because(s)

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havent tried writing a poem in ages. but this aint anywhere near a poem, just a break away from my nagging proses. so here we go.

because i choose to be an escapist
because i refuse to think about it in school,
because only at times no other can see, will i convey my very best.
because laughter can be a tear-jerking thing
because we're all taught to act strong amidst presences.
because its not all i can and all i want
because i never fail to forget to cherish
because i hold on too tightly, too late
because they say all good things comes to an end,
must it really be so?
because talk is often cheaper than actions
because i can say but i cant do
because this time its sinking down
because i aint ready for goodbyes
because i know it'll be hard to bring back,
everyone and everything together.
because i suddenly feel abandoned
because the feeling of being left alone to fend for urself doesnt feel good
because the thought of no more school sucks
because there's no more lects for lessons-ending thoughts to wander
because i no longer belong
because we no longer equate
because from this point it'll be different paths
because from here its to each, his own study.
because i am a confused girl
because school holds a special place in me
because in school ive cherished friends
because i treat them as good friends, even if i dont knwo how they think
because feelings are a peculiar thing
more peculiar to some than to others.
because here i am, and here i stand
i have faith that faith can lead me thru-
even more faith that it'll lead us thru.
because i believe in holding on to hope
because i want to be BEAMING on that day
because i want us to be all happy boys and girls that day
because i hate repeats of an ill episode
because i want to start loving myself more.
and because of all the above, i love 2205.

and because its the last day of school
which is why i'm in a super lousy mood :(