i dno how many times i've blogged this, but after today's openhses, courses could only get more mind bogging. omg and i was in major whining mode. HAHA, that was until i found a clone in mt four yrs squadie 2 yrs classie hengheng over msn. i really think we're qt alike in certain ways.
the idea of being the one taken the unbeaten, untravelled sidetrack.the idea of being that much different as other people, and being able to prove that sidetracks can be successful too. its a risk, a challenge, and perhaps also my ideal. and its one track thats bounded too, by many other considerations. if life didnt have that much considerations, i think my track would already have been very side-tracked. but whether now it will go in the usual pavement or towards some other tracks, i havent given sufficient thought to it. not enough to decide poly/uni at least.
i will/must/shld make a decision soon. this, i promise myself .
aniw on to happier stuffs! courses gets super depressing there's nthg to look fwd to alr. yay cos its buddyhoagies with my buddyfongfong tmr!
BECCA! (: instinct told me it was you! my heart almost jumped when i saw the numbers spike can! hah! LOVE! (:
SHUIYING! (actually tried to psycho me into engineering) --> see i managed toput ur name down again!
Mar 10, 2007
Mar 5, 2007
the big three
whoever topped my huggs to three thousand. thankyou! LOVE!
mind bogging courses. pls help :(
mind bogging courses. pls help :(
Mar 4, 2007
i guess certain things, we will never really get over it. perhaps we may just slowly learn to accept it, gradually forgetting the reason we cried so hard that day, and just letting time take its toll on the event in your memory. but we'll nv get over it entirely. it still stays in ur heart even if we dont think it still exists, even if we think we've gotten over it. becos when the time comes for it to be dug out again, the feelings remain raw.
i'm reading 'like the flowing river' by paulo coelho currently and its a really easy but inspirational book. jus perhaps fitting for times with lost faith like this.
i'm reading 'like the flowing river' by paulo coelho currently and its a really easy but inspirational book. jus perhaps fitting for times with lost faith like this.
Mar 3, 2007
life lessons, how'd we learn
the rush, the adrenline, the excitement, the queasy stomachs. in a sense, im glad its all over. ina nother, i wished i could go thr' it again. i dont know if its lost or fatigues that i felt ytd, i think there's prob no excitement left. not when you dun have happy friends around rite?
but for all those lonely studying outside lib at the hot humid place i call 'my usual place', for all the struggle to get myself outta the hse to sch, for all the mumblings to self, all the sketches to self to motivate and to share worries, for all the happy tutu days i call love, for all the sleepy physics tutorials, for all the braindraining gp lessons,
i'm contented.
this shall be a feel-good post.
im equally grateful for the higher powers' decision to land me whr i am, amidst all the love and joy, even tho they often couple with some negativities. come to think of it, i talked to myself qt abit then, and i still enjoy doing so today. perhpas, its one thing thats really personal, and perhaps weird i suppose.
didnt want to leave sch ytd, becos of the tranquility after everything. perhaps its the rain, or the soothing breeze. but the atmosphere just makes me wna stay on, and take in all the sights, endlessly.
i keep reminding myself. i am contented. becos all too often its easy to get lost and deluded in my world where good grades might perhaps be norm for some. but becos i know my grades didnt come except aft much failing for two yrs, i know i must and i will be contented. its enough to make me happy, enough to say i didnt fail anyone badly enuff i hope(other than ms gp tutor :( ). yay. whatever it is, reminders to myself to be contented is perhaps the most impt thing i've taken away frm the half hour but lifelong event. really did.
some time ago, i started wondering at the apt of it all. why do i hav to be different? so many instances. let's jus stop at quoting them. if only i was more similar, perhaps then, decisions werent be looking as difficult to make as it is now.
perhaps we could only be more similar, but never same, if ever at all we could be similar. becos sometimes i secretly suspect proclaimed similar ambitions get suspiciously linked to mr majority or mrs friends. i dont know. if i did, decisions would have been much easier. but of cos, i nv doubted, there are some passion followers. i respect much.
and i miss sch. i really do. i promise i'll go back often, just for the feeling i love. (present tense, meaning i still do)
SHUIYING says she didnt get mentioned on my posts oftne enough, so here's one for you, my creditor of 5bucks. (: its the company, really.
but for all those lonely studying outside lib at the hot humid place i call 'my usual place', for all the struggle to get myself outta the hse to sch, for all the mumblings to self, all the sketches to self to motivate and to share worries, for all the happy tutu days i call love, for all the sleepy physics tutorials, for all the braindraining gp lessons,
i'm contented.
this shall be a feel-good post.
im equally grateful for the higher powers' decision to land me whr i am, amidst all the love and joy, even tho they often couple with some negativities. come to think of it, i talked to myself qt abit then, and i still enjoy doing so today. perhpas, its one thing thats really personal, and perhaps weird i suppose.
didnt want to leave sch ytd, becos of the tranquility after everything. perhaps its the rain, or the soothing breeze. but the atmosphere just makes me wna stay on, and take in all the sights, endlessly.
i keep reminding myself. i am contented. becos all too often its easy to get lost and deluded in my world where good grades might perhaps be norm for some. but becos i know my grades didnt come except aft much failing for two yrs, i know i must and i will be contented. its enough to make me happy, enough to say i didnt fail anyone badly enuff i hope(other than ms gp tutor :( ). yay. whatever it is, reminders to myself to be contented is perhaps the most impt thing i've taken away frm the half hour but lifelong event. really did.
some time ago, i started wondering at the apt of it all. why do i hav to be different? so many instances. let's jus stop at quoting them. if only i was more similar, perhaps then, decisions werent be looking as difficult to make as it is now.
perhaps we could only be more similar, but never same, if ever at all we could be similar. becos sometimes i secretly suspect proclaimed similar ambitions get suspiciously linked to mr majority or mrs friends. i dont know. if i did, decisions would have been much easier. but of cos, i nv doubted, there are some passion followers. i respect much.
and i miss sch. i really do. i promise i'll go back often, just for the feeling i love. (present tense, meaning i still do)
SHUIYING says she didnt get mentioned on my posts oftne enough, so here's one for you, my creditor of 5bucks. (: its the company, really.
