bannanreeee! rocks

ok, photos of bannamree courtesy of yongchuen. some are really pretty! (: and here .

check out joyce's blogg for more links under nanofive. im lazy

now they are making me REGRET even more that i didnt bring my digi. :( but memories are sweet! (: WHEE

SQUADMATEStoday! haha. and my favouritest dose of it. i promised to go back but i forgot til this morning so i jus WENT DOWN! haha. a promise is not called a promise for nothing, much as i was tired and lazy and LATE! ahah. looked at the drillscom. haah but didnt do much help la. i have lousy drills aniw. den lunch w sqdmates and the two new CIs chuan n xuewei (: yummy sn food, no matter what it is. i love! ohh they gave me a NICE POSTER of myboyfriend! haha. jayposter la! haha.

sometimes i think its only with these people i love so dearly, people that ive spent HELL through with that i feel i can truly be myself. my sqdmates are prolly the very few people i can just go crazy with, talk crap, laugh out loud on buses and realise that we'e the only noisemakers on bus, walk around looking like some weird people in shorts and all. yet they noe all about me, that something is wrong when lucia dun talk, tolerate my coldjokes and (particulaly xh!) tolerate my suaning! HAHAH! and despite all the crap, i feel totally comfy with them. ilove all the 31 ppl right from the start! i think sn ppl that i knew in sn are the ONLY people i could talk all crap with and feel totaly safe cos they wun abandon, they wun despise. (prolly only in jokes, they may) sigh, when the new year draws near, it means that we'll have EVEN lesser time to meet tgt, safe for the bigger np events cos everyone will be busy with SOMETHING CALLED TESTS AND EXAMS. sigh,but we should really meet up whenever. but ur nco is too lazy to organise. im lousy ): i love squadies.

just now i suddenly got this dawning that... its been two years ago since campcraft com that we had late evenings trgs in school and going home with yoshi and its already REALLY dark. that repeated feeling of evening busrides home, i dunno, but it just suddenly dawned upon me when crys said the trgs last til 645pm. i dunno, im just weird, i know. :P i hope i can keep to my promise, to commit to the next ccc THOUGH the tent section have totally mutilated. sigh. i still find pegging very shuang (: plus its so near aj, should be not difficult to keep my promise! (:

sigh, new year new year
i hope somethings gna be up and happy for me this new year man,
else its gna be real bad.
looming tests
piling work
drifting minds
lonesome people.

2005. how would the end be like? like when it started? when i was fearful and a lil hateful to go into jc? prolly. im fearful n hating to go into jcTWO now. As jus seem so near, so unpreped for. 2005. when i hate to leave behind so many friends in a great school ? prolly. im going into j2 with fewer friends than ever. perhaps the older you get, the lesser friends you'll find yourself with cos everyone is always caught up with something else more impt than you, cos everyone have their own secrets you just aint the friend they would share with? im taking things slower, and much easier now. when i find myself working/doing stuffs too fast, i would want to slow down and reach a pace like that in bannamree. slow and peaceful. aniw, life neednt be so rushed to be happy and fulfilling! (: similarly, im going into 2006 with tons of worries like in 2005, with little faith that i'll make it through each year. but i noe, somehow, n0 matter how hard the going is, i'll make it somehow, and in every yr there will be times when im hopeful. there must be! (: so til then, A LONG ENTRY ALR. (: loves!