Capture
Three, two, one.
Snap.
Smiles
Captured on film
They last forever
Tells a thousand words
Yet, does it tell any feelings at all?
It cant capture the feeling
Inside me.
Years on, looking back
Would it tell of the story that once
Aches?
Pictures are but captures
Of time
Of events.
Feb 27, 2005
Untitled
Shooting stars.
Fast, bright and beautiful-
Yet we question
Why its short span-
Over in a flash.
Hanker onto time
Not letting go;
Or step back and
Be thankful for
Having seen its beauty?
How do we see our own
Shooting stars?
Thoughts
Thinking of those
Yesterdays
So many, I lost count.
Thinking of your
Laughter
So cheery, it touched me.
Thinking of those
Team spirit
So strong, it never breaks.
Thinking of every
Second
With you, so precious
I’ll never forget.
Don’t
Cry not.
Make you worry not;
Remind you not
Of the anxiety in me.
Fear not.
Show nothing of fear,
Show it bothers me not
Of what is to come.
i just got drawn into the obession of using poems to de-anxiety. been feeling worried since morning. so, just wanted to use words and poems to say out.
here's my wishes for my class for i noe i'll be in no mood to later on:
to 05s60: the wonderful class of sixoh. i wish god will not separate us, i pray that we will remain tgt, and that noone shall leave this great class.
to all the SN gals: all the best. we're a great cohort! :)
and specially to
cecs and peck: all the best darlings. thanks for being such great friends! lucks!
osy: dun worry that much. you;ll do well :)
becca mavis pan elaine xying van janet betty yvonne huetheng: may the sixohh girls rock on and remain tgt! god bless us :)
my 'sisters' lihao melvin weiheng: thanks for being such great sisters for me to bully!may we be sisters 4eva too! :D
to my fellow sec 4 campcraft darlings: ccc rocks! all the besttt!
Shooting stars.
Fast, bright and beautiful-
Yet we question
Why its short span-
Over in a flash.
Hanker onto time
Not letting go;
Or step back and
Be thankful for
Having seen its beauty?
How do we see our own
Shooting stars?
Thoughts
Thinking of those
Yesterdays
So many, I lost count.
Thinking of your
Laughter
So cheery, it touched me.
Thinking of those
Team spirit
So strong, it never breaks.
Thinking of every
Second
With you, so precious
I’ll never forget.
Don’t
Cry not.
Make you worry not;
Remind you not
Of the anxiety in me.
Fear not.
Show nothing of fear,
Show it bothers me not
Of what is to come.
i just got drawn into the obession of using poems to de-anxiety. been feeling worried since morning. so, just wanted to use words and poems to say out.
here's my wishes for my class for i noe i'll be in no mood to later on:
to 05s60: the wonderful class of sixoh. i wish god will not separate us, i pray that we will remain tgt, and that noone shall leave this great class.
to all the SN gals: all the best. we're a great cohort! :)
and specially to
cecs and peck: all the best darlings. thanks for being such great friends! lucks!
osy: dun worry that much. you;ll do well :)
becca mavis pan elaine xying van janet betty yvonne huetheng: may the sixohh girls rock on and remain tgt! god bless us :)
my 'sisters' lihao melvin weiheng: thanks for being such great sisters for me to bully!may we be sisters 4eva too! :D
to my fellow sec 4 campcraft darlings: ccc rocks! all the besttt!
Feb 26, 2005
here's 2 poems i wrote tdy. :)
STAY ON
A parting shot
Many smiles
And emotions that are mixed, hidden away.
Fear.
Anxiety.
Anticipation.
Yet denial inside
YOU.
Enjoy while we can
For as long as we can
Linger on
Just that little longer with
YOU.
Hold back regrets and
Sadness
Spend these
Remaining days happily with
YOU.
Preserve those
Fond memories
Etched into my heart
Lock it up safely
For I will
Always remember
YOU.
REJECTION TO GROWING UP.
