somehow it makes me feel that some people aint wat i see in them anymore. jus no more. maybe its that new impressions dun last. but jus a tad disappointed that people perhaps are more selfcentered, prolly more unlikeable than i think. humans are a buncha problematic ppll arent they? i jus dun bother as much as time goes on. apathetic ehh? yes, very. apathetic means accordingly to dictionary.com having or showing little or no feeling or emotion . very true. if people were more concerned instead of having the word 'promos' hanging by for every excuse, perhaps i would have been more glad, today. and everyday. perhaps hte word promos and muggin have also been my fave word number 10 perhaps? but thats cos i hven studied, i have so many things to complete, i have a caring heart (yesido! i still go yangzheng) , i still go out to celebrate bdays (or try to buy smth at least) , i still have hearty AND HEAVY meals during breaks instead of cramming in i-dont-know-what stuffs can be possible, and most importantly, i still bother. of cos this doesnt go out to anyone, none at all, i jus need to put it down. disclaimer if not later get sued! haha. if they were more concerned, or a lil bit more bothered, perhaps there would be no need for me to feel apathetic. i would like to have felt for things, i do. not remaining as some blasé, indifferent, unconcerned teenager , angsty and all. i dun wan to. but situations have it that i do. all boils down to smth, stnicks still rocks the most, sn girls in particular. perhpas not me, but all sn girls dun leave me feeling apatheitc and all. they dont. but other ppl may do.
happy birthday chinguan. (: our jiemei
minyi's been real nice the other day. she jus suddenly called me and i tot what it was for. turns out she jus wanted to talk to me cos she very long nv talk to me alr! whoo,boy, was i touched. how sweet was that! we used to talk (altho like twice a yr perhaps? ) in lower sec, and she moved here and there and ...lost touch. very much of pri sch have been forgotten, perhaps cos of smht bad towards the end. tho things turn out fine eventually, pri sch seems a huge dist away. really glad she;s still in aj! tht makes us school mates! really missed her laughter and being susceptible to bullying. i still bully her, but shes jus take it in her stride! tahts y we remain relatively talkable after so many yrs. looking back, ive known her for like 7 yrs running! WOAH, i do treasure it!and she'd slimmed down so much! (: whaha! yepp, all in all, that really made my sunday. the sunday she called. whee
happy birthday chinguan. (: our jiemei
minyi's been real nice the other day. she jus suddenly called me and i tot what it was for. turns out she jus wanted to talk to me cos she very long nv talk to me alr! whoo,boy, was i touched. how sweet was that! we used to talk (altho like twice a yr perhaps? ) in lower sec, and she moved here and there and ...lost touch. very much of pri sch have been forgotten, perhaps cos of smht bad towards the end. tho things turn out fine eventually, pri sch seems a huge dist away. really glad she;s still in aj! tht makes us school mates! really missed her laughter and being susceptible to bullying. i still bully her, but shes jus take it in her stride! tahts y we remain relatively talkable after so many yrs. looking back, ive known her for like 7 yrs running! WOAH, i do treasure it!and she'd slimmed down so much! (: whaha! yepp, all in all, that really made my sunday. the sunday she called. whee
Sep 12, 2005
happy birthday yuexin! (: ok, belated! haha. but hapypbirthdya all the same.
hmm, sept's have a sudden surge of ppl having bdays somehow. haha. when i was younger i used to hope my bday wwould be everyday, not cos of the presents( but of cos played a part) , but cos that would mean i will be very happy everyday. but yet, as i gro older and i see reality, i see that people need not be very happy abt their bithdays. why. not cos they dun wna grow older (tho a substantialble reason) , but prolly cos they dun feel happy at all no point feeling happy oONLY on your bday? dunno! haha. i think so only la. ofcos ppl may be sad on their bdays for other reasons, but bdays get less happy as we grow older dun they? i dunno. sigh, this yr my bdays with the thai kids, jus hope theyre nice kids! :)
haha, talking abt kids, last saturday went yangzheng, my ears almost got blasted by primary 4 children. man, they were MUCH louder than i am! gosh ogsh, to think i tot my voice was damn loud alr? haha.they were even louder. every muntain have a even higher mountain ehh! hah, thats bad. anyway, was damn bad. my ears were liek so comfy but weird after they left!aahah
anyway just wanted to come here to crap a lil and all before i start rushing out all those homework. hah. i dunno, i noe i shldnt slack when we're at three weeks to promos, yet i am very tempted to slack. i am very tired of doing homework when i can watch nicenice ice hockey show with shuai ges. but yet i must. and i noe i ought not be so stupid since im supposed to have studied alr. sigh. first de eqn sucks. and pw, sigh.wr :/ . ohh but smth happy happened today! at ps we made contact prints for openhse and we actually used 300secs for one. but after innovative hinho tot of using the flash, we took like 1sec? and i like the darker tone! WHEE. ok. yea, thats all. pretty much nhtg to think and crap abt nowadays, cos lifes been a rush and things zoom past, and theres simply no time to get a rest. oh jo got a relaly COOL nano ipod! COOL COOL! haha, ok,just lik jo,its cool! :) its so small and sleek! WHOO. and i brought yakult todya! haven drank it for ages! its yummy! and sigh, thats all actually. haha. i jus wanted to slack for a while! alrites! no unnecesary online trips now! :) jiayous ba . ive crapped enuff in 15mins alr! :) oh smth else
i was thinking how come we always think we undertsnad ppl, we know them, but we actualyl do not. WE think WE do, but we dont. we never really understand ppl totally do we? ehh? hmm food for thought.
