SHUCKS

SHUCKS. (GOSH HOW LONG HAVE IT BEEEN SINCE I USED THIS WORD! (: I MISS USING IT ACTUALLY. GOSH)

I JUST HAD THIS FEELING, THIS DREAD. OF BEING SEVENTEEN.

TIME PLS STOP PLS STOP :(


RAMBLINGS BELOW
isit when u're seventeen youre bound to be bombarded with bad happenings, prolly cos theres no excuse for u to escape frm it cos you're still a kid? im still a kid, believe me. i LOVE MAI YA TANg, only thing being i havent ate it for ages! needa keep my teeth cos im aging fast! and less jabs pls, cos i still wan my arms. ok no link. took 2 jabs tdy, and its aching u see. really, being seventeen jus sucks to me. tho im not seventeen yet! but its like wat? there's really nothing u pretty much can look forward to, can you? (prolly only more jay! albums) at the moment i feel anything but feeling i wan to grow up. really, sheesh. growing up's prolly the ONLY thing i wan to STOP. right away. was at the doc and i saw these two cuteeee! kids, just so innocently sitting there, i cnat describe wat happen , but it jus give me this sense of WANTING to remain kidish. yet, no one allows me to. no one allows me to act like a kid, in fact everyone thinks I SHOULD and i HAVE ALR GROWN UP, and shld act like mature? my head! jus let me be kidish,please. at least when im kidish, ppl dun blame me for being a bad friend, ppl wun blame me for treating other ppl badly, for being mean, for being who i really am. kids really are the only true-est people in the universe alr. and theyre running out ( think ageing popn!) sometimes, perhaps ppl expect too much from other people. when ure kidish, you REALLY behave jus how you want to be, you dun even have to think abt stupid stuffs like friends taking offence cos everyone's equally no brain. hah! at least when i was young, i didnt think anyone was irritating.

BUTBUTBUT, one thing never change, and never will.

SMOKING have continued to be a NONONO to me. and im glad for it to remain taht way (: im proud to be antismoking tho expression of my dislike for smoke is prohibited in my sis's presence (she thiks i'll get killed by this one day, which is true, but dying for such a smoking cause only goes to show that smoking takes away your very sense of thinking. bbecos smoking itself sucks. ) for me at least. (: and BEER too. ivee seen , shld i say, scary reactions of ppl to alcohol. scary, and i shudders. thats y, i dun DRINK. u can drink, just dun catch me in an antiDRINKINg mood.