Smiles up
Cheers on
Faces of denials to
Grow up.
Stay forever as a child
Pure and innocent
Freed from worries
Hidden from complexities
Don’t wanna grow up
Yet.
Don’t wanna face
Reality;
And newfound independence
Don’t wanna any
Separation.
Just have things
STAY THE SAME
STAY ON
A parting shot
Many smiles
And emotions that are mixed, hidden away.
Fear.
Anxiety.
Anticipation.
Yet denial inside
YOU.
Enjoy while we can
For as long as we can
Linger on
Just that little longer with
YOU.
Hold back regrets and
Sadness
Spend these
Remaining days happily with
YOU.
Preserve those
Fond memories
Etched into my heart
Lock it up safely
For I will
Always remember
YOU.
REJECTION TO GROWING UP.
Smiles up
Cheers on
Faces of denials to
Grow up.
Stay forever as a child
Pure and innocent
Freed from worries
Hidden from complexities
Don’t wanna grow up
Yet.
Don’t wanna face
Reality;
And newfound independence
Don’t wanna any
Separation.
Just have things
STAY THE SAME
hoho. just changed my layout. cos i was bored. hahas.
its a pic with my lit class ppl laughing. and i think it was artiscally taken and hence... the pic on my blog. for this mth at least. i like it. :) and it rongs back memories... ok.. of a head-banging incident which i have no wish to elaborate! haha
and everyone seems to think taht my blog is sad. ITS NT SAD! its HAPPY! shall do smthg to make it happy-looking. hoho.
actually wante dto wrtie smthg for eveyrone in class. but ... leaveit aside first ba. cya! wishing for a pri sch gathering. wonder when.
its a pic with my lit class ppl laughing. and i think it was artiscally taken and hence... the pic on my blog. for this mth at least. i like it. :) and it rongs back memories... ok.. of a head-banging incident which i have no wish to elaborate! haha
and everyone seems to think taht my blog is sad. ITS NT SAD! its HAPPY! shall do smthg to make it happy-looking. hoho.
actually wante dto wrtie smthg for eveyrone in class. but ... leaveit aside first ba. cya! wishing for a pri sch gathering. wonder when.
Feb 25, 2005
xcty tdy. and the rest of the class's lik spending somewat last tome tgt b4 3mths' up. hurr... but was chao tried after xctry so o went hm with shuiying.cos she look very erm..bothered,. so as a friend i ought to pei her rite? hahas
aniw, colin is super bang! he got 2nd for the a boys lar! and woonhowe is 17th! all super good! and both are my angel and mortal! hoho.
hais. monday is the day. really sort of dunwana leave the class. hurr.
hope everyone remains. and all i can do is but pray.
aniw, colin is super bang! he got 2nd for the a boys lar! and woonhowe is 17th! all super good! and both are my angel and mortal! hoho.
hais. monday is the day. really sort of dunwana leave the class. hurr.
hope everyone remains. and all i can do is but pray.
Feb 24, 2005
tok lotsa fotos with my class ppl tdy. :) love it! aniw, i have sweared that i'll blog a happy post tdy.
yepp.i love the class fotos. aww. am so gonna miss every one in 60 if i dun make it back. touch wood ofcos.
john ng is so so so nice. let us play this write-the-good-points-of-the-person-on-his-back game. :) its really sweet lar. so we just went ard with colourful construction paper on our backs and write for others while others write for u. he;s so much btter than and*** who doesnt use class time for fun games. :)hurr.
i'm on broadband now btw! pls pray tt no virus serves to kill my com.
oh.i actually can access ivle. i'm surprised. and guess wat. the lit poem's due tmr! gosh.
ok, MEOW! i' noe i have sisters like you sisters. and friedns like you friends! thanks.
yepp.i love the class fotos. aww. am so gonna miss every one in 60 if i dun make it back. touch wood ofcos.
john ng is so so so nice. let us play this write-the-good-points-of-the-person-on-his-back game. :) its really sweet lar. so we just went ard with colourful construction paper on our backs and write for others while others write for u. he;s so much btter than and*** who doesnt use class time for fun games. :)hurr.
i'm on broadband now btw! pls pray tt no virus serves to kill my com.
oh.i actually can access ivle. i'm surprised. and guess wat. the lit poem's due tmr! gosh.
ok, MEOW! i' noe i have sisters like you sisters. and friedns like you friends! thanks.
