went back st nicks today to eat ORANGE BOWL! i am the uncle's royal supporter!went all the way from bukit timah to amk to patronise his orange bowl! :) yumm. thanks joy for accompanying me back!

den slacked ard with the np ppl. yepp. missed st nicks. the feeling in there is just so comfy. like i can do anything and everything i wana! heh

canoe tmr. everyone's lik telling me NOT to join canoe. heh

and i'm opening the blog for honglimavis! mavis!!! haha. watever lar. just feel insecure having my jc ppl read this. hurr hurr. so some thgs cant be posted! hahah.

edit:was told to open by hongli! :D and mavis lar . hahas.

oh man! mavis commented! i'm super surprised. well she p***ed sch while i was struggling hard to keep awake in lit. watver lar she!
muscle ache for second day alr!argh! -__- y cant muscles nv ache. (nt that i have any..its just the lack of it that's y in aches...) econs was ok. at least i didnt copy kkkkkkk! :) hais.
suddenly feeling so exposed w my link on e class blog. shall ask mak to take it down!
and stupid mavis hav MSN and blog but she refused to tell me! baa!

shld b going back an on fri! anyone on?

btw happy birthday crystal tan!!!!!!!

LUCIA WANTS TO STRIVE TO BE CONSIDERATE AND NICE TO ALL HER FRIENDS. AND NOT BULLY ANY SINGLE ONE OF THEM IF NOT LUCIA IS BEING VERY MEAN.

I PROMISE TO BE NICE AND TRY MY BEST NOT TO GOSSIP ABT PPL :( SORRY TO THOSE THAT I'VE BEEN SO INCONSIDERATE TO. SORRY.

Heh heh!
ytd went for the canoeing tryouts. nt exactly tryouts, just go there for a sort of orientation lar, i guess. felt the brush of the wind against my face again. havent felt that feeling for so long! and i'm reminded that its a feeling i think i do long for. but felt pretty alone there...cos i only noe leilei there. thank god for lei lei!
den went to join the class at the outing at sentosa, siloso beach. ok lar, got darker, plus the tan from canoeing. they went down the water,didnt join in lar, cos i alr went down once in the morning and gt pretty sian and i have to lend hongli my shirt. see wat a nice friend i am! :D
den ha d afew fun thgs on the way home, but shant tell much else MAVIS kill me. heh heh. no lar, only tt i;m getting morre n more ba gua nowdays. eevn cecs oso think so. ghaha oh btw i met up with her on fri and ha dlotsa fun! and watched elecktra (sorry abt the spelling, i forgot! ) , great show. but a lil too violent for me. but great show all the same! thrilling...exciting . nice. thanks cecs for recommending it!

ok, and my wish for myself is to be LESS BA GUA lar. i noe i am :( hahs. and well, concentrate on doing my studies due credit.(and effort) i'm a guai kia, rmb?

i dun feel lik blogging but i'm doing so all the same.

trying canoe. but after i saw how much pull up yu zhong can do... i'm feeling a lil bit lik backing out. but i shant i guess.besides dun even noe if i'll get in.

tried now. shall sleep soon. tons of homework awaiting the holiday weekends. which is super saddening. gosh! seeing how the tchs ppl do tutorials is scary as hell. i dun mean to use hell cos i dun lik that word..but it really is.. just mades me feel MUCH more inferior to others. i'm lik lousiest in class.

We were strangers on a crazy adventure, never dreaming how our dreams will come true.
In the end, I want to be standing at the beginning with you.

Was reminded of something when I re-played the Richard Marx and Donna Lewis song for Anastasia soundtrack. I’m surprised my com actually still have it. But it’s a really sweet song lar. Super sweet, like you. Much as it have been sung at every appropriate occasion.

Just reminds me that when two people meet and becomes friends, it’s actually something really precious. Why is it that there are so many other beings on earth, at the same place, at the same time with you and you don’t become friends with them, but only with that particular friend? Its just amazing, isn’t it? And it just reminds us of how intricate friendships actually are. How wonderfully life has planned for us to have them as friends to go through points in our life with us! And it also makes me realize how I have abandoned my friends, how badly I have treated them when God, when life have actually meant it as a present for me. Gratitude. Gratitude to even your closest friends are needed. I am thankful that I have friends who don’t shun me, friends whom I can tell worries to, friends who are wiling to brave the storms with me, friends who I know never leaves, no matter what. I’m grateful to all those special beings in my life, thank you for being a unique part in me.

Maybe its high time for me to do the same for my other friends, to show them that I’ll be standing at the beginning with them.

Yes. I will.

At least I try.

headache day

i guess i shld feel much better than my last entry. yea, i am...knowing that i am so dammn mean. hahas.
watever.

was having a headache... so i didnt go class bday. ok, anti social u wld say.
den i slept more and realised the headache gt worse. so,yea.

oh..and siaosiao(wth the cool accent) is leaving s60. which is super sad. i can bear foor her to leave cos she had brought us so much joy! :D but for he rown future, and in the asumption that bio-chem is her love and interest, i cld only wish her all the best when she leaves. much as i hope issac koh will nt call her!

i'm in huangchen lighting! much as i always call in lightning.the guy just sms-ed to say i'm in. to think i tot the chance was low. hurr hur.

and i'm sad,cos i seem to have lost the confidence to play badminton. just tt little thing in me that makes me unsure of my badminton.

Somehow I’m just feeling low now. Don’t read on unless you want to be sad too.

