gosh, life. this freaking mess.
how can someone ever give voice to such ridiculous thoughts and comments. i cant fathom it all. Cant even understand it at all.
We did not interview to become actors on (work) life's stage. I can only imagine how frustrating it is.

imminent

I don't think we realise, early enough, the inevitability of death. Our deaths, and the deaths of those around us.

Everyone knows everyone will eventually die. But no know realise it will happen sooner rather than later. Often times death seems something so far away, there are always higher priority, more salient things to care about.

But while we shouldn't be over-obsessed about dying, perhaps what is important is to realise that death is imminent upon all of us. Ours and those around us. Thus, what we do today, we don't want to be too late to regret tomorrow.

We don't want to realise things are lost, and be too late to rectify anything.

trending book of the week

"I wanted to know that he would be okay if I died. I wanted to not be a grenade, to not be a malevolent force in the lives of people I loved."  - John Green, The fault in our stars

"if you can't be alone, then all you'll be is lonely"

but at times, you just cant.

like the world's a void, and everyone, but you, have been sent to outerspace. perhaps human beings are wired to need company; but how sad if we have to try so hard to demand some. it must be both tiring and defeating.

oh, that defeated feeling. lurks around no matter when/what/how long.

一閃一閃亮晶晶 留下歲月的痕跡
我的世界的重心 依然還是你
一年一年又一年 飛逝僅在一轉眼
唯一永遠不改變 是不停的改變
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我不像從前的自己 你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑 依然的美麗
直至只能往前走 一個方向順時鐘
不知道愛有多久 所以要讓你懂

我只不过很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢听他的歌。

好快，一年一张专辑...现已十多年了。 好庆幸，一直以来都有他的歌陪伴！:)

好开心，就好像同学会。一起唱着那些熟悉的歌 hees
<3

Maybe it is true that we do not remember days, we remember moments. That is perhaps why flashbacks kept coming at me these days; those moments I remember most distinctly, and which I can only miss much from now.

It's weird/funny/amazing/sad that life can be snuffed out in just a moment, and a moment is all it takes to make a difference. We will all have moments we remember, moments with those closest to us, yet no longer so.

I will miss u.

thanks feb:)

And now, back to work in march, with travel plans only six months away. Jiayou lu! At least distant travel plans are always better than having no plans (:

At times I have this realisation tt i'm really a fortunate girl. Feeling blessed and hope I deserve all that I have. Because times like this, it feels like life's gifts for me seem way more than what I ought to be entitled to. In any case, I must work hard at being deserving then. :)
;gogogo and thank you for everything I have.

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"We accept the love we think we deserve." -the perks of being a wallpaper

"Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Because it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them." -stephen chobsky, the perks of being a wallflower

a good read. despite that loneliness you feel while reading. a story about not letting the past affect your present and future. embracing that pain, because it'll pass soon. jiayou!

hello 2013; I'll be good. at least I'll try.

I didn't hold onto those moments enough in 'twelve. But there're always things I fail to do, wishes that go unfulfilled. But there's always this year. (Or is there?)

Anyhow, starting my first 'thirteen post with a note to self to (hopefully) unclutter my life a little. Things are getting too messed up, too mudded recently. But at least I've been reading (and hope I don't ever stop reading).
(:  jiayou lu, jiayou everyone.

"Letters are just pieces of paper. Burn them, and what stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish."
-norweigian woods, haruki murakami