hmm, sept's have a sudden surge of ppl having bdays somehow. haha. when i was younger i used to hope my bday wwould be everyday, not cos of the presents( but of cos played a part) , but cos that would mean i will be very happy everyday. but yet, as i gro older and i see reality, i see that people need not be very happy abt their bithdays. why. not cos they dun wna grow older (tho a substantialble reason) , but prolly cos they dun feel happy at all no point feeling happy oONLY on your bday? dunno! haha. i think so only la. ofcos ppl may be sad on their bdays for other reasons, but bdays get less happy as we grow older dun they? i dunno. sigh, this yr my bdays with the thai kids, jus hope theyre nice kids! :)
haha, talking abt kids, last saturday went yangzheng, my ears almost got blasted by primary 4 children. man, they were MUCH louder than i am! gosh ogsh, to think i tot my voice was damn loud alr? haha.they were even louder. every muntain have a even higher mountain ehh! hah, thats bad. anyway, was damn bad. my ears were liek so comfy but weird after they left!aahah
anyway just wanted to come here to crap a lil and all before i start rushing out all those homework. hah. i dunno, i noe i shldnt slack when we're at three weeks to promos, yet i am very tempted to slack. i am very tired of doing homework when i can watch nicenice ice hockey show with shuai ges. but yet i must. and i noe i ought not be so stupid since im supposed to have studied alr. sigh. first de eqn sucks. and pw, sigh.wr :/ . ohh but smth happy happened today! at ps we made contact prints for openhse and we actually used 300secs for one. but after innovative hinho tot of using the flash, we took like 1sec? and i like the darker tone! WHEE. ok. yea, thats all. pretty much nhtg to think and crap abt nowadays, cos lifes been a rush and things zoom past, and theres simply no time to get a rest. oh jo got a relaly COOL nano ipod! COOL COOL! haha, ok,just lik jo,its cool! :) its so small and sleek! WHOO. and i brought yakult todya! haven drank it for ages! its yummy! and sigh, thats all actually. haha. i jus wanted to slack for a while! alrites! no unnecesary online trips now! :) jiayous ba . ive crapped enuff in 15mins alr! :) oh smth else
i was thinking how come we always think we undertsnad ppl, we know them, but we actualyl do not. WE think WE do, but we dont. we never really understand ppl totally do we? ehh? hmm food for thought.
Sep 11, 2005
WHOO! squad outing ytd at pasta yummy yum :) haha. not bad! abt half the sqd turned out! whoo. thanks to woonling xiaowen for orgainising! we shall have one more on christmass! (:ii'll be fun too! ahhah. but i missed maf instead :/ we were at pasta from six plus til 9plus! haha i think the ppl there hate us now. haha. yepp, that pic was without lydia ): my laughing laughter lydia. haha. ok, all in all it was just fun talking and crapping with sqdmates! whee! okok! ): lucia mus study alr! sianed, whole day nv study again! BOOOO
Sep 8, 2005
sometimes when opinions clash, impressions change
Hmms, i guess when u first form an impressions, its easy. cos there' aint many things to judge, u only base it perhaps on first few exchanges u make. but as things go, and u know the person more, opinions clash, i find myself rethinking. like example a person who talks reason and thoughts with me whom i hold in high regard, told me smth i dun agree with, like totally. it makes me sad cos then, i feel weird. like i dun like a certain person tht much anymore? liek impressiosn jus will change.
nah, that was crap. i OUGHT to accept ppl's opinions and not FORCE my thoughts on others. i noe i ought to, long ago. but i made no progress. only thing i do is, say ok, and dun care abt that issue. ):
LOW PRODUCTIVITY. MPP=MR*MPL , MPLlow, output low. haha! crap! i need motiviation that peopel now have! and i will (: jiayou me! jiayou me!!!
nah, that was crap. i OUGHT to accept ppl's opinions and not FORCE my thoughts on others. i noe i ought to, long ago. but i made no progress. only thing i do is, say ok, and dun care abt that issue. ):
LOW PRODUCTIVITY. MPP=MR*MPL , MPLlow, output low. haha! crap! i need motiviation that peopel now have! and i will (: jiayou me! jiayou me!!!
