;and we wonder why

There were many times during the ascent when we wondered why we were here.
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And sometimes, I think it's not entirely the view up there that we clamber for. It could be the feeling of conquering yourself that we are hooked on. When we were standing on one peak, we looked across to another higher peak and told ourselves, the next time we shall scale that one.

;from one of my blog addictions.

it holds true for many things. i lose the faith, i wonder why i'm trying so hard, why i'm putting myself through all the trouble to do things that might have lost its significance momentarily. why put my body through the fortytwo km when i could already pre empt the aches and the damage to my knees? why spend much of my holidays working to fund overseas service trips? why take on so many when i know i cant handle? why why why.

i guess sometimes its to search for this dream, this secretly stashed away dream that maybe, you can make a difference, that you ARE the dfference, that impossible is nothing: if only you try. just to prove to no one, but yourself. so go on, and dream. for dreams aint impossible. we just have got to strive towards it! (:

three things on my mind:
-marathons: i told myself that i will never attempt it again, but i know i will.
-Nan: cya december!
-school and modules: its both exciting and brain bogging. can't wait for the new sem to start (weird, but yes), yet i can't decide my modules!

i had a happy day out with fong! banana choc pizza doesnt taste as nice as before already. maybe memory made it better ? but yays to MORE food!