have been meaning to say this. was walking home frm the market ytd and tot of lots of stuffs. but mental blk now so i cant rmb all.

everyone is essentially alone. i mean, there will always be times when you're alone. and in life, its very hard to find someone who will always stay with you no matter wat. no even ur lifepartner, nt your parents. people do come and go in life. even for siamese twins, thinking is also smth lonely. (oh a lighter note, dao dai is second on 93.3fm! wayy to go!) ok, anywya. sometimes i jus love to lalaa to the music on weekends especially. with the music(essentially, 90%of the time its jay's) plugged loud into the house, or into earphones, i will jus think of stuffs and sing e song at the same time.just rocks.
i jus wana concentrate on studying now. like hongli says, must pia. cos im lagging behind so many people and things. and physics econs math chem aint easy enenmies. ok nvm, i shall make friends with them instead. ok. (: forever love. evryeone wans love, but i guess if you dun care as much about it, you'll naturally be embraced in love and enjoyg it be4 u realise. and life that wayy is wayy happier.

no regrets from now, lucia. no. lookforward,shake hands with PCME please! (:

okies. "So many of us either fear tomorrow or regret yesterday. But I won't fear tomorrow if I get to be your friend forever, and I don't regret yesterday, coz one yesterday, I met you."

(;here's it. my resolution for the next month.

drift

anything that is placed in the middle of the sea, in time, will float away.
a grp of things placed togther in the middle of the sea, will to float away, dispersed, drifted, lost from each other in time.

wat an analogy to draw. but it is true. anything that is seperated will drift and only get further away. which is wat i fear. shuiying have it. anyone who left fears the drift. not literally, but you know, a friendship that is nt kept tgt, will drift. away. i fear of wat is to come. ifearofthedrift. but i guess its inevitable? not smth tt i alone can control.

drift. you can feel it. but u cnat run away from it. like canoes, in the sea without paddles. you could only hope you dont drift, but you know u do.

been pondering for at a while. now i think i am resolute. i shall not bother with too many things.its beena long way despit it being a short few weeks. i am tired. very tired of bothering too much abt things i cared when others dislik me for doing so. to a certain extent at least. lik hongli says of things... let things take its own course. yes. no point fighting and being resistent to things when they are actually supposed to be the way they are. i guuess yes. there's so many things i wnaa say , so many things on mind i dunno how to put down in words. i guesss i jus keep it in?
i ok now. it does ache me too much alr. i mus move on alr. been 3 months. too much play.ought to mugg. lik i tell minli in aj everydy, i wana mugg hard. i dun wana a repaet of my os. really.its down to seriuos mugg esp physics. shant bother wif too much. :) jus lead a simple life. ende.

hur? hmm? hais.

i dunno y.but talking to shuiying jus makes everything seems so mild. and makes me feel v happy! :) for once, i truly felt bliss in me. she's the only one who can really make me talk my heart out and in again and again.and so shuiying is my bestest bud! am blessed to have her as such a good frined! yesyes.ok wells, i guess im really bother by the fact that things hav changed without notice and warning. things aint the same anymore. watver had seem so perfect and aint that perfect and ncie anymore. people, stuffs, relations, perceptions, impression, feelings...bascially just things. i dunno.but when a fren reminded of stuffs abt ppl being erm, yes... den i realise that yes. things have cahnged. i cnat say too wells, openly but just tah things hv changed. i have been yanked out of my dream perfecrt world and find myself suddenyl facing the world of reality. i dunno. but i think i aint gonna care too much for them alr. im out of it but i still love it. but things have to be settled and make possible by those in it. i dunno. it sounds irresponsible but ppl are cheering cos tt means lucy aint gonn b bagua anymore, hooh. i dunno.cos things will be difficult. its nt too nice for me to crash lik everyday, cos lessons are starting , as in tutorials, on wednesday. and...and. i jus feel its inappropriate, nt that i dun love it, but cos i luv in too much, i dunwanna interfer too deeply. no one really wans to tell me anthg anways. hais, msn can tsign in! sucks la. whoeevr tagged 10plus hugs is damn sweet!thankyou i love you. anyway.was thinking., my world of nice ppl everywhr is simply shit? lik so untrue after hearing jd's thing. hmms, gues i jus need more time to think thru the things inside my mind now. its v saddeng so i wana think it out... throughoutly. and the fact tt i tried signing in msn for an hour plus is pissing me!seems lik im nt the onlyone, but im still v sad. i need ppl to cheer me up! anyway since i cant log into msn, i might as well crap here? okies, bought aj uni alr.okies, its isnt that bad la. just a but ugly la, but nvm, whole sch ugly tgt.been a longg day. shall sleep soon :) hais, life is sad. lik jd says. we go to sch jus cos we hafta go , nt cos we wanna go sch see frens and all. plus theres no shuai gess in aj. nt that i have seen yet tho, haha. life is lik drifting , at lesat thats wat my lfie seems lik now :/ heh heh. ohwells. thinka bt it den tmr den come and crap.