it will get better;

i need to start believing. (: that whatever goes down, will come up, as i've learnt from running slopes. i'll keep waiting for the day when things start looking up; when rainbows appear again; when shooting stars start shining for me; when i get into the groove and love of E again. for such a day, i will work hard. i will i will i will. i keep telling myself i will.

perhaps becos thats the only way i can keep myself sane and away from the other possibility- that the fate is sealed, that its gone forever,and that things wont ever look up again. too traumatising a possibility to think of, so i wont.

happy 2010!
i wrote a milestones of 2009 in the draft posts, but i didnt felt like i've achieved enough to publish that. so i'll just count my blessings silently, and thankyou 2009. (:

books that i never want to finish reading

piyos got 'have a little faith' by mitchalbom for me for christmas (something i've been wanting for months, only to finish it in hours). the book is so good. so so good. i wonder if you've ever had books that you didnt want to finish reading. its the knowledge that the end (of the book) is near, you dont want it to end, yet you cant stop reading. thats always the thing with good reads. such a dilemma.

but 'have a little faith' is really a very touching nonfiction, intertwining two religions, topics of faith, death and God. (perhaps too morbid to read over the christmas holiday, but) i dont quite know how to put it, and i probably cant put it better, but one of its theme of the universality of faiths and religions resonated. in a sense, its an answer to questions and doubts i had always kept within.

gooo read the book and find your own resonance from within. (:

ending this post with one of my fave quote from the book:

Faith is about doing. You are how you act, not just how you believe.

running and flying

loving adizero shoes. they make me so happy jogging again.it feels like i can fly, feels like nothing's weighing you down, feels like barefooted running. (: such a good run; my first, since the marathon. finally. YAYS.

but without the proper cushioning because they are made-to-let-you-fly, lu've gotta be careful on the knees. but running never felt so good for so long. yayness.

its this fear of lost and emptiness

i dont know why but this feels so sweet.

(on your speakers too)
seasons greetings.

my current read

moments. we just remember in moments and then link them together to make up our version of a life.

freedom isnt a one night stand with a sad stranger in a cheap hotel, drowning out memories with wine and the feel of another's misery. freedom is being all alone and coming face to face with yourself and not turning away; freedom is swimming naked and exulting in a cold river at dawn; and its just you, just you and no one left to help you and hold you and ward off harm. and you know that this dark clarity isnt happiness or unhappiness, its something different from anything you've ever felt before.

-Solace, Nicci Gerrard

we ran; and we ran

marathon#3
blisters, right knee, left ankle.
other than these, the weather was beautiful (save for the last section when the sun came out from hiding). thanks to yuesheng for the awesome company in the first half. im just glad i completed it, much as i was so tempted to keep walking so often after the late half of the 20km and 30km stretch. (even the last 5km feels like forever). and i loveee the bananas! (:

all that matters is we didnt give up.
what we'll always learn is that the race eventually did end.

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yayness,there goes exams! this sem is worrying, but til results are out, i shant worry too much.

thanks for all the lucks and wishes on 29nov (:

the fb msges, the smses, the birthdaycake surprises, the cards, the present. i still feel loved despite the exams, and thats all that matters! wheees.

one mth holiday! reading, cycling, steamboating, sleeping, teeveeing, packing and recharging. i want next sem to be much better!