Feb 22, 2005
hais. my com is still down. and there's so so so many tests coming. econs tmr (which i totally dunno wat to do!) , chem lect test on erm...thurs.
and its highly likely that the o levels' results will erm...come out on fri or monday
jasmine's real sweet btw,she called me ytd nite just to chat with me! and we were just lik toking abt not seeing so many o our ex ex classmates for so long, and how we will wan to meet up...but as always, there's no time for everyone to meet up tgt. and oh...how ppl change... hahas :)
sometimes i dunno if chanegs are goood or otherwise.
went back unit day btw...quite fun :) den sqdms and i ate tau hway at the long long time nv gone tau hway shop! hoho!
and hais.i just realise what a bad friend i actually am! hurr. and none of my frens trusts me with their secrets! i swear if they tell me secrets, i'll nv say them out. but...hurr...... they dun :( what are friends , man?
hais. dun think i can stay on in hwa chong aniw. so no friends doesnt make much diff lar? hais hais
i wanted to blog abt smthg happy one. but ended up..hurr hurring
and its highly likely that the o levels' results will erm...come out on fri or monday
jasmine's real sweet btw,she called me ytd nite just to chat with me! and we were just lik toking abt not seeing so many o our ex ex classmates for so long, and how we will wan to meet up...but as always, there's no time for everyone to meet up tgt. and oh...how ppl change... hahas :)
sometimes i dunno if chanegs are goood or otherwise.
went back unit day btw...quite fun :) den sqdms and i ate tau hway at the long long time nv gone tau hway shop! hoho!
and hais.i just realise what a bad friend i actually am! hurr. and none of my frens trusts me with their secrets! i swear if they tell me secrets, i'll nv say them out. but...hurr...... they dun :( what are friends , man?
hais. dun think i can stay on in hwa chong aniw. so no friends doesnt make much diff lar? hais hais
i wanted to blog abt smthg happy one. but ended up..hurr hurring
Feb 17, 2005
Feb 15, 2005
to mavis who might be reading this. THANK YOU. for the econs thing. and janet and becca and lilin. sorry i damm slack.and my blog super happy one ok! :D
ok, at least u made my day! hoho. rushing homeowkr like crazy, still got lit, chem maths gp econs. which is EVERY subj i take. and ...and and... think they are bombing us with erm...tests and all b4 the o results come out. heh
dun think i can stay.appeal dey oso dun wan me la.r hais
ok, cya!
ok, at least u made my day! hoho. rushing homeowkr like crazy, still got lit, chem maths gp econs. which is EVERY subj i take. and ...and and... think they are bombing us with erm...tests and all b4 the o results come out. heh
dun think i can stay.appeal dey oso dun wan me la.r hais
ok, cya!
Feb 14, 2005
vday. normal day
vday
vday
vday.
vday in hc is just not as vibrant as it is in st nicks.
i no i shldnt ask for that much, at least its not dead like it is elsewhere :) hais,
somehow its still got smthg missing.
just something i cant point out wwat... but yea.
and my darling becca, i think she have a valentine...or at least one soon, if u noe wat i mean.
hoho. i'll be glad for her lar. (and glad for myself to get sm thgs proven correct)
thaanks to all those sweet ppl who shared e love (tho i'm still pretty sad now for no reason) tho many wld not know i'm thanking them... i still wan to.
