yoshi jus reminded me. a year have jus passed like really fast! i have officially left SN for 365days! and thats REALLY ALOT yet it seems like it passed in a short span of time. maybe time shortchanged me!
but i really miss the worry free days in SN. at lkeast the worries didnt qt bothered me. i did have worries... like failing amaths, everymorning getting ppl to button up and stuffs. and the people treat OTHER people with such sincerity i actually do not feel anything. which is good cos anything that i feel is negative :/
the new year is like. so lost. so weird, so unknown.
Dec 30, 2005
Dec 29, 2005
life's rather conflicting sometimes
here's why:
-time passes so fast ive lost track of time! i promise that in the new year i would slow down my own pace, and constantly check that im in sync with myself.
-i dun like it when ppl dun tell me stuffs. yet when they tell me, i dun like it either :/
-i REALLY want to sit down properly for once and do finish my hoemwork yet i always end up doing something else. (esp reading the curious incident of the dog in the night-time! its SUPER good i just borrowed it from the library!)
-im bored at home yet i dun wna school to start yet i miss sch yet when sch starts i noe that its gns be deadly cos everyone's at orientatn for the ENTIRE week, all except me. :/
-i tell myself to be nice to people yet everytime i come into contact with them im sure to be mean ):
hopefully in this new year to come in TWO days, i would be a better person, keeping in mind the many things i have learnt, been taught and realised at nan. hopefully i would be a better sister and daughter, a better and more appreciative and less bothered friend, a more committed individual, and more caring and more patient mentor, a happier and healthier soul to my body, and most importantly, a more me lucia.
it cant be achieved. yet who says you cant have dreams? (:
here's why:
-time passes so fast ive lost track of time! i promise that in the new year i would slow down my own pace, and constantly check that im in sync with myself.
-i dun like it when ppl dun tell me stuffs. yet when they tell me, i dun like it either :/
-i REALLY want to sit down properly for once and do finish my hoemwork yet i always end up doing something else. (esp reading the curious incident of the dog in the night-time! its SUPER good i just borrowed it from the library!)
-im bored at home yet i dun wna school to start yet i miss sch yet when sch starts i noe that its gns be deadly cos everyone's at orientatn for the ENTIRE week, all except me. :/
-i tell myself to be nice to people yet everytime i come into contact with them im sure to be mean ):
hopefully in this new year to come in TWO days, i would be a better person, keeping in mind the many things i have learnt, been taught and realised at nan. hopefully i would be a better sister and daughter, a better and more appreciative and less bothered friend, a more committed individual, and more caring and more patient mentor, a happier and healthier soul to my body, and most importantly, a more me lucia.
it cant be achieved. yet who says you cant have dreams? (:
Dec 27, 2005
bannanreeee! rocks
ok, photos of bannamree courtesy of yongchuen. some are really pretty! (: and here .
check out joyce's blogg for more links under nanofive. im lazy
now they are making me REGRET even more that i didnt bring my digi. :( but memories are sweet! (: WHEE
SQUADMATEStoday! haha. and my favouritest dose of it. i promised to go back but i forgot til this morning so i jus WENT DOWN! haha. a promise is not called a promise for nothing, much as i was tired and lazy and LATE! ahah. looked at the drillscom. haah but didnt do much help la. i have lousy drills aniw. den lunch w sqdmates and the two new CIs chuan n xuewei (: yummy sn food, no matter what it is. i love! ohh they gave me a NICE POSTER of myboyfriend! haha. jayposter la! haha.
sometimes i think its only with these people i love so dearly, people that ive spent HELL through with that i feel i can truly be myself. my sqdmates are prolly the very few people i can just go crazy with, talk crap, laugh out loud on buses and realise that we'e the only noisemakers on bus, walk around looking like some weird people in shorts and all. yet they noe all about me, that something is wrong when lucia dun talk, tolerate my coldjokes and (particulaly xh!) tolerate my suaning! HAHAH! and despite all the crap, i feel totally comfy with them. ilove all the 31 ppl right from the start! i think sn ppl that i knew in sn are the ONLY people i could talk all crap with and feel totaly safe cos they wun abandon, they wun despise. (prolly only in jokes, they may) sigh, when the new year draws near, it means that we'll have EVEN lesser time to meet tgt, safe for the bigger np events cos everyone will be busy with SOMETHING CALLED TESTS AND EXAMS. sigh,but we should really meet up whenever. but ur nco is too lazy to organise. im lousy ): i love squadies.
