no one knows.

because you hear , but you do not listen.
because you see, but you do not perceive.
because you know, but you do not understand.
because you dont even care.

because i aint even good enuff.
dont say its okay.
dont say you understand.

we all need something/someone to walk out of the dark with

i need to write more, read more and think deeper.
i really want year4 to be good. year3sem1 last year wasnt good, it still taunts me sometimes. i hope history wont repeat itself in sem1 this year. the similarities in these two sem1s scares me. but no one understands those unfound feelings of fear. just like no one knows why, some days, things just dont feel fine. thankful for sunshine, always there to brighten my day (:

just watched a very inspiring tedtalk (: it can be this easy, being happy.

hotcaffemocha; grande; lowfatmilk; no whip (:

hello 3am

blogging now 'cos its been so long since i was up at 3am.
unearthly hours like this aint for me, but i have grown to enjoy the few times when i do stay up (and awake) til this late.

i like the peace, the silence and the moments when everything else seems unimportant (save for the assignment/task you're doing). i like the clarity of every sound, the adrenaline rush and the anticipation of sunrise in just a few more hours.

3am's the time when the darkest part of the night has passed (to me at least). a new dawn's arriving, bringing with it new hope and a fresh start yet again.

pity i wont get to catch the dawn, not today. someday soon, i hope i will.
for now, jiayou for school. goodnight/goodmorning world. (:

-wonderful morning, a summer day, reading in the park


-and now, let's jiayou together (:

another new week ahead.

dont affect others.

its an important two mths to go.

deleting yet-to-be-sent-out msgs for much of the week.

tried much to keep away.

yet do we know how far away is sanity?

jiayou lu.

school reopens tomorrow.

想要放 放不掉 淚在飄
妳看看 妳看看不到
我假裝過去不重要
卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見 才發現再也見不到
我不能 就這樣 失去妳 的微笑
口紅待在桌角 而妳我找不到
若角色對調 妳說好不好

說了再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

why does the first day of school always feel the same, no matter how many first day it already is? jiayou lu. dont panic. just dont.

stay strong.