hur? hmm? hais.

i dunno y.but talking to shuiying jus makes everything seems so mild. and makes me feel v happy! :) for once, i truly felt bliss in me. she's the only one who can really make me talk my heart out and in again and again.and so shuiying is my bestest bud! am blessed to have her as such a good frined! yesyes.ok wells, i guess im really bother by the fact that things hav changed without notice and warning. things aint the same anymore. watver had seem so perfect and aint that perfect and ncie anymore. people, stuffs, relations, perceptions, impression, feelings...bascially just things. i dunno.but when a fren reminded of stuffs abt ppl being erm, yes... den i realise that yes. things have cahnged. i cnat say too wells, openly but just tah things hv changed. i have been yanked out of my dream perfecrt world and find myself suddenyl facing the world of reality. i dunno. but i think i aint gonna care too much for them alr. im out of it but i still love it. but things have to be settled and make possible by those in it. i dunno. it sounds irresponsible but ppl are cheering cos tt means lucy aint gonn b bagua anymore, hooh. i dunno.cos things will be difficult. its nt too nice for me to crash lik everyday, cos lessons are starting , as in tutorials, on wednesday. and...and. i jus feel its inappropriate, nt that i dun love it, but cos i luv in too much, i dunwanna interfer too deeply. no one really wans to tell me anthg anways. hais, msn can tsign in! sucks la. whoeevr tagged 10plus hugs is damn sweet!thankyou i love you. anyway.was thinking., my world of nice ppl everywhr is simply shit? lik so untrue after hearing jd's thing. hmms, gues i jus need more time to think thru the things inside my mind now. its v saddeng so i wana think it out... throughoutly. and the fact tt i tried signing in msn for an hour plus is pissing me!seems lik im nt the onlyone, but im still v sad. i need ppl to cheer me up! anyway since i cant log into msn, i might as well crap here? okies, bought aj uni alr.okies, its isnt that bad la. just a but ugly la, but nvm, whole sch ugly tgt.been a longg day. shall sleep soon :) hais, life is sad. lik jd says. we go to sch jus cos we hafta go , nt cos we wanna go sch see frens and all. plus theres no shuai gess in aj. nt that i have seen yet tho, haha. life is lik drifting , at lesat thats wat my lfie seems lik now :/ heh heh. ohwells. thinka bt it den tmr den come and crap.