esp to those who play along and said my art work was 'hao kan'. thanks for being so sweet tho i noe sometimes lik 99percent of the time its like untrue.and to shuiying and her informant PAN for the vcd tho i have one alr. hahas! and to sheez for the nice cookies.and crys fo the usually nice gifts hand made and all. and to ah tan for sewing a big L in blue on a lighter blue erm... small cushion. and to kez for the sweet msg in a milkbottle. i love msg btw! just write me a msg, no pressies its okay!hahas.and to xying for the 4colour sweets which i could double to play econs bingo. and to lilin the panda for the cute STRAWBERRRY candy and nice letter. and to DIANA! esp for crashing to gif me pressies..the nice metal coaster... tho i'm nt the main reason! i take it tt i am. and to elaine for the nice rose with the lovely heart thing. and van for the rose with the nice wordings! and hongli for the chocoS! and becca for the nice spoon bluee! and jill for the nice white balloon.and my angel wen hao for the nice huge doggie. and my mortal colin for the lollies.and and and to YOU! :)
and while i was on e bus, i've decided nt to harrass scandal victims in my class anym. i ought to grow up soon. :)
happy vday to all those who have a v.
vday only gets un-vday when u think no one loves u. like i think now. hahas.
vday
vday.
vday in hc is just not as vibrant as it is in st nicks.
i no i shldnt ask for that much, at least its not dead like it is elsewhere :) hais,
somehow its still got smthg missing.
just something i cant point out wwat... but yea.
and my darling becca, i think she have a valentine...or at least one soon, if u noe wat i mean.
hoho. i'll be glad for her lar. (and glad for myself to get sm thgs proven correct)
thaanks to all those sweet ppl who shared e love (tho i'm still pretty sad now for no reason) tho many wld not know i'm thanking them... i still wan to.
esp to those who play along and said my art work was 'hao kan'. thanks for being so sweet tho i noe sometimes lik 99percent of the time its like untrue.and to shuiying and her informant PAN for the vcd tho i have one alr. hahas! and to sheez for the nice cookies.and crys fo the usually nice gifts hand made and all. and to ah tan for sewing a big L in blue on a lighter blue erm... small cushion. and to kez for the sweet msg in a milkbottle. i love msg btw! just write me a msg, no pressies its okay!hahas.and to xying for the 4colour sweets which i could double to play econs bingo. and to lilin the panda for the cute STRAWBERRRY candy and nice letter. and to DIANA! esp for crashing to gif me pressies..the nice metal coaster... tho i'm nt the main reason! i take it tt i am. and to elaine for the nice rose with the lovely heart thing. and van for the rose with the nice wordings! and hongli for the chocoS! and becca for the nice spoon bluee! and jill for the nice white balloon.and my angel wen hao for the nice huge doggie. and my mortal colin for the lollies.and and and to YOU! :)
and while i was on e bus, i've decided nt to harrass scandal victims in my class anym. i ought to grow up soon. :)
happy vday to all those who have a v.
vday only gets un-vday when u think no one loves u. like i think now. hahas.
Feb 12, 2005
sometimes
sometimes i wish i wasnt me.
i wish that i would not do the things i do to 'hurt' or 'offend' people.
i wish that i would not behave the way i do.
i wish i would not pretend to be wat is not me,
but but but. i know sometimes i just hafta.
i cant just tell eveyrone wat i think.or how i feel. or who i lik. or wat i really wan to do.
i cant.
not till i've found the courage to at least.
but there's this song i've always lik tho i dont listen much to eng songs, but there's this song by joey dunno wat (mcintyre or wat lar) 's stay the same. its really sweet. everytime i hear it, i wun learn to love myself a lil more.
believe in urself...have faith in wat u do, u'll make it thru
dont u even wish u were someone else. u were meant to be the way you are exactly.dun u ever say u dun like the way u're...
there's nothing abt u...i wld change. :)
the lyrics r so sweet rite? rush type them while the song plays in e backgrd.
i'm disfigured btw :(how sad is that.sick and disfigured for vday.
but u think i care? i love the way i am! (see the wonder of the song man! ) i love you! (tho i cant say it in face! ;) )
i wish that i would not do the things i do to 'hurt' or 'offend' people.
