tdy went back sn for teh prize thing and nv returned to aj. haha. missed the make ups la, but was jus tleling myself nvm. i will catch up soon. someone mugg physics with me pls! im in dire need of help! cecs told me to blog abt smth happy. went back SN tdy talk to mrs seah. makes mefeel happyla. den went back sixoh den we talked for so long in the canteen :) missed crapping and chatting away and laughg out loud. mightnt go back for sometime cos i needa conc on getting my physics back b4 i hav some fun. hais. stressed.

but i can do it. cos i noe all my friends r behind me! ahha i hope so tho. watever la. sighs. eveyrone in the new hc uni vnice. hais... :) i must be happy, so muct all sixohian!!!! dun cry and dun tell lucy har! if nt i;ll be v sad. aniw tdy went back hc lik laugh more than i spent the entire day at aj la. hais... but things will get better

i needa move on cos time dun wait. :) smile ppeps!

hmm i dunno. but there's this emptiness, just this different feeling when i got back hc tdy., brought along mic and yoshi. sorry i abandon u.
its just different alr. seeing chujie at our class bench... ok maybe not mine anymore. yupps. lik, htings jus feel weird alr. lik im nt as close to anyone anymore? like our closeness is gone? maybe i was just in a bad mood or smthg. and eveyrone jus happen to be too...lik everyone was just damn sad when i go back. dunno y. hais. like, have things changed so much? so rapidly tht i could no longer catch up? hais.
i feel more drifter away alr. lik all our chitchats, lik all the insider jokes, i no longer understand as well, im no longer a part ? i dunno. but it feels not lik b4 i guess.
mayb i jus holding on to too much of the past . and so i am outaplace in both my dream home and my present jail? ahah. ok, couldnbt find a better word. i guess it'll get better. i hope.

seeing fish in new nj uni, seing them with the hc uni, a part in me just ache. yet another part asks me to move on. i think wat mavis says is probably wat i dread most... that we'll eventually become
empty friendds. friends with empty friendships?
something about walking past your ex classmate and saying hi and something about some empty friendship or whatever and then i started imagining me walking past anyone of you with the same kind of relation and it's like i won't be a part of 60 anymore and when i come back and sit at the class bench with you all we won't have anything to talk about anymore and soon we'll drift apart and i won't go back anymore then i won't be friends with you all anymore then we'll start saying empty hi's and whatevermkgjklfjdklfsd. will we wont be friends anymore? like real friends? i noe everyone says we'll keepp in touch and all. but time, distance gone is nv taken back. soon, i'll be a mere visitor than part of it. i dunno. but i feel outaplace.evrywhr? hais, gg to bed with a bed feeling again. shucks.

hurrs,

ok, was trying to sound happy and un-sianed at class blog. now is sianing time. tdy at aj during the breaks just felt this wave of i dunno wat feeling. just felt terrible and all...missing school and eveyrthing. everyone. but gradualy got better. i guess its jus this transition. buying uni on fri or thurs i think. ahah. hais cant bear to put aside the lovely pinafore. but all things do come to an end?
was v dissapointed w my new class? they lik didnt wanna meet us liddat ? guess there was too many sn girls or smth? dunno but just didnt felt welcomed in 22/05...but things will get better i guess. no hongli, no BP ppl else they'll surely be my best fren. ahha :) but thanks for evrything
everyone back at sixoh. thanks foryour smses, keeping me updated on everythg happening in class. it really kept me going in aj. knowing u guys are okay in sixoh. i hope.things must go on. so must life. its really nt the second intakers fault they're in sixoh. its God's will, life's plan for them. and so is the case for myself
but howwever hard i tell myself to not look back and regret so many things, and to count my blessings, its just...harrd. iguess its just me. jus hope the sixoh ppl will open their hearts to the new ppl cos its hard to adapt in a new place, with no frens. im experiencing it noww. so i noe. :/ hurrs. but lucia, things will get better. it will! youve been thru the worst alr! wats a lil thing lik this? aniw, the aj sci burette use the clip again,which means i mus change again. why is it that everytime i fall in love with smth and things must change?
and im sick of all these trials nd challenges coming my wayy. i have taken enuff these recent days!pls. peace to me! :D
god bless! i wish the best for you. oh.palyed bball w mic jus now, got off all my frustatratns! yays. im a happy girl now.

trials too many?

i dunno. but im sick and tired of having to go thru all these trials. its too many too much too overpowering for me. yet each day i find myself facing one more even b4 the previous could be overcome. i am very veyr sorry that i didnt go back hc tdy. i was even ready to pon sch, den after that i was alr standing at the busstop waiting for 852. yet once again it dawned on me tht i wun noe if they'll be there for me, wun noe how to console when i myself am feeling sucky and terrible in sch tdy. i am very sorry i have nt been a good friend. i really wanted to go back, but im no longer part of hc. i shld noe.

just tot of doing smthg witty.

I cant help it if everyone in hwachong loves our class and wants to come in.
seriously, sixoh, we cant help it if our class just rocks right?
we cant help it if our class is simply attractive to eveyrone and everyone wants sixoh.

aww, we're so loved! yea man. feeling better now. and accpting the fact alr la. but i'll be going hc often! dun ban be frm doing that! :P

and i think i owe lao mao lunch:( our econs test bet. but i dun even noe how much i got! bahhh.