just now i suddenly got this dawning that... its been two years ago since campcraft com that we had late evenings trgs in school and going home with yoshi and its already REALLY dark. that repeated feeling of evening busrides home, i dunno, but it just suddenly dawned upon me when crys said the trgs last til 645pm. i dunno, im just weird, i know. :P i hope i can keep to my promise, to commit to the next ccc THOUGH the tent section have totally mutilated. sigh. i still find pegging very shuang (: plus its so near aj, should be not difficult to keep my promise! (:
sigh, new year new year
i hope somethings gna be up and happy for me this new year man,
else its gna be real bad.
looming tests
piling work
drifting minds
lonesome people.
2005. how would the end be like? like when it started? when i was fearful and a lil hateful to go into jc? prolly. im fearful n hating to go into jcTWO now. As jus seem so near, so unpreped for. 2005. when i hate to leave behind so many friends in a great school ? prolly. im going into j2 with fewer friends than ever. perhaps the older you get, the lesser friends you'll find yourself with cos everyone is always caught up with something else more impt than you, cos everyone have their own secrets you just aint the friend they would share with? im taking things slower, and much easier now. when i find myself working/doing stuffs too fast, i would want to slow down and reach a pace like that in bannamree. slow and peaceful. aniw, life neednt be so rushed to be happy and fulfilling! (: similarly, im going into 2006 with tons of worries like in 2005, with little faith that i'll make it through each year. but i noe, somehow, n0 matter how hard the going is, i'll make it somehow, and in every yr there will be times when im hopeful. there must be! (: so til then, A LONG ENTRY ALR. (: loves!
check out joyce's blogg for more links under nanofive. im lazy
now they are making me REGRET even more that i didnt bring my digi. :( but memories are sweet! (: WHEE
SQUADMATEStoday! haha. and my favouritest dose of it. i promised to go back but i forgot til this morning so i jus WENT DOWN! haha. a promise is not called a promise for nothing, much as i was tired and lazy and LATE! ahah. looked at the drillscom. haah but didnt do much help la. i have lousy drills aniw. den lunch w sqdmates and the two new CIs chuan n xuewei (: yummy sn food, no matter what it is. i love! ohh they gave me a NICE POSTER of myboyfriend! haha. jayposter la! haha.
sometimes i think its only with these people i love so dearly, people that ive spent HELL through with that i feel i can truly be myself. my sqdmates are prolly the very few people i can just go crazy with, talk crap, laugh out loud on buses and realise that we'e the only noisemakers on bus, walk around looking like some weird people in shorts and all. yet they noe all about me, that something is wrong when lucia dun talk, tolerate my coldjokes and (particulaly xh!) tolerate my suaning! HAHAH! and despite all the crap, i feel totally comfy with them. ilove all the 31 ppl right from the start! i think sn ppl that i knew in sn are the ONLY people i could talk all crap with and feel totaly safe cos they wun abandon, they wun despise. (prolly only in jokes, they may) sigh, when the new year draws near, it means that we'll have EVEN lesser time to meet tgt, safe for the bigger np events cos everyone will be busy with SOMETHING CALLED TESTS AND EXAMS. sigh,but we should really meet up whenever. but ur nco is too lazy to organise. im lousy ): i love squadies.
just now i suddenly got this dawning that... its been two years ago since campcraft com that we had late evenings trgs in school and going home with yoshi and its already REALLY dark. that repeated feeling of evening busrides home, i dunno, but it just suddenly dawned upon me when crys said the trgs last til 645pm. i dunno, im just weird, i know. :P i hope i can keep to my promise, to commit to the next ccc THOUGH the tent section have totally mutilated. sigh. i still find pegging very shuang (: plus its so near aj, should be not difficult to keep my promise! (:
sigh, new year new year
i hope somethings gna be up and happy for me this new year man,
else its gna be real bad.
looming tests
piling work
drifting minds
lonesome people.