i wish that i would not behave the way i do.
i wish i would not pretend to be wat is not me,
but but but. i know sometimes i just hafta.
i cant just tell eveyrone wat i think.or how i feel. or who i lik. or wat i really wan to do.
i cant.
not till i've found the courage to at least.
but there's this song i've always lik tho i dont listen much to eng songs, but there's this song by joey dunno wat (mcintyre or wat lar) 's stay the same. its really sweet. everytime i hear it, i wun learn to love myself a lil more.
believe in urself...have faith in wat u do, u'll make it thru
dont u even wish u were someone else. u were meant to be the way you are exactly.dun u ever say u dun like the way u're...
there's nothing abt u...i wld change. :)
the lyrics r so sweet rite? rush type them while the song plays in e backgrd.
i'm disfigured btw :(how sad is that.sick and disfigured for vday.
but u think i care? i love the way i am! (see the wonder of the song man! ) i love you! (tho i cant say it in face! ;) )
am very sick
very very sick
hurr :( just recovered a lil frm my sore throat and i got flu,running nose and a lil cough... hais.
even my com is bullying me.
and i gtta rush hmwork for monday.econs proj..and gp. arhg! and i'm lik felling damm sleepy and all .
i can only say... being sick sucks!
wenta class outing. my 3rd or 4th lar.so i'm nt anti lar. hahs. den just played cards.think i very suai, so stopped after a while sister lihao actaulyl lost 100bucks at his friend's hse!like...win lor. 100 bucks. melvin won quite alot. shant harrasse ppl abt becca. i'm more intellectual than that. sorry lilin! all the while i was so tired and sneezy i think she might catch the illness :( aww. but thatnksto weiheng who offered his hse lar. except a bit far only lar. paya lebar?!??@ wah. becca they all staying over. hahs. i'm too sick to lar.means i'm missing out on the juiciest ba gua. but i'll excahnge any ba gua to get betta. hais.
amd...everyone in 60 probably thinks lucia is erm... blond or wateva...
everytime i say something there'll this 2secs of silence? hais.wat can i say...
very very sick
hurr :( just recovered a lil frm my sore throat and i got flu,running nose and a lil cough... hais.
even my com is bullying me.
and i gtta rush hmwork for monday.econs proj..and gp. arhg! and i'm lik felling damm sleepy and all .
i can only say... being sick sucks!
wenta class outing. my 3rd or 4th lar.so i'm nt anti lar. hahs. den just played cards.think i very suai, so stopped after a while sister lihao actaulyl lost 100bucks at his friend's hse!like...win lor. 100 bucks. melvin won quite alot. shant harrasse ppl abt becca. i'm more intellectual than that. sorry lilin! all the while i was so tired and sneezy i think she might catch the illness :( aww. but thatnksto weiheng who offered his hse lar. except a bit far only lar. paya lebar?!??@ wah. becca they all staying over. hahs. i'm too sick to lar.means i'm missing out on the juiciest ba gua. but i'll excahnge any ba gua to get betta. hais.
amd...everyone in 60 probably thinks lucia is erm... blond or wateva...
everytime i say something there'll this 2secs of silence? hais.wat can i say...
Feb 11, 2005
fell down :(
fell down the stairs this morning.dunno wats with me lar. got bruises and abrasions and all. aww. so ke lian rite
and there;s this cut on my left wrist! i didnt cut myself k. hahas. ohw ells.sore throat still on... hais.
ate orange bowl! hahas ! man zu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~
saw mrs seah and chatted with the other tchers.
sn rocks
and there;s this cut on my left wrist! i didnt cut myself k. hahas. ohw ells.sore throat still on... hais.
ate orange bowl! hahas ! man zu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~
saw mrs seah and chatted with the other tchers.