Sep 7, 2005
HEy (: (ok, no one sayd hey to their own blog, but ...nvm)
anyway, this is an long dued advertisement i must make for my erjie. she's into erm, making earrings, so if u're interested in erm...earrings, you can go to her site and see. there's a few danglings and sorta. so yea, if u wanna she'll damn happy i noe. haha but i dun wear, so support her yea? (: haha. there's some 4 plus to 7 plus one i think, so yepp (:
http://www.angelfire.com/rings/hangons/
yesyes as a nice sister i mus repeat... SUPPORT HER OKAYY. that is, if anyone still comes ard here. (:
STUDIED TODAY! (: whoo, but a lil lil only.but who cares! as long as i did! and i ate xiaolongbao! WHEEE (: nicenicenice yummy juicy hot tempting xiaolongbaos! YAY! ok, im tired, off and away alr! (: xiaolongbaos make me happy
anyway, this is an long dued advertisement i must make for my erjie. she's into erm, making earrings, so if u're interested in erm...earrings, you can go to her site and see. there's a few danglings and sorta. so yea, if u wanna she'll damn happy i noe. haha but i dun wear, so support her yea? (: haha. there's some 4 plus to 7 plus one i think, so yepp (:
http://www.angelfire.com/rings/hangons/
yesyes as a nice sister i mus repeat... SUPPORT HER OKAYY. that is, if anyone still comes ard here. (:
STUDIED TODAY! (: whoo, but a lil lil only.but who cares! as long as i did! and i ate xiaolongbao! WHEEE (: nicenicenice yummy juicy hot tempting xiaolongbaos! YAY! ok, im tired, off and away alr! (: xiaolongbaos make me happy
Sep 6, 2005
whoo. bad day to stay at home. some construction's gg on in my blokc and i aint exactly sure what it is. jus tons of think white pipes. and the weather is hot i cant concentrate! ok, at least i did some phy mcq. but gosh its tues alr ! and all i have on my reocrd is mcqs? jus tell me im dead. today's the first day that im staying at home and officially starting to mug. just try telling me how lagg i am behind.
ytd had the whole morning doing nthg cos we end up pasting flashcards on vanguards and tearing them off again. total wasted time cos ltr when we went to laminate it in the staffroom, we reprinted like ninety percent of those that we have printed. so i laminated the whole afternoon away, watched away the night. when i tried phy mcqs last night, eh.fall asleep in a minute! :( thats y i couldnt go and ask pillai any qns tdy cos i got no qns. sighh. jiayous! (:
ytd had the whole morning doing nthg cos we end up pasting flashcards on vanguards and tearing them off again. total wasted time cos ltr when we went to laminate it in the staffroom, we reprinted like ninety percent of those that we have printed. so i laminated the whole afternoon away, watched away the night. when i tried phy mcqs last night, eh.fall asleep in a minute! :( thats y i couldnt go and ask pillai any qns tdy cos i got no qns. sighh. jiayous! (:
Sep 4, 2005
Sep 3, 2005
ocipp
whee! jus came back from the ocip camp i have dreaded a lil in gg. but i have nt regretted going. (: cos its been fun, but scary. and i feel the ocip team is really nice. haha
aches in the shoudlers now, ought not type too much, jus that ocip is a buncha really good ppl. i hope we live well tgt too. thanks everyone who encouraged me! sorry for holding back lunch! hoh. more meetings beckon! but i feel, (aside frm promos) its okayy cos for end we really needa lot of sorting out and stuffs. at least its only one day now (:
and vaccinations sigh. means must take jabs :( booo.
yepp, i had a great 2 day camp! tho the floor is cold and the night even colder... haha. (: tired now, gtta sleep early.
aches in the shoudlers now, ought not type too much, jus that ocip is a buncha really good ppl. i hope we live well tgt too. thanks everyone who encouraged me! sorry for holding back lunch! hoh. more meetings beckon! but i feel, (aside frm promos) its okayy cos for end we really needa lot of sorting out and stuffs. at least its only one day now (:
and vaccinations sigh. means must take jabs :( booo.
yepp, i had a great 2 day camp! tho the floor is cold and the night even colder... haha. (: tired now, gtta sleep early.
Sep 1, 2005
hahs. im quite tired. really rather tired now. studied for a while today but was in front of the com for even longer. doing the english stuffs for ocip. sigh, so tiredd! and tmr still have the camp til saturday! lucia wans to sleep! ): and homework and muggings undone. jus this onset of tiredness. cant reason why.
