i'ld be grateful enuff
to have that few
who hears deep enuff
to know whats troubling me
to know what im thinking

i'll be grateful (:

i dont wish for many pairs of ears, just one, that'll hear well enuff.

endofweek. woah :/ its been a busy wek, im comtemplating whetehr to drop outa sypa. there's so many schoolwork, pswork, etcetectec. i'll nv hve time for sypa. or at least, have time to do the sypa thing well enuff. heh

i'mma thinker, yes i am

and so we didnt get that sponsorship afterall the drag

to happier stuffs, jo actually says im cute. i swear i heard it! :P and emily waited til so late for me which is very sweet. and her stupid dada ___ cca! orH hor! she's a darling- emily. lew thinks im a thinking. which is halftrue. but i like to think im a thinker ;) hees. so i am a thinker. lik finally. darkroom w shermin was pretty eventful too. and hinho is a superb photographer i do salute. just ... erm. nvm, i love my fellow cp qinfang! which is random. by the way, i asked jo whats the paraphrased for random and i haven goteen an anwser! :/

i need something more than just about anything to make my life a lil more bearable. i really haven gone homeearly for a long long time alr. and i WANT to come home early. altho there maybe no body, i like to be alone. to do things that i can, leisurely. napfa is ACTUALLY coming soon and i haven jump yet! ;/ so dead. i wna do well! really do.

SMILE! its half the week gone alr! whees.

off to do GP! its long due! jiayou jiayou! some ppl's weird. some are stressed. whatever it is, im myself :)

the ones who brings smiles

  

nature at pierce!

  

i wnet running just now! yes, in the middle of a week on a tuesday. how fortunate is that? :P haha it certainly feels very good to be able to run becos busy weekends, and a homrowrk filled one at that, have taken away my running times.

i discovered that running is a enjoyment, and jogging (slow jogging) a even much more peaceful one. i have always liked joggin/running. but i nv quite knew whats the diff other than in speed. i always tot of my jogs as just jogs, but now i know, there's the speed thing. speed gives me too much of a headache sometimes, too much stress. i prefer slower jogs now.

or maybe its just my stamina have fallen, or that i no longer care about how people see me. or that its relfective of myself now. i jus wna go on my own pace, regardless of other things.

my flickr page with artsy photos! ahah!

its e constant presence of you that always brings things back bright

but is my presence that lamp for you?

hohoho! today was a veyr busy day! AHAH in the morning was shooting at pierce! ended up i couldnt meet jo in time! SORRY! ahah and i missed my hotcakes breakfast! :/ promised i'll be early again the next time! haha. yangzheng gang celebrates the mr brokeback's bday! ok, he's like in a constant state of shock plus stoning! ahah. swensens! yay.

met up with sixoh peeps! and i was veyr late! kboxing was fun! ahah everyone was hgih and all. i really miss the girls' presence around class, its like funkily fun. and i ahven seen them for months so it was really ncie. celebrated FISHH n HONGLI's bday! yay! happy birthday darlings! (;
'a girl who turn eighteen becomes a flower' aye! :) one thing was i was too late to talk to everyone throughoutly! hehs but i miss and love the girls all the same. siaosiao elaine becca xying janet - the sixoh that i do lovelovelove.

although i really am v broke alr this week, it was a nice week (:

the weekdays wasnt v v fun with much test, lect test, common tests, dunno what tests, class test and homework and all. it felt like t2 week 3 already! and bagua mate oso felt that this week lik week two or smth. heh! plus some selfish behaviour that i see in ppl that didnt put me in a v good mood but all the same, im OKAY. i jus dun like ppl whining away being late and tmr having tests and all when im gna be like staying back much much much later. i mean, HELLO, i ned to study too dun i. hmfs. that aside, im over it, :)

happy lucia!

melbourne commonwealth games 06!

i always loved watching sports, like those Games. seeing people competing so hard and wining makes me happy for them. i wished that i could excel in some sport, or i HAD excelled. but i didnt :( sighs.

we're like a bunch of passengers on a bus. we're put tgt for just this while, with exeryone aligning at their own destination. we crossed paths, yet we dont quite seem to know each other much. after the jounry, we prolly woldnt see each other again. or even rmb. is that the way it is? thats the way it seems at least.

thanks thaddeus! (:

aniw ive figured! (: i shall choose to remain happy! result from reading my first book in months - Dress Rehearsal. basically its some 'trashy' book in a sense. just a feel good book where you just read for leisure. not much thinking no anything. just what i need for a break away from newspapers and compre passages. i actually love reading books but i always take super long to finsih them cos i'll have to read every line and word. and i dont have the luxury of time, very sadly. (: that done, im satisifed and finally able to get some work done! :) feels good!

how long have you not touched fiction?

just loaded some songs to my player. and now good reason to go and finish up hmwork and mugg test now.

