trials too many?

i dunno. but im sick and tired of having to go thru all these trials. its too many too much too overpowering for me. yet each day i find myself facing one more even b4 the previous could be overcome. i am very veyr sorry that i didnt go back hc tdy. i was even ready to pon sch, den after that i was alr standing at the busstop waiting for 852. yet once again it dawned on me tht i wun noe if they'll be there for me, wun noe how to console when i myself am feeling sucky and terrible in sch tdy. i am very sorry i have nt been a good friend. i really wanted to go back, but im no longer part of hc. i shld noe.