slow rock songs

i didnt wna blog. but reading something tempted me. oh wells, it'll be short, it will. here goes, the thing i read is smthg abt eveyrone makin vows, promising to change for the better yet we often do forget them almost as soon as these vows are made. perhaps its the nicenice mayday songs that brings out the mood. hm

i guess this touched somewhere inside, on days when i go pesimisstic and thinking, that i want to be someone who is better, one who is kinder, more caring, more concerned, more oblivious to bad things. but i never did go any nearer towards being any of the things i mentioned. i remain one unkind girl, bothered too much by realities of life, irritated that people arent what i wnated them to be. they perhaps will never.

we are often too much of impluse, too little of thinking. too much of rashness and too little of care. too much of bad, too little of good. that we go around hurting people with words, with actions, with atttitudes, with behaviour, with mannerism, with anything we can get ourselves to do. even with our inner most thoughts we can often hurt, not physically other, but inside us.

i love slow oldish sounding songs.

sometimes i jus lik to think back, of how more fulfiling a life i would have led if i was that bit kinder. but then again, it mightnt be me, if i werent the me i was. i tried to keep quiet, to observe more, to see more. and i think when u dun tok as much, u do see more of people. i see that people tend to turn to whoever theyre most comfy with to chat, they are often smiling? they... i dunno, im a really bad observer actually. haha

to the nicenice songs playing on maydays' Disc SEA cd, i love it (:

anyway, i donr ranting. i think i am done. (: at least now i dun have so much things on mind now. off i go to study, i needa pass. ): i do. ! gambate