Nov 29, 2007

19 on 29

i’ve been really fortunate. despite all that i’ve done (or rather not done). many times i know that i aint worthy of such good friends and family because i don’t even treat any of them half as well. thank you for making my days, not only today. for every other day that you’ve been in my life.

i was battling a headache and fatigue and the lack of sleep ytd right after malay. what a way to end it. but yay! all’s over. (if yours havent) don’t worry, it will come soon! living ytd for the 17 hours before 5pm came, was scary. its like living in solidarity in hall. i dont think i spoke more than 5 lines to people prior to exams. but sure, i did speak alot (but only to myself). sometimes i think maybe i'm on the brink of madness. but other times i reassure myself that people alr thinks im mad so it dont matter. haha.

thankyou BESTEST fren, roomie wj ele pj yx jh for ytd. and my nicest sisters.and the surge of msges coming in this morning. oli yeetheng cecs pan fong yuexin siyu ele laowu chinny xiaobai becca hongli lew su redmoon heng siaoer meijie jo baguamate esther zhimin peijia ossie kaiwei mich hil aiping yongchuen mstan cereal ying katrine kez shimin wongjia val buddy iggie diana hinho huiping boss choonyuan meiyee sherl sherm. THANKYOU

a year older, but aint much wiser / happier / sadder. how to, when you're on the brink of entering the big 2. its scary, paths ahead. wait up Time, i've not yet thought of the future. dont transport me so far ahead, could you?

perhaps its some wakeup call. but i know, in no time, when the work gets to me, i'll forget about this again. til the next alert comes by, its already too late.

but as a happy & rare post goes, this post comes with PHOTOS. note the plural! i dont normally post so many photos per posts! so u're in for a treat.

MESSY table
reflects the state of my mind

only she can make things so happy
my study partner

minli's bday!
minli's 19th cake!

Nov 28, 2007

early morning rants

im only dropping by here to blog the fact that i've woken up the earliest today in months, on this last official day of my sem. wohoo!

its only 615am and i've

bangun tidur den sudah berus gigi. saya akan belajar sekarang!
(woke up from sleep and brushed teeth. i will study now!)

Nov 27, 2007

you know you didnt choose the wrong course when you feel a rush of adrenline reading through the descriptions of the modules you can take next semester and in the sems to come as a major. it brings a smile you cant explain.

and that is despite just coming back from a deadly core paper.

im glad it still excites me so.

one last paper! (: jiayou lu!

Nov 23, 2007

HOME

feels so good to be home after a week-long battle with my notes. i could feel my body breaking apart. aching shoulders, and just a really drained mind. i complain way too much, i know.

in a week's time, everything is gna be fine. even if anxieties will hit, even if papers prove to be discouraging, there's always this three people i can count on. i'll be home more often i hope!

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

and joy made my week so much the better.

Nov 18, 2007

what do they say?


shadows, and what do they say?
Originally uploaded by lucia!.

and i panic. i'm trying to keep every breathe light, its so stiffening. its tomorrow. i cant breathe ): it always happen.

i've drank two cups of milktea today. at least it feels better than coffee. the night was so peaceful, waking up to the music in the background. (:

wish me luck! jiayou lu! u can do it! two weeks (:

in between shades of rainbow, is there light?