2005. how would the end be like? like when it started? when i was fearful and a lil hateful to go into jc? prolly. im fearful n hating to go into jcTWO now. As jus seem so near, so unpreped for. 2005. when i hate to leave behind so many friends in a great school ? prolly. im going into j2 with fewer friends than ever. perhaps the older you get, the lesser friends you'll find yourself with cos everyone is always caught up with something else more impt than you, cos everyone have their own secrets you just aint the friend they would share with? im taking things slower, and much easier now. when i find myself working/doing stuffs too fast, i would want to slow down and reach a pace like that in bannamree. slow and peaceful. aniw, life neednt be so rushed to be happy and fulfilling! (: similarly, im going into 2006 with tons of worries like in 2005, with little faith that i'll make it through each year. but i noe, somehow, n0 matter how hard the going is, i'll make it somehow, and in every yr there will be times when im hopeful. there must be! (: so til then, A LONG ENTRY ALR. (: loves!
class xmas erh... party?
haha dun really know if its a party / outing/ gathering or what
but nomatter what, 2205 gathered ytd for kbox/pool/steamboat/weizhi's bday/xmas xchange all in one day! WOAH looking back, no wonder i was so tired! HAHA!
yepp. i unwrapped presents alr! whee i love my piyo! haah she got me a nicenice ( but flowery :( ) pencil case and shirt. haha! i love unwrapping presents! AND osy actually bought a cake to my house? HAHA thanks for spreading the xmas joy! but STOP wasting money my dear! hais. and minyi dropped by a nice notebook and card! so SWEET! hand delievered lehh! (: LOVES! class xchnage, zhihao the two decks of poker cards! HAHA! ive got one of it the THIRD time! but i still LOVEE it! (: thankss! whee i love receiving presents but i hate shopping for one! HAHAAH! oh wells. i forgot tdy i promise to go down for np, so yea, i should start moving my butt off here alr!
but nomatter what, 2205 gathered ytd for kbox/pool/steamboat/weizhi's bday/xmas xchange all in one day! WOAH looking back, no wonder i was so tired! HAHA!
yepp. i unwrapped presents alr! whee i love my piyo! haah she got me a nicenice ( but flowery :( ) pencil case and shirt. haha! i love unwrapping presents! AND osy actually bought a cake to my house? HAHA thanks for spreading the xmas joy! but STOP wasting money my dear! hais. and minyi dropped by a nice notebook and card! so SWEET! hand delievered lehh! (: LOVES! class xchnage, zhihao the two decks of poker cards! HAHA! ive got one of it the THIRD time! but i still LOVEE it! (: thankss! whee i love receiving presents but i hate shopping for one! HAHAAH! oh wells. i forgot tdy i promise to go down for np, so yea, i should start moving my butt off here alr!
Dec 24, 2005
newyear resolutions
jus read the ST commentary (ms tay would be so prouda me) on newyear resolutions. its smthg like saying, that we should try to make simpler resolutions that we could fulfil in our eveyrday lives. and live with it.
LAST YEAR
1. do the things that i like and dont regret them (lik i'm now if you know what i mean)
2.be nice to everyone and go to THAT school with an open heart lar(come on lucia, you can meet lots of new ppl how exciting.! bleah )
3. oh wells. mental block. will come back one day!
i think i have fulfiled 1.5/2. resolution number 1 is only half satisfied i guess (:
THIS YEAR i wish for
1. to be happier! to be nicer to myself! by not keeping things in to myself and yet to not be too bothered about things that i can have no control over.
2. to be nicer to my family! (:
3. to be satisfied with the things i already have (keeping nano always in my mind), that i am already far more fortunate than i think i am.
4. to be kinder to the ppl around me and make everyone happy on dull days.
5. to STUDY HARD and score!
i hope this five are fulfilable. though none seems easy like last year's. its complicatd. sigh :( OK, shall start fulfilling rite now.. be happier! :) HAHA!
add a sixth
6. world peace and harmony. no disaster or war okay!
LAST YEAR
1. do the things that i like and dont regret them (lik i'm now if you know what i mean)
2.be nice to everyone and go to THAT school with an open heart lar(come on lucia, you can meet lots of new ppl how exciting.! bleah )
3. oh wells. mental block. will come back one day!
i think i have fulfiled 1.5/2. resolution number 1 is only half satisfied i guess (:
THIS YEAR i wish for
1. to be happier! to be nicer to myself! by not keeping things in to myself and yet to not be too bothered about things that i can have no control over.
2. to be nicer to my family! (:
3. to be satisfied with the things i already have (keeping nano always in my mind), that i am already far more fortunate than i think i am.
4. to be kinder to the ppl around me and make everyone happy on dull days.
5. to STUDY HARD and score!
i hope this five are fulfilable. though none seems easy like last year's. its complicatd. sigh :( OK, shall start fulfilling rite now.. be happier! :) HAHA!
add a sixth
6. world peace and harmony. no disaster or war okay!