sn rocks
Feb 10, 2005
Feb 9, 2005
happy cny to anyone who stills do comes to my blog (:
ok day tdy! the first day of cny.went to the usual places. my san yi's hse for popiah and ah gong's hse. den wenta eat.realise i sort of miss ~
hais watever
stj clashes with unit day. stupid peiwen. booked her back for unitday sososos long ago. how can she do this to me.
shld b gg to stay at unit day most prob. i mean... i will nv abandon my sqdmates.
unless they no longer wan me. hurr.
the reality of not having sqdmates anymore just strike me while i was writing vday letters.
yet to get my angel and mortal stuffs. i dun buy stuff for guys. (only jay!) hahas.i must b getting sader by the day. i started karokeoking in my own room again to jay;s old old old albums. and found that i love fantasy best!
ok day tdy! the first day of cny.went to the usual places. my san yi's hse for popiah and ah gong's hse. den wenta eat.realise i sort of miss ~
hais watever
stj clashes with unit day. stupid peiwen. booked her back for unitday sososos long ago. how can she do this to me.
shld b gg to stay at unit day most prob. i mean... i will nv abandon my sqdmates.
unless they no longer wan me. hurr.
the reality of not having sqdmates anymore just strike me while i was writing vday letters.
yet to get my angel and mortal stuffs. i dun buy stuff for guys. (only jay!) hahas.i must b getting sader by the day. i started karokeoking in my own room again to jay;s old old old albums. and found that i love fantasy best!
happy cny to anyone who stills do comes to my blog (:
ok day tdy! the first day of cny.went to the usual places. my san yi's hse for popiah and ah gong's hse. den wenta eat.realise i sort of miss ~
hais watever
stj clashes with unit day . stupid peiwen. booked her back for unitday sososos long ago. how can she do this to me.
shld b gg to stay at unit day most prob. i mean... i will nv abandon my sqdmates.
unless they no longer wan me. hurr.
the reality of not having sqdmates anymore just strike me while i was writing vday letters.
yet to get my angel and mortal stuffs. i dun buy stuff for guys. (only jay!) hahas.i must b getting sader by the day. i started karokeoking in my own room again to jay;s old old old albums. and found that i love fantasy best!
i actually tot 19th is this sat! madness. gosh. i'm going outa time sense
happy cny!
ok day tdy! the first day of cny.went to the usual places. my san yi's hse for popiah and ah gong's hse. den wenta eat.realise i sort of miss ~
hais watever
stj clashes with unit day . stupid peiwen. booked her back for unitday sososos long ago. how can she do this to me.
shld b gg to stay at unit day most prob. i mean... i will nv abandon my sqdmates.
unless they no longer wan me. hurr.
the reality of not having sqdmates anymore just strike me while i was writing vday letters.
yet to get my angel and mortal stuffs. i dun buy stuff for guys. (only jay!) hahas.i must b getting sader by the day. i started karokeoking in my own room again to jay;s old old old albums. and found that i love fantasy best!
i actually tot 19th is this sat! madness. gosh. i'm going outa time sense
happy cny!
Feb 6, 2005
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i'm bored .wat can i say? hurr. my specs
Feb 5, 2005
lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs. lost my specs.
to the kallang river. my snrs were nice to want to help find it. but.hais.its gone
mans, that's y on the way home i was slightly irritated with myself. gonna make a new one later tonight. hais. and i cant get it till lik v day. gosh lar. and didnt go class outing.
k think i;m antisocial. but i cant bear the tot of becoming too close to my class and ended up having to split and leave them yet again. i noe i wun have as great as experience ever again. which is y i dun wanna venture too near for i may ended up unwilling yet forced to leave them when the results comes out. hais. just v pek chek with myself lar. haisss. haisssss.
to the kallang river. my snrs were nice to want to help find it. but.hais.its gone
mans, that's y on the way home i was slightly irritated with myself. gonna make a new one later tonight. hais. and i cant get it till lik v day. gosh lar. and didnt go class outing.
k think i;m antisocial. but i cant bear the tot of becoming too close to my class and ended up having to split and leave them yet again. i noe i wun have as great as experience ever again. which is y i dun wanna venture too near for i may ended up unwilling yet forced to leave them when the results comes out. hais. just v pek chek with myself lar. haisss. haisssss.
