right where we never began

stars. the year4 tab brought about a feeling that i cant describe. its such a complex mixture of feelings- anxiety, emptiness, lost, excitement, relief and more, that i lack a better word to sum it all together. (or maybe its my lousy language ability)

its a probable FOURDAYWEEK next semester! sounds exciting enough for me to look forward to school already. nevermind that i hadnt qt had a summer break yet, and that when school starts i'll probably start moaning and whining about school all over again. (i dont ever change, do i?)

mindless rantings, ignore me.

but people are such schizophrenic creatures.
or maybe its just me.
or maybe because im just not worth anything.
argh some days i get so tired. of this, of myself, of all the arugments in my mind, of the insensitive freak in me.
CHINUP! BEAMMMS PLEASE.