that shining star awaits

that shining star awaits

at the end of the day, pls know that u are being loved. it doesnt matter the amount, really. but what matters are those people who do.

i am sorry i asked. because i didnt think that i wun have any solution for you. i ought not have asked, becos i have no solution to help you with, just useless grins that i have to paste on. i'm jus stupid, i always repeat mistakes i promised nv to commit again. i nv learn, i nv do ): and thats making me sad. plus i hate making ppl sad, and i did. thats double sad. other than sorry, i dont know what other comfort i can offer.

i couldnt get myself to smile veyr much, but jo is very nice cos she helps me and try to convince me it isnt my fault. tho i really shld have jus concentrated on shooing ppl off the blackthing for analogue instead of going ard wanting to offer a listening ear to problems. i am a bad friend becos i dont have any advice to offer and i only make ppl sadder than they alr are. i just wan to fen dan xin shi only. even that i cant do, how useless. ):

(aniw, yay im a born physicist cos the circuit me jo shermin bulit BUZZES!) and smth that truely amkes me smile from inside today was a small boyboy cum neighbour who took the lift with me when i came home shagged and sad. he said bye! den i say bye while holding the lift button for his family to come out. den along the corridor he kept saying byebyebyebyebyebyebye to me and looking back! :) how cute! i wish the world was full of cute guys like him,i mean, cute BOYS.

i am heartbroken i really am. not only cos i made ppl sadder, im made to confront anth more serious issue. the lack of passion in me. because he felt so much for it, that he cried and worries and feels sad abt parting. but me? my only jotted memory was last yr aft firstthreemonths, and den its during np farewell. oh, and in ocip. other than that, ive not really felt enuff to cry for any other partings as yet. whcih holds me to admire all those who does becos passion and belonging is such a difficult thing to cultivate, i wish i ahd such a passion in aj. i wished, but it may nv happen with only three months left in school term.

my dearest nice voices won the world champs for choir! :) they're officially olympic GOLD okays! how cool is that, im so v proud of them. yuklum and chinguan! and my fave singer! and hanquan!

i jus felt this triumph of happiness this morning during assembly only for a drastic mood change shortly aft. how ironic.

try as i might, dont make things worse pls, dear me.