Feb 4, 2005
hais... chinese new year in a couple of days. just dun feel the festive spirit. mans.
today i met onson! actually if zhuipei haven take him to me, i wld haf NEVER think it was him. he changed. i mean, CHANGED. he was like so dark then... and not too erm...tall. but now he's just different lar. hahas. but at least i met someone from the past. to an extent, i miss the past.
den had mini (i mean veyr mini) class gathering of me zp onson.den later with nic oso. was fun catching up and all. :P just wished there was a real class gathering and we could just lik all talk abt everything. he was saying how ms yow NEVER SCOLDED HIM yet i rmbed so clearly that he was! mans. hte joy of innocence young hearts lik (WOAH!) 6 yrs ago? how time past. and how time transform one;s thinking, one's status, one's identity.i miss the old days of simplicty, where all fun seems to see no boundaries like it does now. the past always looked better to me cos the future always seem so bleak. i dont know, anymore, wat my friends are thinking. wat others who i meet on the way in the future will be like. i must be getting old, cos i keeping thinking of the past, reminising those days where i see everyone as... as... pure innocent creatures, where everyone is equal, and just... easy to understand. hais. the complexity of growing up.
for some unknown reason, i'm starting to dislike the grown old me. like.. i dont like me being so complex. and others being as complex to understand.y cant we just be 1+2=3 ? perhaps. perhaps. with growing up comes the price of loss. loss of innocence.
today i met onson! actually if zhuipei haven take him to me, i wld haf NEVER think it was him. he changed. i mean, CHANGED. he was like so dark then... and not too erm...tall. but now he's just different lar. hahas. but at least i met someone from the past. to an extent, i miss the past.
den had mini (i mean veyr mini) class gathering of me zp onson.den later with nic oso. was fun catching up and all. :P just wished there was a real class gathering and we could just lik all talk abt everything. he was saying how ms yow NEVER SCOLDED HIM yet i rmbed so clearly that he was! mans. hte joy of innocence young hearts lik (WOAH!) 6 yrs ago? how time past. and how time transform one;s thinking, one's status, one's identity.i miss the old days of simplicty, where all fun seems to see no boundaries like it does now. the past always looked better to me cos the future always seem so bleak. i dont know, anymore, wat my friends are thinking. wat others who i meet on the way in the future will be like. i must be getting old, cos i keeping thinking of the past, reminising those days where i see everyone as... as... pure innocent creatures, where everyone is equal, and just... easy to understand. hais. the complexity of growing up.
for some unknown reason, i'm starting to dislike the grown old me. like.. i dont like me being so complex. and others being as complex to understand.y cant we just be 1+2=3 ? perhaps. perhaps. with growing up comes the price of loss. loss of innocence.
hais... chinese new year in a couple of days. just dun feel the festive spirit. mans.
today i met onson! actually if zhuipei haven take him to me, i wld haf NEVER think it was him. he changed. i mean, CHANGED. he was like so dark then... and not too erm...tall. but now he's just different lar. hahas. but at least i met someone from the past. to an extent, i miss the past.
den had mini (i mean veyr mini) class gathering of me zp onson.den later with nic oso. was fun catching up and all. :P just wished there was a real class gathering and we could just lik all talk abt everything. he was saying how ms yow NEVER SCOLDED HIM yet i rmbed so clearly that he was! mans. hte joy of innocence young hearts lik (WOAH!) 6 yrs ago? how time past. and how time transform one;s thinking, one's status, one's identity.i miss the old days of simplicty, where all fun seems to see no boundaries like it does now. the past always looked better to me cos the future always seem so bleak. i dont know, anymore, wat my friends are thinking. wat others who i meet on the way in the future will be like. i must be getting old, cos i keeping thinking of the past, reminising those days where i see everyone as... as... pure innocent creatures, where everyone is equal, and just... easy to understand. hais. the complexity of growing up.