LUCKS TO ALL THOSE WITH BLOCKS AND COMMON TESTS! :) tmr. tmr i'll be positive.

well, and a stuffy nose

Okay, blogger isn’t working and im typing this is msword with a lot of quirky red underlines!
Haha, just to share some joy that im getting better! Whee. Getting sick just reminded me that I last got sick just less than three months ago in Thailand! And I miss the kids there! Sighs. Anyway being sick these two/three days is bad cos I haven’t been touching any much homework yet. :/ So dead! This holiday don’t feeling holiday-ly at all! L a long lists of things I have to do

-get some photos printed for class blog. Bdaybaybdays! But I need other ppl’s input of photos, so that shall wait.
-homework ( maths- tutorials 27 28 I think) (gp- aj05 prelims compre!, reading assignments, file packing) (chem.- nmr electrochem tutorials, quiz ) (phys- data analysis, wave tutorial!) (econs- shucks I forgot, isit some essay? Got to check!) T’S A WHOLE LOT OF THINGS UNDONE!
-stationary stocking!
-charge batteries! a whole lot of them uncharged! :(
- *** stars cos its ulimately impt - GET WELL SOON! ahah

thanskto eveyrone who wishes me well (: and my mum n my sisters who got so worried everytime im sick!
ohoh and yongchuen have some pretty nice shots of KL! he should be in PS! lol .ahah.

ok, some promotion my my er jie! earrings! her 'business' is stale! all the best aye

I AM SICK! ):
AND I HAVE A MAJOR FLU!

i am v sad! i dun like flu! neither do i like being sick! ): ): plus its the hols! :(

old world charm

the school i love, no matter how its colour changes.

me and my sec 3 tablemate at the lovely sn specs stand!
ohh i haven mentioned sn fiesta! great fun! i love the cheese hotdogs! v nice that i ate TWO! met up w iggie n ltg! whee. i love everyone! i love juniors whose stalls i promised but didnt patronise! aha. and i love mrs seah the sweet cute little woman opening coconuts!

some scooter i took a pic of when i was trying bnw in the afternoon. its got some alluring charm i like

SN art gallery! mr foo rocks la, his art is fantasic! (: i love especially the green painting i wished he would give it to me!

cute boy and girl on the swing! (:

its so hot, i dun feel like doing anything ):
and hols just started and im bingeing!
for the half of today i ate:

my fave congee with century egg and meatballs!
peanutbutter bread
slice of choc cake
rittersprt choc
ba kwa
famous amos cookies
kinderburneo choc!

WAHH! hothothot afternoon! ): doesnt help that there's nthg v nice showing on tv to distract me and my sis is sleeping away! AHAH boring!

sponateity of it all

haha actually there's nothing much i really want to blog today. but just something i thought over on the trainride home. and i managed to salvage my memory by writing it into my thinker powerpuff notebook tho i only used it a few times, it have been in my bag always!

prove that lucia is a thinker:
(on being kind) being kind and showing kindness to people is something that i shouldnot take for granted. they only come to me when i have the inspiration, the spare sweets and energy and paper to do somehting for people. but it should be an everyday thing,and a sponateous one.be kinder! (PROVEN) :D

i shall try harder everyday to be kinder (and jump further!)
cant do standing broad jump, lucia is v sad!

things i hope i do this holidays
-dont owe any tutorials!
-exercise!
-KAYAKING (probablity = 0)
-revise a little
-smile
-listen to jay more often


ok, if jo's reading this, i'll miss you dear!

over the hills, thats where you'll find me

no frowns, no quarrels, no feelings hurt pls. its the end of term, tmr is so slack tdy feels like e MAR hols alr! (: just a great way to end the term - badminton/bballing (: tho im seriously tired and tmr there's PE.
- shermin n my wish for term one, FULFILLED.
im in a good mood, nothing can bring me down. feels good to ahve something accomplished!

put away those bad feelings, its a fresh start! (: YAY.

i like to stay optimistic, which i seldom do actually... so i'll like to stay THIS way! haha not making sense!

im top of the world, again. (but not qt like how i feel in NAN, in nan its even more STRESS FREE) sigh. then again, i shouldnt complain. the life that im living now is considered one of the most slacked ones already, considering how ppl complete hmwk at amazingly fast speed. JIAYOUS

just to add:
sirui's sweet! where's my peanut? HAHA. i jus wna hug u dear!