Somehow I regretted the way in which I started this year. I had always wanted to start this year feeling happy, good and comfortable in a new environment, though apprehensive at the same time. But it proved to be a huge mistake. Leaving comfort zone (ST NICKS) was definitely not a good experience. I have been struggling so hard out from my second home, and this time, is the first time I have fallen so badly away from the comfy lushes of support in sn. I’m just sorry for wanting to remain as myself in a different environment. I thought that changes wasn’t good, I thought that I should just remain the same old me, and things would still be the same. I had gotten so used to the freedom in sn-the free to joke talk laugh tease play have-fun environment. Really. It is when you lose it that you cherish it most. And it is only now that I miss it most; hold it ever more dearly while it slips away from my grasp. Is it wrong? Is it wrong to want to remain unchanged, to remain the true me? Perhaps everyone changes, and different people from different backgrounds hold different views to one’s behaviour. Maybe. But why is it that I find that I cant even remain as myself? Why is it that I can be the true me? Why is it that I can’t say do behave the way I like? No, I truly have no mean intentions to behave as I am. I have none. I just want everyone to be happy, have fun, and be true to one another! Maybe many a time in our lives, truth clashes with our search for soul mates. They probably don’t go side by side I supposed. Maybe I have been too naïve all these times to believe that truth is the important that connects us all. I really just want to be me, just be myself. But I feel so constrained in this endless tunnel that I’m traveling in, this claustrophic place that I’m in is hell! There isn’t anyone much who I can confide in other than 1 or 2. And typing is probably the best place to talk to.

I’m sorry that I have somehow contributed to your guilt. I truly am. I feel bad. I am sorry. I know words hurt, and I know words once said, can’t be taken back. I’m not taking them back for that reason, but I only ask that god help you understand that I have no ill intentions of saying that. I just said what I wanted to, and always had been doing. I’m mean, I’m bad, and I’m sucky. i'm not trying to defend myself. God, please lift his gulti and let him before as before. Give me a chance to amend my mistake. Sorry, god, please forgive me. Forgive my harshness and guide me to be more tactful. Guide me to think before I start talking, to consider other’s feelings before I speak. And please, show me the way to brightness, and enable me to be myself. Its terrible trying to be someone else I’m not. please

i just realised my friends actually wrtes very intellectual erm..blogs... Which makes it a MUST for intellectuals lik me to write on intellectual topics too! haahs.

well, like how fate brought ppl tgt and stuff (reads: my classmate's blog! ) gosh. so from now on lucia will try to erm blog on intellectaul stuufs and provide for u some very interesting persepective (lik real! ) oh wells, eveyrone's like talking on msn and i get so blur. hais. oh wells.

dun think i ever will . bahaahs.

omg! i felt so left out. haven reasd the newspapers, haven watched tv, haven done anything much except stay in scvhool late to do up the oritentation stuffs. been really busy and tired these days. :/
but i lik my ct. they;re really nice ppl lar. :) peiwen is in my snr class... and our councillor. yepp. but had a really hard time rmbing names! our class gt the best o1 item! yay s60 rocks ..and the hc songs are quite fun/ was quite shocked there were actually 3 snr crashes! mans! feel so cheated! hahas

went back st nicks! nmiss the food there so much! and the place too lar! :D the drills was really nice!

just kinda miss everyone else.. 4g, mrs seah, sqdmates. hmm. takes so long to go school/ bleahg.

think im liking hc alr. esp my og. :D hahas they are all nice ppl! den was trying so hard to rmb names...had a real HARD time. let me see. there's my closest friend there... pin yun, den there's ella, jamie, wen bing, wang rong, wan tian, atha? den there's winnie, ming juan, jiang lai, jian lu dent eh guys got john, jeffery, jun xiang, melvin, bernard
yep, that's all i can rmb! OG5 rocks! :D hahas. ok lar, just tt we were that bad and stuff. played ice breakers and stuff but we're gonna slpit to our CTs tmr.so its quite sad. and i'm quite sad i dun think i get my lit! was on the verge of crying when i heard tt my class is taking erm... pcme, my 2nd choice lar. but hais.only noe rebecca taking tt combi and she;s in my class!? so there mayb a chance to erm... take lit i guess. alright ...so tired.

oh thnk both zp and nic is takign pcmb. zp is in chen nee's class! wohoo. ok, cya all. oh.an dmy ogl likes jay chou too! wohoo! and pin yun! yays. jay rocks everyone! den lots of ppl in 3sci. yepp.

wishing for a bunch of cool classmates! in erm... s60 hci. :) i'm hopeful

first day at hc. at least i didnt malu myslef? hahas. the school's full of traps, so called. cos there's lots of UP and DOWN steps, and i almost trip several times. ALMOST! means i didnt. yea. and my og is NUMBER5 yes the one w/o any st nicks girls. hais.,and there's 3china scholars..and i'm lik huh? no one tok to me. hope i'll get some friends soon.

aniw, saw zhuipei and nicholas! hahas. quite expected i guess.seeing the smart ppl there.hahas just said HI (i'm friendly) to zp, but didnt really say so to nicholas cos i didnt really see him face to face lar. but yea! schoolmates again... hardly possible seeing tt the cohort has..erm..some 1000 ppl i guess?


yepps., maybe trying lit. thinking of trying lar.

oh, erm well.it took like 1hr just for the 852bus. not funny lar.thee was a jam! at yck. boo.off to sleep. gtta get up real early tmr :(

played badminton tdy! was supposed to play ball! but it was raininga nd STILLL IS raining. hurr.
i'm quite scared of tmr. heh .
gonna miss diana.and everyone!
:D its like one of the last timw we're gonna meet and stuff. oh wells. cya :(