for some unknown reason, i'm starting to dislike the grown old me. like.. i dont like me being so complex. and others being as complex to understand.y cant we just be 1+2=3 ? perhaps. perhaps. with growing up comes the price of loss. loss of innocence.
today i met onson! actually if zhuipei haven take him to me, i wld haf NEVER think it was him. he changed. i mean, CHANGED. he was like so dark then... and not too erm...tall. but now he's just different lar. hahas. but at least i met someone from the past. to an extent, i miss the past.
den had mini (i mean veyr mini) class gathering of me zp onson.den later with nic oso. was fun catching up and all. :P just wished there was a real class gathering and we could just lik all talk abt everything. he was saying how ms yow NEVER SCOLDED HIM yet i rmbed so clearly that he was! mans. hte joy of innocence young hearts lik (WOAH!) 6 yrs ago? how time past. and how time transform one;s thinking, one's status, one's identity.i miss the old days of simplicty, where all fun seems to see no boundaries like it does now. the past always looked better to me cos the future always seem so bleak. i dont know, anymore, wat my friends are thinking. wat others who i meet on the way in the future will be like. i must be getting old, cos i keeping thinking of the past, reminising those days where i see everyone as... as... pure innocent creatures, where everyone is equal, and just... easy to understand. hais. the complexity of growing up.
for some unknown reason, i'm starting to dislike the grown old me. like.. i dont like me being so complex. and others being as complex to understand.y cant we just be 1+2=3 ? perhaps. perhaps. with growing up comes the price of loss. loss of innocence.
Feb 2, 2005
hurr! haven blogged for a while. neverthless there's nt much to talk about anyway. hahas. its just boring me and my boring life. wat else?
hurr. unit day on 19th feb. shld b going back lar.i wan to see everyone in st nicks! i miss the home feel! anyhow, i think i have talked enuff abt missing sn.
my class was crank tdy! guys actually wore the sn uniform! gosh., they llook outa place.
have been feeling a lil somehting these days but guess i'll just put it away. i noe i wun have the chance to say it aniw, neither the courage or watsoever. hurr. i cant tell. but i can only hide it away lar.
and my class ppl are lik irritating! everyone's caught up with the ru xue name. i mean, wat's wrong with my chinese name?! hurr. its ok wat, just tt it tends to be erm... mistaken for some other chinese phrase. i like ru xue, wat;s wrong! hahas. :) stop it k. hmpf. i am angry! serious, tho no one blieves it anyway! hahas.
bithiah's laving for australia. aww. hte nostalgic feeling comes back frm siqi's departure. takecare and god bless.
been trying hard to b less ba gua and more quiet. erm...lets just say it nt for commenting yet! :)
i think i like him. the guy in the future! :) hahas.
hurr. unit day on 19th feb. shld b going back lar.i wan to see everyone in st nicks! i miss the home feel! anyhow, i think i have talked enuff abt missing sn.
my class was crank tdy! guys actually wore the sn uniform! gosh., they llook outa place.
have been feeling a lil somehting these days but guess i'll just put it away. i noe i wun have the chance to say it aniw, neither the courage or watsoever. hurr. i cant tell. but i can only hide it away lar.
and my class ppl are lik irritating! everyone's caught up with the ru xue name. i mean, wat's wrong with my chinese name?! hurr. its ok wat, just tt it tends to be erm... mistaken for some other chinese phrase. i like ru xue, wat;s wrong! hahas. :) stop it k. hmpf. i am angry! serious, tho no one blieves it anyway! hahas.
bithiah's laving for australia. aww. hte nostalgic feeling comes back frm siqi's departure. takecare and god bless.
been trying hard to b less ba gua and more quiet. erm...lets just say it nt for commenting yet! :)
i think i like him. the guy in the future! :) hahas.
