dont quite like it when i realise people are leaving soon, that people are sad, and that this world aint perfect. quite a control freak, i know. but i like to keep people by my side, and i like them to be happy.
i love being barefooted on the grass by the way. miss that feeling since npdays. (:
Jun 23, 2009
leap of faith
high elements today with the youths. the importance of that leap of faith. if we just believe and take that step, we'll know this world is safe; not quite as taunting as we've imagined it to be. hanging in mid air, i realised i had to learn to trust myself. halfway through the obstacle, i cant possibly give up. but feeling so helpless and alone up there is a terrible feeling.
working with youths had never been easy, i need to continue working on it. sometimes all they clamour for is your attention, and thats the very least i could give to them if i could do nothing else for them. perhaps this is what i've been looking for since i started two years ago. beyond the mentoring relationship; one on equal grounds and mutual learning. this is perhaps why i remained, and will be remaining. working with them makes me feel old, yet young at the same time. i still feel like a teen sometimes.
stress, often is a result of thought. that, i've always knew. but how do i control my thoughts, idk. :X i need to start working on my weak flabby fat arms ): super achy arms
alot more thoughts on my mind but i cant verbalise. happy midweek! (:
working with youths had never been easy, i need to continue working on it. sometimes all they clamour for is your attention, and thats the very least i could give to them if i could do nothing else for them. perhaps this is what i've been looking for since i started two years ago. beyond the mentoring relationship; one on equal grounds and mutual learning. this is perhaps why i remained, and will be remaining. working with them makes me feel old, yet young at the same time. i still feel like a teen sometimes.
stress, often is a result of thought. that, i've always knew. but how do i control my thoughts, idk. :X i need to start working on my weak flabby fat arms ): super achy arms
alot more thoughts on my mind but i cant verbalise. happy midweek! (:
Jun 22, 2009
Jun 15, 2009
because with you, i'm not afraid of the dark.
忍不住 想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我 會有點寂寞
你給的幸福 在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住 想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著 能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
關於你的一切 我想要比誰都懂你是情人 還是朋友
還沒勇氣 想得太多
你的世界 如此遼闊
我會在哪個角落
punggol beach, 14th june 2009.
i love the sunrise. but they always seem better etched in pictures than in my memory. its true they happen everyday, but how often do we catch them?
Jun 11, 2009
hello there.
-second cycling trip this summer, this time to ubin. with entirely different company. i love how it feels like a whole big adventure. great company and the exciting DURIAN incident. i always loved ubin. it will remain my fave escape from the city, back to forests and kampung days.
-third cycling trip in eleven days. i love the wind blowing against me, i love the speed despite the recklessness, i love pushing against the gear which propels you forward. dl picked up cycling in a few hours, which he didnt do for the past twenty plus years. yayness. i hate losing, losing things, physical or non physical. nice blue skies just for jenn, invalidated by a lost wallet.
-dinner with jo and diana makes lu a happy girl (: my fave fish&chips doesnt taste the same though. but yumm mayo and raw sugar all the same.
i should go be productive and think about modules. seven or six? drop or continue? gogogo (:
-third cycling trip in eleven days. i love the wind blowing against me, i love the speed despite the recklessness, i love pushing against the gear which propels you forward. dl picked up cycling in a few hours, which he didnt do for the past twenty plus years. yayness. i hate losing, losing things, physical or non physical. nice blue skies just for jenn, invalidated by a lost wallet.
-dinner with jo and diana makes lu a happy girl (: my fave fish&chips doesnt taste the same though. but yumm mayo and raw sugar all the same.
i should go be productive and think about modules. seven or six? drop or continue? gogogo (:
Jun 5, 2009
reruns
have been trying to rerun all my previous running routes (but there're too many variations). discoveries of this evening's run: sembawang shopping center is up and running alr. it was still all dust and construction when i last ran past. and guess what! there's fish&co and starbucks now. makes for a perfect hideout (: thankfully though, the sunset and the clear blue skies accompanying my run remained as i remembered them to be. (: this is bliss.
some things remained the same, while others dont seem quite the same.
almost finishing my current read: eat pray love, by elizabeth gilbert. lovely book detailing three very different, but equally inspiring journeys. eat; indulge in what makes you happy. pray; all the world's religions share at their core something common. love; its that simple.
my fave physics lab partner (who happens to be my fave nurse as well),
HAPPY HAPPY TWENTYFIRST (:
some things remained the same, while others dont seem quite the same.
almost finishing my current read: eat pray love, by elizabeth gilbert. lovely book detailing three very different, but equally inspiring journeys. eat; indulge in what makes you happy. pray; all the world's religions share at their core something common. love; its that simple.
my fave physics lab partner (who happens to be my fave nurse as well),
HAPPY HAPPY TWENTYFIRST (:
Jun 4, 2009
stars!
starsplanner is out! BUT next sem will be the first time i will spend my birthday among papers, first in all (fourteen) schooling years. i will make it worth (: lu needs to pull her gpa up. but i think i wont be very much in contact with the econsgang after all. rah. so little econs mods that i can take. and all those clashes. i need my motivation. and i needa rethink psych.
baking with crys today! (: love the scent of green tea. meetups with two of my fave girls too. doesnt matter if its fattening carls'jr. (:
i've heard so much about people changing. people do change, don't they? and very drastically. how long would it take us to realise. how scary it is to discover that the world around you have moved on and changed, even when you thought things would remained the same.
think, lu, think.
baking with crys today! (: love the scent of green tea. meetups with two of my fave girls too. doesnt matter if its fattening carls'jr. (:
i've heard so much about people changing. people do change, don't they? and very drastically. how long would it take us to realise. how scary it is to discover that the world around you have moved on and changed, even when you thought things would remained the same.
think, lu, think.
Jun 1, 2009
SUNNYDAYS
i love the sun. okay, i promise to apply sunblock the next time if i rmb. stop scaring me with skin cancer threats everyone!
love it that im one shade darker! FINALLY (: after months! in fact, i cant rmb the last time i had this tan: not too tanned, just the amount of vitamin d i like. whee. even the uneven tan is yays.
i miss cycling. love how the wind blows against you, brushing against your cheeks and the excitement of speed. i shall be back again (: its like running, only faster and more of the knees than other parts of your body. i miss cycling to fong's.
love it that im one shade darker! FINALLY (: after months! in fact, i cant rmb the last time i had this tan: not too tanned, just the amount of vitamin d i like. whee. even the uneven tan is yays.
i miss cycling. love how the wind blows against you, brushing against your cheeks and the excitement of speed. i shall be back again (: its like running, only faster and more of the knees than other parts of your body. i miss cycling to fong's.
