i love days when im happy and contented

yepps, i love days when i feel contented and happy about my very presense.

this doesnt make sense so dunbother

'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same',

got this quite from somewhere. its rather rhectorical i think. im breaking my selfdiscipline to not blog to write smth abt it! haha. i really think it does apply to very varied yet multiple situations. im glad today cos 1) i met my pri4 (i think) friend and he recognised me and i recognised him! 2) i have received sweet msges from friends i tot have forgotten my existence these few days! (: promos are coming and i reallyneed some motivation! in a weeks time! anyway, the fact is, 'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same' this quote. it sorts of puts down in words for me what i had felt sometime bck, that saw reduction to nil regoings. i hate changes for one, i think i have said it enuff, but i guess when things dun feel quite the same, i feel sad. prolly someone will tell me, we still miss u we still do. yes they do, but things are quite different. i can nv be in the know of all that they do everyday. its small things in school life prolly that makes one feels attached to ur frens aint it? missing out on the small things isnt quite the same as being filled in on things. anyway i jus needa crap, so yea! (:

i cant get into jcnet ):

i jus wna feel like earlier. happy and contented that u do get rmbed. long lost classies prolly will still recognise you. prolly. and you hope for prolly to become WILL. MUST. anything absolute, haha. meeting ex classies oflate makes me happy. somehow, its another kind of joy altogether, like one that comes DEEP DEEP DEEP from within. hahs. perhaps its smth thats been buried with time and finding it again brings about a great deal of joy and happiness i cant describe. i realise a lot ofthings, i have already chosen to forget,like today emily jus reminded me of sec1 stupid things i did in np. haha like standing in the corridor and greeting ma'ams. totally disgusting if u think back now, but we did those. prolly i was too paiseh then to rmb. but its jus dug out? dug out and you feel happy that actually u do still have such memories. u jus hafta search hard enuff. and i actually rmb a name i haven rmbed or thought of for at least 6 yrs! chunxi. the name jus came to mind when i saw him like woah lucia have super powerful memory! (: all n all. im happy im grateful. im missing ppl.