what if it says BLANKED

there's so many things going thru' my mind then, i dont know what to type now.

hahs. internet have been v slow these few days. i suspect its not the earthquake but my com, but aniw its okay becos ive become a tv addict :/

anyhow the new year is coming! its amazing how i'll keep mentioning: i'll do this this in the new year, etc etc...but when actualy the new year is just a few days away.

i dont know why, but my mind's been so heavy. or isit the heart? ah well, i dont quite know. days pass by fine(which i wished for ) but smth's quite missing im sure. i passed by yck station just now and i felt this pang of skriek, fear, emptiness? i cant put a word to it, but its just that sudden feeling that suddenly gaspes me by.

CCC gathering at marina on wed! fivesome affair but loads of fun! (: i think its the company that rock, tho not much of the food. steamboat food seems to be always similar. even tho five seems a lil lonely for an army of originally twelve, but liek liying mentioned, less people,but still as happy (: ilovemyccc

sometimes i feel like really pursuing, doing smth i really like. but then on the other hand is always the money issue. life is a contraiction of the world's extremes, i guess. HEHS

alrite, anyhow BADMINTON early tmr !!! yohooooooo