wished i were, wished i HAD

They didn’t
I came too suddenly to me through an sms.
These days I’ve been fearing that it would come in school. I dunno, I might just cry.
I wished I had made it down for more sessions, earlier, tried harder to train.
Or maybe its just that I’ve pinned too much hope for them, too much hope that they’ll fulfil what I regretted two years back. Maybe they weren’t us, they don’t desire to win that much.But one thing I’m sure of all campcrafters. We rock. We persist. We love team-mates. We pitch. And we peg. I didn’t cry, and im not going to. Liying was v scared I would be brooding over it. Sure I would brood over it for a while, but I’ll be fine. Its my juniors I’m worried about. I hope they don’t take it the way I did two years back, its too bitter, its too hardbreaking. Whatever it maybe, gogogo sn ccc!

im fine,really. (: loves

resolute to do this well.

no more daily or once every two days blogging i promise
i ought to give my best for this last week of term.
no more frequent online sessions (unless its for work)
leisure, just once a day MAX.
no more msn and what chats into late at night.
not for this week at least.
no temptation into neopets/jcnet land.
no checking of other ppl's blogs n my gbk.

or at least try not to.

concentrate lu. concentration is all i need to do well. really.

and one of my greatest wish of all time, (other than the guitar) would be to take some award winning photo. okay, one is enuff. or at least produce something that makes me go WOAH more often

sigh, i wna go kayaking soon! BAHH :(
i wna a night full of shooting stars, i do.

for now, keep to the weeklong resolutions dear.

this must be some FALLACY

my internet is screwed. i have no idea why! pls pls tell me its not a virus! :(

i changed my title! sometimes i really really wished to be just that bit more optimistic. i dunno how people see me, but i guess to myself, im more often than not a tough nut to crack. i believe im not one easy to work with, neither am i one to tell people what i dun like. see the contradiction? how do i work wth people when i dont tell people what i like or dont? hahs. i wished the world wasnt all that debate about being black n white or grey. i wished it was only one colour- that of happiness. i doubt i'll ever know the colour of happiness though.

sometimes i just like the feeling of going for yangzheng. there, there's always people i know and love. no matter how wronged and tortured we are by the kids, there's always something, someone to cheer u up. like today jiayong (the kids i was teaching, who grins v widely!) told me he got a girlfriend. den i ask who, he said charlene. though its like i really know who charlene is la! but their innocence and openess, i guess i something i marvel. so dont lose hope w the kids (: tho the THREEGIRLS are a lil loud, a lil naughty, a lil irritating and a lil rude. plus theres jo baguamate emily suyee yuk chinguan n mr brokeback! okay, there's two new peeps plus xinjie. i hope we get to joke ard more often. the yangzheng GANG is certainly expanding! (: YAYS.

i like the way nature makes me feel tiny, so it can overtake my entire world and bring me back under the same BLUE sky like i was in nan. i still miss the shooting stars i saw there. but i guess reality loves plunging you back when uve travelled too far. nothing much i can do i guess. only to continue wishing that the world is good

and i like how we always have something to talk about (:

my favegirl! (: 8 years!

common sight b4 lect! (:

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
end of the week! i cant wait, i slept like an hour later than my usual sleeping time ytd. know i shouldnt complain cos ppl sleep like 3 , 4 hours later than i did, but im really really tired.

tried telling myself not to be tired, but i still am.
i tell myself to stay awake at lects, but i stayed awake but ended up looking n observing ppl around me. distractions, away pls.

met simin w minyi today! (: wheee. happy affair. much fun toking abt the past and i actually forgotten or left many ppl at the back of my mind ): i miss sixC ppl tho! whr are eveyrone?

as the week ends, results might be out anytime. if u see im sudden sad after some handphone call or msg, pls ignore me. im keeping ccc in my prayers meanwhile, hopefully both teams can get in! but i hate facing reality. my entries are getting un philosophical again! i cant help it! timetimetime is not on my side. neither is inspiration for cool sounding quotes! just nice sounding line (note: singular) like the previous two.

it starts all over. and over.

i miss wujuan! thanks for the msg dear! (:
thanks sherline for the nicenice lolly again! :D
i love jo! (which is totally random! :) WHEE ) -and jo's rite, one who proclaim jaychou as her husband cant be les. yesyes. jo always speaks intelligent stuffs! wonder when i can be as intelligent as her.

i think its a very tramuatising event to cover the a level results released. thank god i have my fellow cp there (:

glad most nanos did well, or so i hope wish and prays.

im glad to see many ppl happy. but some kinda reminded me of the olevels release, in sn. sigh. i hope that scene dun dun dun repeat. i knwo i can. now, i have no reason to screw up. (: jiayou!!!

but fact is i actually wun noe whr to go frm here. is it physio at nyp or somethg else ? somewhr out there?

when you see one tht you tot u've forgotten, it starts all over again. i think im missing ppl more than i think i did.

go nano! loves!

go lucia. 6 gp analysis! more loves!